im falling into this again. again. again its good and bad a sad and depressing

thats right. i said it. sarah is lame! she wont send me the pictures that we took with flip an shit. she also wont leave me messages so that i can scratch my head and listen to them before i go to sleep like how she instructed. if any of you see her please inform her of the good cd guy’s whereabouts and tell her i want to pictures and messages. ok thanks

i had more fun during ddm than i have had in a long time. and i have been having a lot of fun recently. just think about it

i am bored with life and this day to day bullshit. i spend my time looking forward to the weekend and trying to get throught each day with as little effort as possible. i need a change. im going to create some change. i wont tell anyone what it or they are. you are just gonna have to figure it out.

i saw modest mouse. i just wanted to restate that becuase it was amazing. its truely beautiful what the man can do with his voice and a guitar.

it sucked... a lot. i didnt have to go to school though. whatever thats life. kaela is gonna get me a girlfriend. maybe she wont. you never know about things like that. i hate unimportant people and child molesters. i really hate child molesters. i have determined that i am a comic genius. read all the things i have written. it is all fucking histyrical or someshit. except the part about child molesters becuase that shit is just fucked up.

why is everyone such a freak. i mean goddamn

some dumb woman hit my car today when she was backing out. she pulled out and swerved into me. then she made up some bullshit excuse about how there was a shity parking or something retarded like that. i told her that she should looke through those shiny "window" things. she is going to have to pay for it but its just a big dumb waste of my time. and she had a baby. people as fucking absentminded as she shouldnt be behind the wheel.

so today i went to the uc berkley college visit. it was sweet. the guy was like blah blah blah. then i asked what the average gpa was. he told me to fuck off becuase berkley doenst say that stuff but he said that you need atleast a 3.4. shit i have a 3.36. then he said that it can change depending on sat and sat2 score. i was like rad. then this asain girl exclaimed "yes, i dont need to do better on my sats" and i was like shutup you freak. get your nose out of your book and take your 4.0 and stick it up that tight ass because you dont use it for anything else except sitting. i mean shit you would think that those students dont worry about getting high sat scores but no, they just read a lot. fuck reading. i dont do that shit. unless they are porn captions.

so i guess i need to make more sense because people have been complaining. oh fine ill talk about how much fun acting retarded is. today at the spectrum i was yelling ag at people and this broad(nick influence) got mad at me and hit my hat off my head. i freaked out and she gave it to me. then i ran out of the store screaming mommy and shuffling in a funny manner. life would be so much easier as a retard its not even funny. which is why i say this. i wish i was retarded so life would be easier. im that lazy that i wish i had a mental handicap that prohibited me from thinking a lot. and shit i think a lot. like way too much. im always thinking. i should be a russian spy for that reason. like the one in from russia with love that boned bond’s lady and tried to steal the kleptar or whatever that translator thing was called. you know, he got shanked in the end by bond’s breif case knife. shit. that guy died. i dont want to be him anymore. i want to be bond. he was sly too, and he never died. like one of those candide characters. it doesnt matter what happens the fuckers just dont give up. except for the jew and that catholic fuck that got shanked. they got what they deserved. fucking jews and catholics. ok well here is the obligatory picture of my face that has nothing to do with the mess i just typed out.

i am so doon with this shit. not that normal shit but this other shit. yeah...... that shit. mmmmmmm the taste of death

just fucking die and stop wasting my time. jesus is it that hard to understand how fucking dumb everyone is.

i am not going to school tommorow and im not fasting and im gonna do whatever i want. if you arnet going to school/work/college/molestations tommorow we should totally hang out. like duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

this has nothing to do with ac/dc. i fell off a hill thing then i fell into a big bush with rocks and spikey things. it hurt but it was cool. now i have fun juice in my theigh. this weekend will suck. next weekend will be better

everyone is going down. the gradual fall of my friends has started. slowly diying or quickly expiring the are all headed south. shiny things round things sharp things and white things are all leading them away from life and into obliteration. the once white rabbit is starting to turn brown, wait no he is all colors of the spectrum. goodbye everyone. hopefully you will find a cure for your diseases for they all lie in the brain.