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I am taking a lovely little break from my finished midterms, and am going to SAN PHILLIPE MEXICO with a bunch of frat guys and girls from my house and others. we leave at 2:15 this morning! and drive at night while we sleep/booze after we’ve boozed all night tonight, then get there, go to beach, booze, go out, go to hotel, do it all over again and agian till we leave sun night. is sooo fantastic. really hope its what i need, im really fucking excited. i cannot wait. hope to make friends, esp since seriously my guy situation is so dire.
k, heres a rundown if anyone cares, no worries if not, ive had to sit through so many people recently bitching about their guys that i have seriously given up caring. so there is this guy, named big mike from zbt, and ive been staying over there and hooking up with him a lot the past almost three weeks. when we had the dreaded relationship talk (naked in bed, perhapas not the most tactful of me) he told me he didnt want a girlfriend, which is fine, but it really cant go on the way it is you know, i mean its so dumb im not going to be THAT GIRL who comes over to get it on with him when he wants. so i am kinda getting over it.
last night i came to say hi cause i was at his frat studying with some guys, and hes like stay! and im like no, its okay, and hes like come on, so i do. but...how weird is this, we cuddle watch a film, i go over an essay he wrote, then we both undressed, kissed goodnight quickly rolled over and went to sleep. i was really tired and so was he but i couldnt decide if this is cute or not. if you actually make it to this point in my rambeling tell me your opinon. i just hope he doesnt find me horribly unnattractive when not drunk.
but there are a few other guys in his house who have crushes on me, and i like one in particualr, but would maybe be mean, even if we arent offical. everyone in his house knows, esp cause like everyday when his roommates wake up im there.
there is this first year, who clarie is dating named colin, who is so cute, art major, and his best friend and i have been to two date parites so far, hes really nice, innocent, hot, art major too, frat guy with out the bad qualities. and if i wanted him i could have him, but of course i keep thinking about mike. ahhh what should i do? give advice please! sorry, about the whinning.
k, heres a rundown if anyone cares, no worries if not, ive had to sit through so many people recently bitching about their guys that i have seriously given up caring. so there is this guy, named big mike from zbt, and ive been staying over there and hooking up with him a lot the past almost three weeks. when we had the dreaded relationship talk (naked in bed, perhapas not the most tactful of me) he told me he didnt want a girlfriend, which is fine, but it really cant go on the way it is you know, i mean its so dumb im not going to be THAT GIRL who comes over to get it on with him when he wants. so i am kinda getting over it.
last night i came to say hi cause i was at his frat studying with some guys, and hes like stay! and im like no, its okay, and hes like come on, so i do. but...how weird is this, we cuddle watch a film, i go over an essay he wrote, then we both undressed, kissed goodnight quickly rolled over and went to sleep. i was really tired and so was he but i couldnt decide if this is cute or not. if you actually make it to this point in my rambeling tell me your opinon. i just hope he doesnt find me horribly unnattractive when not drunk.
but there are a few other guys in his house who have crushes on me, and i like one in particualr, but would maybe be mean, even if we arent offical. everyone in his house knows, esp cause like everyday when his roommates wake up im there.
there is this first year, who clarie is dating named colin, who is so cute, art major, and his best friend and i have been to two date parites so far, hes really nice, innocent, hot, art major too, frat guy with out the bad qualities. and if i wanted him i could have him, but of course i keep thinking about mike. ahhh what should i do? give advice please! sorry, about the whinning.
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its all comeing back to me so fast, how quickly i managed to forget, to block it all out. what it feels like, at the pit of my stomach, the feeling of dispair, the need for looks, touches, and wanting. so full of these needs as i remember. closeing my eyes, i try to tell myself i dont care, but i do. i want him so bad it hurts, and its happening too quick. willing to overlook anything wrong, all i want is the feeling i get when i m with him. looking into his eyes i cannot tell what he imagines, and if i could wish for one thing its that he thinks im perfect in my own way, jsut as i feel about him.
if time heals everything, i just need the pacince to get through it all.
if time heals everything, i just need the pacince to get through it all.
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right now, just want someone to feel this way about (and his name rhymes with trike)
It’s too good, it’s too nice
She makes me feel it’s too quick
Is it love? No not love
She turns my sexual tricks
She says she’s mine, I know she lies
First, I scream, then I cry
You take a second of me
You beckon, I’ll bleed
She suffocates me
She suffocates me with suggestions
I think ahead of you, I think instead of you
Will you spend your life with me
And stifle me?
