I'm working a lot,
I have a patient I spend 12 hours a day with her, so I'm happy to get the hours.
It is boring work, but I need the money.
I got my unemployement extention, so I was able to get my car out on monday.
Tuesday I put it back in because there were little things resulting from my front end that weren't fixed, plus I have to get the mechanical stuff fixed.
It'll be there for about a week.
I'm getting more money 2 more times next week.
I'm stressed out but I'm doing everything I can ahead of time so I'm ready for the blow of a huge mechanic bill.

I'm not as depressed as I have been.
Thank god for my job, I think he got tired of giving me shit, so he put me back to work.
My brother has been nice enough to let me use his car, it really means a lot to me.
I've been getting home so late that I've been too tired to write, I still haven't fully recovered from my lack of sleep.
I don't even feel like going into detail about how I spend my day.
I just know I don't want to turn out like her when I'm 84.

I've been dying for some fast food for like the past couple days.
I think tonight I may treat myself to some alcohol and fast food.
I need to talk to my brother about picking up another shift tommorrow.
I'm still exhausted, I'm going to the jacuzzi in a little bit.

I hate not having much to say, but being content will do that to you.

:)

This hotel room is freaking sweet. I get my own kitchen and a huge desk. I think tonight calls for a 12 pack and some hot tub. Maybe Fresno isn't all bad.

this quarter has been so odd and stressful and just a pain.

all the snow along with just utter bullshit

I have alot to do, and i want to do is stay with the boy.
we watched Poyno, and my neighbor Totoro. the other night.
and sadly some more odd inside jokes came out.
it's funny half our inside jokes are just stupid.
I keep saying "only we could."

I mean really we started talking about Brian's bastard step mattress.
I at first was just all "WTF?" at him and then anted to figure out how it came to be
we talked about it for a good ten minutes.

it's sad yet fun.
I miss him so big. <3

A little tidbit of advice to those on the job hunt: Potential employers can (and do) check your facebook (and myspace and twitter and all the other very accessible places you reside online). If you don't want them to see you dressed up in your penis costume, make your profile private. (Or just don't dress up as a penis in the first place.) Also, sending your resume from thug_life_4ever@hotmail.com or clownpossejuggalo@yahoo.com doesn't work in your favor either. These are all true stories.

(Email addresses have been slightly edited to protect the stupid)

I got the 31st [tentatively] off from work to take care of a few matters before the end of the semester. I only say tentatively because, knowing I need the money, my supervisor is giving me the option to come in later if I can/want to.

Arrangements for Jenn's bachelorette party are in the works. It's set for the 27th, and it's going to be amazing. We're getting a hotel downtown, and just us girls are going to bar hop our way around San Antonio without having to worry about getting behind a wheel.

I found out that when I lose my insurance in April, my work will pick me up on theirs right away without any kind of waiting period. I pretty much go in and tell them, and I'm all set. Granted, it's a lot of money coming out of my paycheck, but at least Aidan and I will be covered.

Last, but certainly not least, I finally heard back from UTSA and got confirmation of my acceptance :) I mean, I knew I was going to make it (not to sound cocky), but still.. I was getting a little worried playing the whole waiting game. So I get to register for classes in April, graduate from NVC in May, and start my summer semester at UTSA as followed. Hooray!

Despite the shitty weather and craziness at work, all in all it was a great day.

So its sunday night, statiscally the sadess night of the week for single persons because most people spend this night with their family or loved one.
I'm not as sad as most I guess, because it's not like I'm wishing I'm with someone right now.
I guess secretly I probably am but the only person who comes to mind abused me.
His birthday is on tuesday.
That son of a bitch will be 24, still living with his mom, with no job.
Not like that would bother him, it hasn't bother him in 3 years.
I miss him because he was the only BOY I could be myself with for almost 4 years.
I hate that I still remember his birthday, he probably doesn't know mine is a month from today.

I don't care. I will never see him or speak to him ever again.
He's the reason I want to leave, get away from this fucking hole that is the temecula area.
Everything and everyone is connected and everyone knows everbody.
This is my home, not his, he needs to move back to North county where he can be trash like he and his mother are.

I guess my "diet" is still going strong. I'm cutting back on seconds and unhealthy junk food.
I don't feel any different, I just hope to see the results in like a month.

I have a job interview tommorrow, its almost full time but we'll see.
I already got the job at the alzheimers facility, assuming I passed the drug test.
But I don't know if it's full time or part time or what.
I'm just trying to move on as much as I can while I don't have my car back.
I'll get out of this hole, I have to.

I just want to get my fucking hair done.
I want to be bright blonde again.
I want new extensions.

I'm seriously just procrastinating so bad right now.

I have to fill out a ton of paperwork before my job interview.
I need to take a shower and put on my tanner.
I need to do dishes and watch the family guy episode I recorded.
I slept in until almost 1 today so I'm not tired,
besides the fact is that I don't go to bed until like 2 am anyways.

I bought a Madonna CD the other night... love it! like a greatest hits cd and there is 2 of em! Be jealous, very jealous.
Work was super slow today... So I got to come home early.. not that that's very exciting gotta finish cleaning my room... Was going to go to the movies with lashanda tonight but we are going tomorrow instead.