so people suck. so do i. so does lonliness. so does excessive family. it’s driving me mad. Today i talked to david, If that wasn’t the most blatant form of mediocrity in any conversation, i don’t know what is. Today i did nothing that i wanted to. I was going to ride my bike on the 3 mile trail, but my parents decided to talk about weight...so i had no intiative to give a shit and go do something i wanted, for the pure fact that the whole idea was corrupted. I still don’t even have my fucking permit. I’m a lazy ass. I need something to do..i’m pissed off that everyone has a god damn job, and i even helped them find it....FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU FUCK THIS FUCK ME FUCK FUCK FUCK EVERYTHING...agh..now thats out...everythings better...NOITFUCKING ISN’T.......GAHHHHHHHHHH....i hate this house, i want to be in my safe central zone of palo cedro...just something a little bit more mine. i think it’s too much family, to much of everything else....