Forgive and you’re forgiven
Kingdom come
Can you wait for yours
I need to taste some
Life’s really funny
I laugh while she spends my money
She’s my freak
I guess I’m weak
You ask what is this?
Mind your business
I pass idle days with my idle ways
’Til the twelfth of always
She walks my hallways
I keep her warm, but we never kiss
She cuts my slender wrists
Let’s waste some more time
She makes me feel it’s too quick
Is it love? No not love
She turns my sexual tricks
She says she’s mine, I know she lies
First, I scream, then I cry
You take a second of me
You beckon, I’ll bleed
She suffocates me
She suffocates me with suggestions
I think ahead of you, I think instead of you
Will you spend your life with me
And stifle me?
Forgive and you’re forgiven
Kingdom come
Can you wait for yours
I need to taste some
Life’s really funny
I laugh while she spends my money
She’s my freak
I guess I’m weak
You ask what is this?
Mind your business
I pass idle days with my idle ways
’Til the twelfth of always
She walks my hallways
I keep her warm, but we never kiss
She cuts my slender wrists
Let’s waste some more time
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pictures (dont hate)
sure did get on this guy, who is bears big bro from zbt, and since im her big sis, that means we are brother and sister which is indeed sick in the manner of oedipus.
and at the end of the night....
from the date party on monday, here is my cute pledge.
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fuck all
WEll everything was fine and dandy, drunk and happy. and then it all went to hell. HELL.
I really am upset, its just worse and worse. fuck man.
My date, who i really like, i mean really like, like havent wanted to date someone this bad in sooo long, best friends dad died, so he cant go with me on sun, the one thing that was exciting about the future.
I spent this week drunk everynight, seriously, and have so much work to do and now am in a horrible mood cause i feel like have accomplished nothing by being a slaker and will work so hard.
but the worse is, i heard all these rumors about girls in my house, includeing my best friend and lil sis, and ME. honestly, im such a nice person, and it really bothers me that people talk shit about me, its really ridiculious, and i feel bad about it. i wish i hadn’t known, really would make me feel so much better. i hate this feeling....
i mean i guess everyone has something bad said about them, but mine is bad, stupid and untrue.
guess i have my latin homework to keep me company.
I really am upset, its just worse and worse. fuck man.
My date, who i really like, i mean really like, like havent wanted to date someone this bad in sooo long, best friends dad died, so he cant go with me on sun, the one thing that was exciting about the future.
I spent this week drunk everynight, seriously, and have so much work to do and now am in a horrible mood cause i feel like have accomplished nothing by being a slaker and will work so hard.
but the worse is, i heard all these rumors about girls in my house, includeing my best friend and lil sis, and ME. honestly, im such a nice person, and it really bothers me that people talk shit about me, its really ridiculious, and i feel bad about it. i wish i hadn’t known, really would make me feel so much better. i hate this feeling....
i mean i guess everyone has something bad said about them, but mine is bad, stupid and untrue.
guess i have my latin homework to keep me company.
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Its 8 in the fucking morning and I’m up....cause im special. i had a lovely wretched night with bear, my new Little Sis! Yay, we had lil sis revelation, and it was so cute. we all wore matching costumes,and in typical fashion, our outfits were extra slutty, and i even flashed the photog (sorry "bob") my ass by mistake. seems very soriority girl to inisit on calling the photogropher, photog.
then we went to zbt, all hot and crap, cause we wanted to get on our sig ep pledges, the guys we went to the date party with, which half was executed, the plan that is. sorry, this whole drunk and wakeing up early thing is kinda exciting, so im takeing it out on this, and who ever chooses to read this. i really dont like wakeing early, i usually get up at like 11, cause i have class at 12 like every day. it works well for me.
zbt was cool, each of the rooms had a diff. country theme and diff. mixed drinks in them, it was reallly bad ass. claire’s big bro matt, who tried to get on her in a very sick manner if you consider that he was just deemed her big bro, was living in amsterdam, so they smoked a lot, and i just drank a lot. was most exciting. equally exciting many bits of the night that keep coming back to me.
for the big date party on sun, im takeing mike, the guy in the picture below. so thats fun, hes an awesome dancer, so it will be fun. and by fun i hope i mean hot and sexual.
i apologize for the babble, will delete this later.
then we went to zbt, all hot and crap, cause we wanted to get on our sig ep pledges, the guys we went to the date party with, which half was executed, the plan that is. sorry, this whole drunk and wakeing up early thing is kinda exciting, so im takeing it out on this, and who ever chooses to read this. i really dont like wakeing early, i usually get up at like 11, cause i have class at 12 like every day. it works well for me.
zbt was cool, each of the rooms had a diff. country theme and diff. mixed drinks in them, it was reallly bad ass. claire’s big bro matt, who tried to get on her in a very sick manner if you consider that he was just deemed her big bro, was living in amsterdam, so they smoked a lot, and i just drank a lot. was most exciting. equally exciting many bits of the night that keep coming back to me.
for the big date party on sun, im takeing mike, the guy in the picture below. so thats fun, hes an awesome dancer, so it will be fun. and by fun i hope i mean hot and sexual.
i apologize for the babble, will delete this later.
