[[i hurt myself today..to see if i still feel]] ~today sucked my ass...i fuckin hate this i want to go home...utah isnt my home...i cant be here...id do anything just to be back home...id give a bj to a homeless man...everything sucks here...there nothing good about utah...i dont see how my mom cant miss torrance...even my step dad wants to move to torrance..doesnt she see were not happy...shes selfish...she never thinks about me...i keep faking im happy...maybe if i stop shell relieze im not...and i wont ever be..not here...things would be so much different in torrance i would be the happiest girl...but instead im like this...i dont she how she could do this to me... sometimes i do want to kill myself just to make her hurt..to make her feel like its her fault to make her want to die...but i still am scared of death yet i concimplate suicide everytime i..... think....~
[[The tears get old but still i hurt]]
Current music:Finch-Letters to you (shivas singing it to me :(...)
current mood:...i want to die...