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ahhhhh
hate
fear
sadness
crying
take me away from here
killing
dying
bleeding
screaming
this is what i wish to deliver
my HATE is neverENDING
FUCKING HATE ME like i FUCKING hate
MYSELF
I
WANT
TO
DIE!!!!!!!!!
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shit
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Moderate |
| Schizoid: | High |
| Schizotypal: | High |
| Antisocial: | Moderate |
| Borderline: | Very High |
| Histrionic: | Low |
| Narcissistic: | Low |
| Avoidant: | High |
| Dependent: | High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Low |
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take me away
surrounded by darkness
the only light, a small black candle
representing the blackness of my heart
and the fire of my hate.
it is cold
quiet,
lonely...
The only thoughts are of hate, how everyone hurt me
how everyone beat me down, how everyone broke me
how i learned to hate love...
i close my eyes and take a deep breath, then reach
for the object of my deepest love.
candle light dances across my room, reflected by the silver
dagger...by my god...by my savior, by the only thing that can take away my pain.
I kiss the cold, hard, sharp blade...and point it
toward my heart...i pray to the gods to bless
this blade and bid it to fulfill my desire...
then i close my eyes and push the dagger straight
into my heart.
i take the blessed object and lay it on the bed...
a tear falls and graces the blood covered blade...
now you see what you drove me to do?
i feel the cold darkness of death overcoming me..
. i let the demon’s drag me down.
++what you always wished has come true++
BE SATISFIED!!!!!!!!!!
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my friend adam wrote this. its so great.
When will some icon appear before me that represents a soul
who’s self is so deep, but that deepness i would be able to dig
into easily
and they dig into me
neither of us getting to the bottom, but almost taking dives
but becoming stronger as one, together struggling with our
hardships and defeating it together
their aura gleaming as it collides and is partially mine
I cannot find the one...
Wonder if I should take all I can get, cuz I sure as hell won’t get
anymore except by the grace of God, if it is meant to be..
But maybe taking those who seek to be taken would only be
unreal, just insecure tangebles reaching out for fake temporary belonging..
So I should endure my suffering for those.. or give into sin.. the
greed leads to their greed.. fake sense of belonging on both sides..
for the self which it yearns to fulfill, from instinct, like an animal who choses mates by their sent and figure..
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no fucking way
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weEeeeEeeeeEEEe
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this is a poem that my friend tyler wrote.....its beautiful. just like him.
And you use to always be there for me
You were like my humanity
Even thru keeping me sane & giving me a fake sense of security
It was almost like you were serious when you said you were in love with me
I know now its not true
I know now that you were only lying
Why did you have to do this to me?
Now after every talk I feel like dying
You’ll never know how much you meant to me
I was and still am so deeply in love with you
Now my soul aches when we say goodbye
Now my heart breaks when you say ’I love you’
and now I cry everytime I think about how things used to be
Why do I have to feel this way?
Why do I have to be ruled by your demon?
Its a demon of lust, love, and passion that takes over my mind
shutting my eyes and opening my heart
exposing it to soon be broken yet once again
But these feelings I cannot control
You are still my life, my world, my everything
You are still everything I see, you are still everything I breathe
You are still my humanity, reality
You’re still the one and only thing I need
You are the reason for this passion I feel
This erotic, chaotic fanansty...its surreal
I know now that I never meant as much to you as you did to me
And I will never ask that of you again...I know you have forgotten about me.
Just never forget what I have said...I loved you then...and got my heart broken...
I will still love you and live without you knowing...and I will love you now and forever...
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another one of my useless entries
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this is right...cuz i do
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