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Age and Me
Age and Me
I am over boys. Even though i’ve been wanting to get with SOMEONE for so long, someone not being a person in particualr, just anyone with out ovaries, and last night i went on a "date" at a date party (which i sort of had to initate for myself) with a first year, who was wide eyed and innocent. and i’ve decided that i need to make a change. i cant go out every night, i need to atleast decide waht im doing with my life, and go there. im having fun on the way though, which is really what these four years are for. i’ve actually not that much more to do, but feel completly unready for graduate school. i really want a guy who i can hang out with, read with, go to museums with. perhapas i should date my best friend who is also a rageing homosexual. for right now, celibacy and silence, good.
I am over boys. Even though i’ve been wanting to get with SOMEONE for so long, someone not being a person in particualr, just anyone with out ovaries, and last night i went on a "date" at a date party (which i sort of had to initate for myself) with a first year, who was wide eyed and innocent. and i’ve decided that i need to make a change. i cant go out every night, i need to atleast decide waht im doing with my life, and go there. im having fun on the way though, which is really what these four years are for. i’ve actually not that much more to do, but feel completly unready for graduate school. i really want a guy who i can hang out with, read with, go to museums with. perhapas i should date my best friend who is also a rageing homosexual. for right now, celibacy and silence, good.
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I feel a bit lost here at school, it all seems so surreal, i mean i feel like i am learning fuck all, and when it comes time to actually apply anything, i will be completely fucked. completley and utterly. perhapas i shoudl just graduate and get a random job that has nothing to do with anything, such as working for an airline, or something along those lines. i feel rather that i am simply mediocre at ever subjectg. oh well. ill keep on trucking.
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More booze and hot films
last night was cool. with my recent balls, i went up to this guy in the dinning hall and strated talking to him. have you ever seen someone and you were like, jesus, if only i knew them, beause we would be PERFECT TOGETHER. and when we saw him walk in, me and all my friends were like hes soo hot. so i become ballsy for some reason, and walk over with the ohh so cool line of hey you loook familiar (its all i could do on short notice) and we totally hit it off, and i was right, we are perfect for each other.so i will get up more balls and call him soon hopefully. well i mean i will call him, i just have to be not so scared.
the parties last night were cool. i mean pretty fun, feel so unattractive still cause i swear no one wants to get on me. well i still had fun with my girls and guess that is what is most important.
claire and i had a fun day together when we went to see tuck everlasting, which was amazing.
everyday i spend with her i realise how much i love her and how much we are a like, in mind and body. if all else fails, bear you and i should go out (go 49 percent gay)
the parties last night were cool. i mean pretty fun, feel so unattractive still cause i swear no one wants to get on me. well i still had fun with my girls and guess that is what is most important.
claire and i had a fun day together when we went to see tuck everlasting, which was amazing.
everyday i spend with her i realise how much i love her and how much we are a like, in mind and body. if all else fails, bear you and i should go out (go 49 percent gay)
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last night
last night was fun. i managed to somehow kick my latin’s test ass, so that put me in a good mood. apparently, i have become the ballsy one in our little clique of friends, cause im like i dont give a fuck if people say nothing is going on tonight, we will find a way to get sloppy drunk and drink til we dont feel feelings anymore (indeed entire point right claire). i mean come on, there were six cute chicks on a mission, and i mean who is going to be like, uhhhh cute girls, get out. (okay that ho from tridelt, but we all know she’s out, twice out infact because she’s a tridelt) am really most cruel, but am also over it. it was fun, however made dire mistake in thinking people want to make out with me. this one guy who we seriously almost got on each other, so i show up at his apartment drunk, looking okay, and hes like im tired (insert fake yawn here) i guess was okay cause he looked much larger than perviously imagined.
