I can officially say i've seen Flowers Forever, Bright Eyes, Gillian Welch & David Rawlings, Cursive and Desaparecidos in Omaha NE!! And since I never upload any decent photos, here are a few taken.
I fell in love with the place, well except the weather. Met some great people (Party Dad) and got to spend some quality time with my Clair Monster and Will.
Peace Love and Rock n' Roll
My new housemate isn't picking up her phone so I have no way of moving in and being ready for my first day of work. Tonight might be the last night I have here in my home. I will be living in a big city with a stranger and working in a new store. Am I exited? Yes. I want to meet new people and live in a city that is alive with new possibilities. I have exhausted all of the opportunities in this town. I wish my family was coming with me but I know this is going to be a learning experience. I want to be on way to finishing my schooling and start making real money. and I want a real relationship that involves 2 adults who love and let live. On my way to make my life what I want it to be.
I believe it's beautiful that in a woman's heart you will find a sea of secrecy.
The thoughts, actions, plans, hopes she never tells/shows you.
It's so beautiful because women give you so much of themselves, they give you life, they give you love, they will give their body.
If you could find out what they keep from you, what do you think you'd discover?
What secrets does your mother, sister, grandmother, aunt, girlfriend, nurse, waitress, maid, librarian keep in their heart?
What have they seen...
What have they felt...
What have they not given anyone...
I will give the world every little once of love I have, it's comforting to know there is something no one will ever know about me.
I miss everyone in Colorado.
I have been away but I promise I am back for sure now... at least for awhile until I disappear into the abyss once again.
Call me crazy but is this really unreal? If someone would have told me
that I was going to live to see a black president I wouldn't have believed them. I believe people are SO jaded that when really outrageous events happen they don't give them the significance they deserve.
I want to let everyone in on everything that has happened to me over the past years but I don't know if I should. Not because I am lazy but because I should focus on the future and take it a day at a time. Since I am a cheese ball I will end this entry with a quick recap of me and what I do... Maybe this will help everyone remember who I am [maybe it will help ME remember who I am] AND since I am lazy and a picture is worth a thousand words.. enjoy
I fall like the rest of you, I just happen to fall harder and in front of a bully.
But I seem to always find a way to get back up again.
AND climb the biggest tree I can find.. only to fall again. Story of my life?
I usually take it easy.. sitting on trains that are indeed going.. Nowhere
Working odd jobs
And then back to climbing things again.
I had 4 of my wisdom teeth removed a few days ago.
And I'm not as bright as I used to be.
I plan on incorporating my pulled wisdom into one of my new paintings.
but that in itself is a farce since all the Vicodin I’m
I have not had a single dream since the night before the surgery and someone is catching on.
I started a list of all of the food I want to eat once I regain the use of my jaw. Yet I feel like replacing that list with one of brand new jeans that could now fit me like I always wanted them to.
On a lighter note. I visited Clair & Will in Portland about a month ago.
Strip clubs are a joke. I will do my best never to set foot in one for as long as I live.
nice to finally feel the sun heat up my bones.
it seems like i just woke up.
so much time on my hands now. and it feels like sand slipping through my fingers.
i want to keep you... time.
i want to own you... time.
a perfect summer day: blank canvas. endless supply of paint. chilled green tea. mumu. no bra no panties. and a good looking man laying on my bed.
Shit I have it so good.
I preoccupied SOME of my time to making my room this amazing little palace of antiques and ancient relics with my art and other art I admire in every nook and cranny.
Male and female company... shit I have more than I can handle.
Work is so laid back and it makes me feel productive and creative.
My parents help me with whatever I need.
I drive my little baby back and forth and until this day I still find it beautiful and liberating to take it for a spin.
Love I have it. Money I have enough to get by. Drugs well they come and go like lovers.
So what is it that I despise?
Iâm an adult now.
I am so exited that Clair is coming down by the end of this week, shes like my fucking hero. period.
Jackie and I are on a whole other level right now, which is AMAZING.
my paintings are keeping me sane along with meditation.
DRUGS. well I haven't taken any in a few days. which is good. I want to stop for a very long time. no good ever comes to someone on coke for weeks straight.
School is great, it takes me to a different world of truth.
so you all want to see pictures.
even shots of our feet are amazing to look at.. ehh?
Pat is AMAZING!
Timmy is one beautiful person
my fav shot of Pat and Gabe the Babe
I love life.
her voice is all I've been able to hear for the past few months, I am deaf to all other voices, I feel them but I cant comprehend, this is not "right" but I don't care. I have only a few plans.
-attend my four college classes and LEARN
-work around twenty hours a week at the art supplies store
you're like a cat... a meerkat!
I will be turning eighteen years old in about eighteen days. its all hitting me pretty hard
adventures is what I live for. and with every great adventure there is a need for fuel.
we wanted to have a romantic dinner on the beach so we went to Cilantro for some raw vegan food.yum.
we played on fountains and rode wagons.
downtown Oceanside is filled with old folks yet quite beautiful in an awkward sort of way.
on the way back home we took a wrong turn and ended up at a rest area where we filled ourselves with junk food.
over all it was a good day. work was not bad. i actually love the fact that they are willing to work with my school schedule. AHHHH SCHOOL STARTS IN 2 DAYS COUNTING TODAY. college is so different from high school I hope I can excel.
Jennifer might go to Palomar which means she might move, knowing that makes me very sad considering the fact we should be in Portland right now. I love Jennifer and I admire her choices..at times.
I talked to Brian again! It's the first time I have liked one of my co-workers. I want to know him more, they say that you can't love anyone you don't admire. well so far I can look up to him and his love of photography and his wonderful outlook on life which is similar to mine. so far so good. I can't wait to see how wonderful my life turns out to be.
Everyone loves cross-dressers so why wouldn't they love to see Jeffrey Starr with Peaches
thats just a little peek of how the show went.
there are many pictures but i am too lazy to upload. overall me and my little vata Alicia had a great time.
Eagles of Death Metal were fucking amazing!
i saw many of you out there so that was great.
i think i got pregnant at the show