yea, it still sucks.... life might actually suck... and blow... at the same time!! holy shit, thought only talented creatures could accomplish this... oh well... i miss roman!! and im FUCKING SICK OF EVERYONE TELLING ME HES NO GOOD FOR ME!!!! chris, the same chick who tells me shes looking out for me by telling me how bad an idea it is to date roman, is spreadin the lie that im an easy slut around.... yea, she’s a great fuckin trustworthy friend! guess whos not gonna be there for her anymore? and fuck brandon... he can take this little makeover shit hes planning and shove it up his lying little mexican ass... lyin and then callin me a liar for tellin the truth... what a dick! him and jeff always gotta start shit, and theyre just fucking assholes... i wish someone would teach them first off how to treat chicks, and secondly how to NOT be an asshole... yea, brandon tryin to sweet talk me and say how he wants to be sweet around me... and then lyin to james and callin me a fuckin liar... (yo, that bitch is lyin!)... yea, its not a good idea to fuck with me, i hold grudges and can be the real bitch when i need to be... i got kinda irritated at james tonight.... its like he really wants to do what he wants, but no one else matters... i had to call people to fix shit when he wanted me to.... he has to have shotgun in my car and fiddle around with my settings.... theyre my settings and they’re where they are for a reason, dont fuck with it! i mean, fuck!! cant people even let me listen to my own music in my own car? im nice enough to transport everyone to where they want without always askin for gas money, so they better listen to whats in or walk... its like, hey, dont take out my cd and put your shit in unless i say you can!! talk about lack of respect... why dont u just insult my taste, a direct reflection of me, a little more... its kinda irritating that when im in a mood and wanna listen to a certain cd in MY CAR, i cant cuz either james dont like that specific dope cd or mike the douchebag dont like late october... and i prefer people not to insult the bands i like in front of me... and calling LATE OCTOBER late "november" is an insult... theyre not hanging around dissin ur band, so back off... jeez, the real thing that pissed me off... i finally agreed to go see a movie after james and i kinda made plans to see the new freddy movie (its ok, i shoulda waited til it came on hbo, waste of money) and since i havent really slept in 2 days i brought everyone back to the mall and told james i was gonna drop him off and then go home... and he starts telling me i cant because its friday and its too early... i was ready to flip a shit, but i dont like causin trouble too much, so i was just like eh im fine for the rest of the night... then he wants me to go interrupt richards party so he can talk to liz... uh, can you say RUDE?!? but he didnt understand how it was rude... jesus, am i just weird or is that not quite rude? (situation: richard is leaving monday for a year in a colorado college and his goodbye party was tonight) yes, its rude... and i really didnt feel like schlepping aaaaalllllllllll the way to allendale to come all the way back to be home within 45 minutes... thats practically the ride there and back! plus, when i cant reach liz after calling her to humor him and i tell him im taking him home, he gives me an attitude and says "oh, i shoulda gone with rob" in a nasty tone... that almost made me pull over and tell him to walk his ass home... but i smiled my little fake smile, grinded my teeth as always, and just drove... which ended up being me driving his ass to ridgewood to say hi to rob, melissa, joe, and the other people in robs driveway for a second before making me drive him home.... jeez, am i a taxi now? cuz if i am, i should start charging.... "heathers taxi, how may i help u?" and he doesnt know why im agitated, though he kept askin if i was ok, which annoyed me cuz i was answering "im fine" at least two to three times every 2 minutes... jeez, i cant wait to see roman... maybe ill be allowed to go visit him some time soon.... like, in the summer.... cuz i miss him.... sooooooo much... oh, i dunno if i mentioned it before or not, but its only ok for lizzie to make cd change requests in my car because she earned the privlege... and contrary to chris’s beliefs, which annoy me to NO END, i do NOT envy liz, do not try to look like her, am not jealous of her, or anything else to that type of extent... chris is just talking out of her ass, and thats whats gonna get her in trouble in addition to talkin shit about her "friends" when theyre not there... heres the question of the day: how can a virgin be a slut? cuz apparently chris said im a slut! so whatever... oh well... and james owes me a pack of stoges... i gave him a 20 for 2 buy 1 get 1s and got no change when 6 shoulda come back at me... but he got a pack of djarm so it must be all good... goddamnit, why do people gotta steal from a poor bitch? enough rants tonight... except: I MISS ROMAN!!!! -meow-