the sad fact is that i have not hooked up with anyone while ive been here, in school, thats close to a month, not that i want ass, thats not it at all. i just want to feel attractive, you know? right now, i feel as attractive as a stick. besides i keep initiciating pre-phase one, and then they dont go for it. bastards. well felt almost better that shady guys wanted me esp. to show them my tits and come up and party with them. still feel fat and unloved. atleast my latin teacher wants me... (i hope)
the sad fact is that i have not hooked up with anyone while ive been here, in school, thats close to a month, not that i want ass, thats not it at all. i just want to feel attractive, you know? right now, i feel as attractive as a stick. besides i keep initiciating pre-phase one, and then they dont go for it. bastards. well felt almost better that shady guys wanted me esp. to show them my tits and come up and party with them. still feel fat and unloved. atleast my latin teacher wants me... (i hope)
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right. i just wrote a rather lengthy entry, and, the power went out of entire soriority house. those bastards. so this will prob. a shorter version of what i meant to say, and prob. not as entertainging. really, is most annoying.
this weekend was interesting. so as it turns out IM ALLERGIC TO SPIDERS which seems rather redunt of a fact to get told, almost like oh, by the way, you are allergic to electricity when wet. so i got bitten by some spider, (not in the hot and sexual toby mcguire way but it the upper arm quadrent way) and the bumb got enormous and hurt like a bitch. so went to the emergency room on fri night feeling rather dumb cause there were people who were shot and crap and im like uhh, i have this bumb on my arm.... but turns out am not a complete idiot and actually needed surgery to have it removed before it killed me or something. anyway, when they put me under, i had a seizure and they were all worried, but its okay now, a long with my vicaden levels. really just feel a bit stupid having been put to sleep for the minorest thing such as my arm.
after i slept it off for liek 14 hours, i went to the something corperate show, which was cool, but i wished i wasnt all bandaged up and able to drink my soul away, and drink til i couldnt feel feelings anymore. i swear im really not a total alcholic.
last night was fun, soon pictures i hope, the theme was drinking on the job, so i wore such a whorey outfit, but had a good time. well the bits i remember. ill prob write more, when i get over the fact that i wrote this twice.
this weekend was interesting. so as it turns out IM ALLERGIC TO SPIDERS which seems rather redunt of a fact to get told, almost like oh, by the way, you are allergic to electricity when wet. so i got bitten by some spider, (not in the hot and sexual toby mcguire way but it the upper arm quadrent way) and the bumb got enormous and hurt like a bitch. so went to the emergency room on fri night feeling rather dumb cause there were people who were shot and crap and im like uhh, i have this bumb on my arm.... but turns out am not a complete idiot and actually needed surgery to have it removed before it killed me or something. anyway, when they put me under, i had a seizure and they were all worried, but its okay now, a long with my vicaden levels. really just feel a bit stupid having been put to sleep for the minorest thing such as my arm.
after i slept it off for liek 14 hours, i went to the something corperate show, which was cool, but i wished i wasnt all bandaged up and able to drink my soul away, and drink til i couldnt feel feelings anymore. i swear im really not a total alcholic.
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dude...im back, cool if anyone cares
soo...im back here at UCLA which is chill as all hell for obvious reasons which i will outline below:
a). my bestest friend ever and sweet ass love monkey, CLAIREBEAR has joined my sorioirity, so its alpha phi all the way baby.
b). everyday i have class between 12-3, giving me plenty of time to recover from the night before.
c). a bomb ass social calender, includeing this sundays event at the theta xi house, hosted by playboy with something coperate playing (fuck yeah)
of course there are the downsides, such as living with 40 GIRLS IN ONE HOUSE which is chill sometimes, and sucks ass sometimes cause they are all georgeous and about 20 lbs skinnier than me. also am takeing a rather difficult upper division latin class, which is a pain in my ass, but then again, id take a pain in the ass for air miles. just kidding! ass refrences will stop effective immediately. also, i have no man. that sucks. oh well, must find one.
so please, i will be a better melo person now, so talk to me if you care too.
a). my bestest friend ever and sweet ass love monkey, CLAIREBEAR has joined my sorioirity, so its alpha phi all the way baby.
b). everyday i have class between 12-3, giving me plenty of time to recover from the night before.
c). a bomb ass social calender, includeing this sundays event at the theta xi house, hosted by playboy with something coperate playing (fuck yeah)
of course there are the downsides, such as living with 40 GIRLS IN ONE HOUSE which is chill sometimes, and sucks ass sometimes cause they are all georgeous and about 20 lbs skinnier than me. also am takeing a rather difficult upper division latin class, which is a pain in my ass, but then again, id take a pain in the ass for air miles. just kidding! ass refrences will stop effective immediately. also, i have no man. that sucks. oh well, must find one.
so please, i will be a better melo person now, so talk to me if you care too.
