beckie and black people on mtv
snapple
no meryl party
brittany and alina
stuff
more stuff
15 minute late new years kiss
being a taxi
lame drunk girls
home

i like a new girl.
she has potential
but im in no mood to speak of it right now.
today sucked my ass.
oh yah i got stuck in mexico today too.
and i was late to work.
i just want to sleep.
tomorrow is a no work day.
hence a no jon alive day.
im not gonna leave my bed.

YAH for me.
i like this day.
particularily as distant from the holidays as possible.
yet.
a good day.

hmm...
i need new pics huh?
if i could ONLY find trhat god damn digital camera!

its amazing
the number of people ive lost touch with.
its as if they all realized i have ebola
and now its always
...oh another time
...not tonight jon
...i have no gas
...ill come see you when im bored enough
ok WAIT a minute
hold on a second here
i COULD understand the first three
at least until it started getting old.
but you may be saying to yrself
WTF
BORED ENOUGH?!
yes it has been said to me.
and really. if you DONT want to see me
...just tell me.
i could take that.
cause i know some people just DONT agree with some of my morals.
or my sense of humor
...GOD FORBID we take that stick out of our asses.
but i really try SOO hard to see some people.
i offer to pay gas.
i buy you food.
i LISTEN to what you have to say.
...outside of the many things i have to say myself...
i just cant see past the fact that you HIDE behind what you feel.
maybe im a bad person
i really dont know.
im a self proclaimed... everything.
im not mad or nothing.
my lifes great on my own.
i work alot so i rarely have free time.
but that free time id LIKE to share with people who mean the most to me
and if you cant find spare time for me
...i guess im not worth it to you as a friend.
some people i just can no longer see anymore.
it just...
doesnt work.
its been so long that the inside jokes. the sparkle in the eye.
its no longer there.
i just have NOTHING to say to you.
its funny cause HALF of you already heard this from me
in person
out of the MANY things i have to say
and you follow along as if yr my ONLY friend
and everyone else is a fuck ass for not being there.
are you that inattentive?
are my words mearly abstract to you?
or do you nod yr head knowingly but neglect to repent?
i need to apology.
i dont need people feeling sorry for me.
im GREAT.
i just wish more people could join my in my greatness.
...as conceited as that may sound.
just dont be afraid to FEEL sometimes.
everybody hurts.
-micheal stipe.
everyone HAS the same bad things about them.
so an excuse that yr "emo" so you cant go out
doesnt cut it for me.
i can only make you feel better.
i guess im done
yah im done.

so i thought i would...

RAD i work today. whats new? next week i have 4 days in a row i have to stay till 12 midnight. thats gonnabe RAD. considering i have another job as well. oh yah and i dont drive. and that half of my friends dont want anything to do with me. here we go depression.

ive kept to myself lately
i dont go out as much as i used to
and i dont see alot of people anymore
not that im complaining
im quite content with it actually
im in love with some girl in oregon
and as for everything else
i could careless really
i mean i have my share of friends
people i know would show up to my funeral
and at least cry about it for a month
and thats whats important to me
lately ive been into the cars for some reason
that and REM
i dont drive still
i dont know how long im gonna go with out a car.
but i know once i do get it...
no more lame raod trips seeing stupid people
people that dont care about me.
i have two jobs as of now.
the day care. mon-fri 11am-6pm
and borders. basically all the other hours in the day.
i like borders for some reason
its alot of work and im lazy
but when its busy time goes by fast.
and its a quite generic
and i get 30 something % off
so im gonna buy this one book
"dude wheres my country"
im quite intrigued by its name.
thats it.
fuck off.

hoy no era malo.
trabaj

went to death cab again.
saw a handful of people.
death cab covered love song.
slept in this girls dorm.
its kiana’s friends birthday.
so happy birthday.
i dont really remember anything else.
i wanna hang out with melena agian.
hangin out with her reminds me how fun friendships are.
at least before people stop talking to me.
later.