so mike comes over for the much anticipated good-bye night... i shouldnt have even bothered... he brings shana and expects us to hook up... and he says hes not tryin for her anymore even tho he likes her, but he said he cant kiss me in front of her cuz he dont wanna "hurt her" and he kissed her in front of me!! so i guess i dont have any feelings or i guess he just doesnt give a fuck... goddamnit, i swear, i should give up on boys and go for girls... in other news, im a temporary red head (gotta love color in a box!!) and im gonna get madd money from work... 8.50 an hour for workin... and i only get paid 2 times a month... but its mucho money-o... haha, stupid i kno... but meow... and i might be gettin a tattoo in a month!! a tattoo of the triquetra (think that thing on the Book of Shadows from Charmed) on my mid lower back... gonna be spiffy... oh, i met "spiffy joe" (jeez, i kno a million joes!!) -- (canadian, groovy, spiffy, hippy, from car) fuck man!! u kno what pisses me off about mike? he uses my ADHD against me the way chris used to use my tickle-ish-ness against me... thats one of the only things that pissed me off about chris... oh, and the fact he went a week without brushing his teeth... eeewwww!! i even bought him a toothbrush! (i got a purple one... i paid, i chose the color! hehe) oh, thinkin of chris brings a smile to my face... i miss him... but meow... holy shit, ive gone so long without making a quiz entry haha... well now that im equally pissed and happy (thinking of mike feeling up shana in my house while demanding i hook up with her while kissing her vs. chris memories...) damn, thinkin of chris makes me think of dimitri... and some other boyz... hehe... good times, good times... DAMN MY LIFE!! WHY AM I TORMENTED BY BEING FORCED TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING?!? SOMEONE KILL ME AND GET IT OVER WITH!!! BUT JUST ONE REQUEST - DO IT QUICKLY, IM NOT MUCH FOR A PAINFUL DEATH...