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i feel like a bad and evil person
I am really sorry to have neglected melo such as i have (hopeing someone cares). anyway, its hard for me to be so addicted as i was before, so i will try my hardest and if all else fails, i will come back when schoool starts. sorry loves!
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I’m back!!!
I AM HOME.
well actually im at my sweet 8 dollars an hour job where i sit around and look pretty, and sometimes watch football or play online.
i missed CA. it takes going someplace completely bizarre like the south to realize how sweet we have it. its fucking wierd there, im sorry if anyone lives ther, but i would rather give birth to a porrcupine backwards than live there myself. within the first five minutes on landing, (the flight was awful too thanks to the fine people of delta who actually thought everyone would enjoy to see "BLACK KNIGHT" on the plane, i mean JESUS) we were accused of being racist, well not us, but the BLACK lady at dollar rent a car by some disgruntled BLACK man, who said she was nicer to us, with in truth she bearly grunted to either parties. anyway....then we went to a restaurant, one of those homely places where the second we walked in, everyone stared at our straight teeth, "northern" accents, and tan bodies not burnt in an wife beater impression (well not all together correct as Ned is pasty as all hell) and when we ordered iced tea to drink, she looked at us, and in a loud voice with much contempent said "yall know it has SUGAR in it" and of course even though we were disgusted to the roots of our souls at teh idea of sweet tea, we still sort of smiled and nodded and drank a little. anyway, its evil there, really, hate the humidity outside, and the sub-50 degree weather inside, like that makes any sense at all. and my realitives there are awful and wierd, and im like not the only one pregnat, and they have the nerve to think its wierd that i at 19 am not makeing babies, but instead doing something stupid with my time like going to university. of course, i should work in carpet mill too or something. bastards. you think my mother would also put things into perspective and realize im actaully a good person for not being pregant, fat, and with a drawl, but she just kept on critisizeing me, mostly about my clothes and how they were too skimpy. i mean jesus bitch, its summer. anyway, only three more months.....
so im home, and here, and trying to see friends outside my 10-8 schedule. talk to you all very soon i promise....
well actually im at my sweet 8 dollars an hour job where i sit around and look pretty, and sometimes watch football or play online.
i missed CA. it takes going someplace completely bizarre like the south to realize how sweet we have it. its fucking wierd there, im sorry if anyone lives ther, but i would rather give birth to a porrcupine backwards than live there myself. within the first five minutes on landing, (the flight was awful too thanks to the fine people of delta who actually thought everyone would enjoy to see "BLACK KNIGHT" on the plane, i mean JESUS) we were accused of being racist, well not us, but the BLACK lady at dollar rent a car by some disgruntled BLACK man, who said she was nicer to us, with in truth she bearly grunted to either parties. anyway....then we went to a restaurant, one of those homely places where the second we walked in, everyone stared at our straight teeth, "northern" accents, and tan bodies not burnt in an wife beater impression (well not all together correct as Ned is pasty as all hell) and when we ordered iced tea to drink, she looked at us, and in a loud voice with much contempent said "yall know it has SUGAR in it" and of course even though we were disgusted to the roots of our souls at teh idea of sweet tea, we still sort of smiled and nodded and drank a little. anyway, its evil there, really, hate the humidity outside, and the sub-50 degree weather inside, like that makes any sense at all. and my realitives there are awful and wierd, and im like not the only one pregnat, and they have the nerve to think its wierd that i at 19 am not makeing babies, but instead doing something stupid with my time like going to university. of course, i should work in carpet mill too or something. bastards. you think my mother would also put things into perspective and realize im actaully a good person for not being pregant, fat, and with a drawl, but she just kept on critisizeing me, mostly about my clothes and how they were too skimpy. i mean jesus bitch, its summer. anyway, only three more months.....
so im home, and here, and trying to see friends outside my 10-8 schedule. talk to you all very soon i promise....
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well im here from school, its fun, if by fun you mean forced to see my parents a lot. seeing old friends is cool too, except now im going away for ten days, so not sure of the internet connection where ill be, maybe a little time apart is what we need....
miss you bear!
miss you john!
miss you la, and most of all...
I DO NOT MISS JA RULE.
miss you bear!
miss you john!
miss you la, and most of all...
I DO NOT MISS JA RULE.
