im so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my chilish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it wont leave me alone
these wonds wont seem to heal
this pain is just to real
there’s just too much that time can not erase
ive tried to tell myself that your gone
but though your still with me
ive been alone all along

how can i just become numb to the pain. How did the pain even get here? How did i let it take me over. Even though you cant see it i keep it within me and put on a smile, like always. I give up, i will never make anyone happy, no one can ever make me happy. I will be alone and stay alone. i wonder where the fuck i would be with out my friends? yea i do.......gone. So untill i cant fell my heat ache.. pass that shit. (soon to be) R.I.P grandpa.
*chrissy*