i cried so much today it was ridculous.
i kept thinking about those silly little things that we used to talk about.
like for example. when we talk on the phone once and you said we were gonna have chocolate babies. and when we got tired of them. we would eat em. =’( IT MAKES M E SO EFFIN SAD I WANT TO CRY!! honestly that was the cutest thing prolly anyone has ever said to me. but the fact that it wasnt real is the part that hurts me the most.

and i know you dont care. but its really hard to forget everything that happened between us.
I still love you more than you think.
but i dont love YOU. I LOVE that other guy. that guy that you pretended to be for such a long time.
i just cant seem to find a way to leave this "LOVE" behind.
and you just sit there ... leaving me hanging on a string and leaving me there to cry.
and you know i tried to give you everything.
but you just gave me lies.
i cant take this anymore.
i really just need to give you up.

and sometimes. i hope that maybe one day you’d call just to apologize for all the fucked up shit you did.

BUT WHAT AM I WAITING FOR? my heart is still going to be broken. and you arent going to do it. because you dont care. and and you arent sorry
and i really need to just get over this because im such a fool for you.

I HATE YOU. but I LOVE YOU.

How could someone i thought I KNEW turn out to be something soooooooo completely different? You dilberatly mislead me. thats so heartless.
You portrayed yourself so differently.

All that you intended and all the things you kept inside wasnt on the label.

can i be a friend?
We can forget the past. BUT I dont think i’m able to.

i have found. All that SHIMMERS in this world is sure to fade...