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damn it all.
been having a hard time recently.
i am leaving my first year of college rapidly.
ive lost weight mysteriously by the new fact that im never hungry.
i have so much work to do to finish out the quarter.
and most importanly, the realization that i am a horrilbe person for fucking up with the one true love ive ever had.
i choose bear’s company, sad beatles songs, vodka, and ultra light capris.
i am leaving my first year of college rapidly.
ive lost weight mysteriously by the new fact that im never hungry.
i have so much work to do to finish out the quarter.
and most importanly, the realization that i am a horrilbe person for fucking up with the one true love ive ever had.
i choose bear’s company, sad beatles songs, vodka, and ultra light capris.
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NEW LEVELS OF BADASSITY
AHAHAHAHA today...in state of enormous deminsa, and probably over exposure to sun....i discovered THE COOLEST SLASH MOST SATISFING THING EVER. okay, i promise, im not wierd, but in manner of Mr. Burns or a dinosaur, if you bend over and keep your hands like mr.burns, its the coolest way ever to walk. no idea why its so amuzing. shall have to take picuture of it, and post.
it was great cause i went to the bathroom down the hall, and im slinking along in manner of cool new walk, and i hear a door open, and see claires head poke out. she had looked to see if i was really walking like that, and i was. it was the funniest thing ever.
im really not wierd, it sooooo cool.
all the cool kids
okay maybe i am special
like a three legged dog
its fun though....try it!
it was great cause i went to the bathroom down the hall, and im slinking along in manner of cool new walk, and i hear a door open, and see claires head poke out. she had looked to see if i was really walking like that, and i was. it was the funniest thing ever.
im really not wierd, it sooooo cool.
all the cool kids
okay maybe i am special
like a three legged dog
its fun though....try it!
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i walked and she fled and day brought back my night ~ milton
last night was chill, i organized a preparty with my pledge sister, and we drank a lot of vodka god damn it. then went to this really fun party. here are pictures, not very good.
here is livy and i, a good friend of mine, the funniest chick ever
and here is a few of us, love the way im falling
HOVA!!!!!
ill write more later, but the moral of the story, is now i have a huge hangover, and desperatly need sleep cause i actually went to class today. cause im this girl who goes to class.
it was really fun night out, esp. considering there wont be many more. today was chill, we had sloshball, for there is that important stage in every girls life when a level of drinking needs to step up to insane amounts also invoveing rigiorious physical activity. so yeah. we all got quite hammered, i stumbled home at about eight, and have been fucking about, bored out of my mind. i could start my course work....or i could do it later....tommorow is our date party and i am soooooo excitied to go with my date! hes sooooo much fun!!!! and an awesome dancer, so i cannot wait to preparty, have fun with my girls and boy. i need a good night out, ive been trying to ignore my worsening guy situation, but now ive come to resolution, that im just really fucking hopeless, and wont have a boy for a while. im over it, i guess. im just too much of a guy myself, and bigger tits would help too. :-)
here is livy and i, a good friend of mine, the funniest chick ever
and here is a few of us, love the way im falling
HOVA!!!!!
ill write more later, but the moral of the story, is now i have a huge hangover, and desperatly need sleep cause i actually went to class today. cause im this girl who goes to class.
it was really fun night out, esp. considering there wont be many more. today was chill, we had sloshball, for there is that important stage in every girls life when a level of drinking needs to step up to insane amounts also invoveing rigiorious physical activity. so yeah. we all got quite hammered, i stumbled home at about eight, and have been fucking about, bored out of my mind. i could start my course work....or i could do it later....tommorow is our date party and i am soooooo excitied to go with my date! hes sooooo much fun!!!! and an awesome dancer, so i cannot wait to preparty, have fun with my girls and boy. i need a good night out, ive been trying to ignore my worsening guy situation, but now ive come to resolution, that im just really fucking hopeless, and wont have a boy for a while. im over it, i guess. im just too much of a guy myself, and bigger tits would help too. :-)
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hot ryan, and how i want to have bendy sex with him.
I am completely and utterly obsessed with this guy, also known as hot ryan, for, well fairly obvious reasons. i really want him. its evil how much it hurts. oh well, the purpose of this is to express how fucking excitied bear and i got about seeing him in the dining hall tonight. which made me realise that i am totally TOTALLY going to miss living on campus next year. is a horrible thing, ive done.
on that positive note, i got the last of the mohican soundtrack, which is sooo hot and sexual to study too. also cannot stop looking up ab fab quotes. good thing its the best show ever.
and god bendy sex with de brad would make my life too.
on that positive note, i got the last of the mohican soundtrack, which is sooo hot and sexual to study too. also cannot stop looking up ab fab quotes. good thing its the best show ever.
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Belly Peirceing!!!
its really funny...im diabetic, so i take lots of injections a day. i have two tats. obvioulsy, needles are my friends, so i was not all that worried about getting my tummy pierced, other than the pressing matter of my massive stomach... but it hurt, as a matter of a fact it still hurts...it doesnt even look cute cause its red, and it hurts. damn it all. please say something encourageing, cause it still hurts....
im such a whinny bitch *you love it*
im such a whinny bitch *you love it*
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i got cancer last night.
we got sloppy drunk last night, as was the plan, it was really fun.
it was a foam party, and they filled these rooms with styrofoam, witch was insane amounts of fun, it really was cool. towards the end, we thought it would be fun to wrestle in it, and i swear i was pulling stryofoam from everywhere all night long. lauren and i were like its up our buts in our shirts, jesus god!
thing is, i kept inhaleing it, by complete accident of course, and i swear to god i have cancer.
ill put up pictures later of course, god im annoying, i love it. so yeah.
bear and i made it to breakfast again, where all i did was drink. think im still drunk. love the way i’ve partied my ass of this week. this week. how wrong is that. not weekend, but week. i feel like such a tool...
actually, thats not so correct. i m really sad to be leaving school soon. it really makes me sad to think about. im having such a fucking great tiime, and its going to be with all different people next year, sucky. oh well. hopefully, it will be just as fun.
it was a foam party, and they filled these rooms with styrofoam, witch was insane amounts of fun, it really was cool. towards the end, we thought it would be fun to wrestle in it, and i swear i was pulling stryofoam from everywhere all night long. lauren and i were like its up our buts in our shirts, jesus god!
thing is, i kept inhaleing it, by complete accident of course, and i swear to god i have cancer.
ill put up pictures later of course, god im annoying, i love it. so yeah.
bear and i made it to breakfast again, where all i did was drink. think im still drunk. love the way i’ve partied my ass of this week. this week. how wrong is that. not weekend, but week. i feel like such a tool...
actually, thats not so correct. i m really sad to be leaving school soon. it really makes me sad to think about. im having such a fucking great tiime, and its going to be with all different people next year, sucky. oh well. hopefully, it will be just as fun.
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second night of paddy murphies
was worst night ever. EVER.
liked my dress though.
us girls got on buses went to a bar at universal studios, and then got trashed, then got back on the buses and met the guys at this posh hotel iin santa monica with a great view to keep drinking with them.
howver the high drama factor of the night was evil. drama needs to go to hell. and burn there.
this was the best part of the night, the chips and fucking awesome guacamole.
here’s some girls and my house, the social chair of SAE, and bear.
and here is my friend in my house, our glass is wonderful, too bad im dumb and covered it up. well probably not dumb, just drunk.
liked my dress though.
us girls got on buses went to a bar at universal studios, and then got trashed, then got back on the buses and met the guys at this posh hotel iin santa monica with a great view to keep drinking with them.
howver the high drama factor of the night was evil. drama needs to go to hell. and burn there.
this was the best part of the night, the chips and fucking awesome guacamole.
here’s some girls and my house, the social chair of SAE, and bear.
and here is my friend in my house, our glass is wonderful, too bad im dumb and covered it up. well probably not dumb, just drunk.
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first night of paddy murphys
last night, was the beginning of a week of drunken fun for a frat, SAE. it was really fun, actually bear melis and i all ended up getting asked to go, then going and getting ready together. paddy murphy was this mobster who did not kill some guy for al capone because the guy and he were SAE brothers, and so he got killed by capone. so the night began with a funeral, then we all got drunk and took buses to a bar. so yeah.... here are some pictures they’re not all that good, keep in mind i got fairly drunk. yay tues. night.
heres one of two of my soriorty sisters and me.. good thing they look hot and i dont.
heres my other roommate
and bear and i with our dates.
so you know how sometimes when you get drunk, you wake up really early? well claire and i did this and actually , gasp, made it to breakfast. it was our first time. ever. somewhat ridiculious. but we got to trade war stories and generally be loud and obnioxious white girls.
heres one of two of my soriorty sisters and me.. good thing they look hot and i dont.
heres my other roommate
and bear and i with our dates.
so you know how sometimes when you get drunk, you wake up really early? well claire and i did this and actually , gasp, made it to breakfast. it was our first time. ever. somewhat ridiculious. but we got to trade war stories and generally be loud and obnioxious white girls.
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this is for my ghetto motherfuckers...
ten points to whoever knows where this is from:
"mother superior jumped the gun."
"mother superior jumped the gun."
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really time to retire this quiz
sad thing is i think i must have voted myself like 20 times.
best family guy part:
18 % said "hey brian, now that you’re a cop, does that make you a snausage?" "did you stay up all night thinking of that?" "i got to bed around two, three."
15 % said "okay meg, im thinking of a word and its definatly not kittie" "is it kittie?" "GET OUT OF MY HEAD"
18 % said best pick up line to lesbians "hey, you ladies ever been penetrated?"
17 % said "do you even hear yourself when you speak?" "i drift in and out."
31 % said death upon being asked how he managed to eat an entire chicken leg in one bit: "Lets just say that, uhh i did some films when i was younger, that i’m uhh, not so proud of."
71 total votes
best family guy part:
18 % said "hey brian, now that you’re a cop, does that make you a snausage?" "did you stay up all night thinking of that?" "i got to bed around two, three."
15 % said "okay meg, im thinking of a word and its definatly not kittie" "is it kittie?" "GET OUT OF MY HEAD"
18 % said best pick up line to lesbians "hey, you ladies ever been penetrated?"
17 % said "do you even hear yourself when you speak?" "i drift in and out."
31 % said death upon being asked how he managed to eat an entire chicken leg in one bit: "Lets just say that, uhh i did some films when i was younger, that i’m uhh, not so proud of."
71 total votes
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god, melo is being slow right now, so dont hate, more pictures will get put up soon. k. here is our lesson for today:
drinking + digitial camera =
and more of bear and i
and a little later...
drinking + digitial camera =
and more of bear and i
and a little later...
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claire and i have all these nicknames for people, and it seemed to be all fiine and good until, when i saw "hot jeff" today, i actually was all "hey whats up hot jeff" im such a dork. yet, while some of the nicknames are truely great (such as hot ryan, or fishtits) my very favorite is for this bloke, patrick, who at the beginnig of the year was all "rah, im never going to drink, i feel it is wrong and immoral" and now has turned into an enormous big fat drunk pervy frat guy. hence his name, downward spiral.
this is my favorite:
this is my favorite:
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me update
we went out last night. to ease a horrid day. i am rilied by the fact that it seems impossible for me to get a’s here at college. i hate it. dont know whats wrong with me. the midterms who’s ass i THOUGHT i’d kicked, i really hadnt. and the ta that i was trying to shag and get an a on the first paper ive loved here at la that ive wrote totally copped out and gave me a b +. i retract all previous statements of pre-shagging. enough angst, ill stop i swear.
thanks to someone specials journal, have become completely obsessed with the song days go by, by the group dirty vegas. its in that mitsubshi commecrical...
last night we went to a pledge bid at SAE to bid on claire’s boyfriend. this one chick bought six pledges total. it was ridiculious. this one guy went for over two hundred dollars. then we boozed it up at another frat. all in all, was really quite fun, i was just out with a lot of my girls, and loved it. also, cannot wait til next year. is looking better and better cause.... nat and i have a double! ive never had a double! and the room is usually a triple! so its bloody enormus~ yay!
thanks to someone specials journal, have become completely obsessed with the song days go by, by the group dirty vegas. its in that mitsubshi commecrical...
last night we went to a pledge bid at SAE to bid on claire’s boyfriend. this one chick bought six pledges total. it was ridiculious. this one guy went for over two hundred dollars. then we boozed it up at another frat. all in all, was really quite fun, i was just out with a lot of my girls, and loved it. also, cannot wait til next year. is looking better and better cause.... nat and i have a double! ive never had a double! and the room is usually a triple! so its bloody enormus~ yay!
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random babbeling
i wish that when my will desired i could see the yellow of your hair, or be suprised by the sudden whiteness as your teeth as it shows in a smile.
i wish that the sunlight fractureing into hundreds of peices when you tilt your head back and laugh would never leave.
those nights that are warm but the sun is set, are when we can truely run our fingers over each others thoughts and thinking with one mind as we adjust to each other.
i love the warmth the smell of that warmth unfolding around me as i remember the days. inconsequential detials, suddenly congnizant to me, and as i express my joy, i know you understand perfectly what this all means to me. you sussed it out of me.
i wish that the sunlight fractureing into hundreds of peices when you tilt your head back and laugh would never leave.
those nights that are warm but the sun is set, are when we can truely run our fingers over each others thoughts and thinking with one mind as we adjust to each other.
i love the warmth the smell of that warmth unfolding around me as i remember the days. inconsequential detials, suddenly congnizant to me, and as i express my joy, i know you understand perfectly what this all means to me. you sussed it out of me.
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