sometimes people don't realize exactly what they're saying, the way it comes out, and the way it affects me.

"there was just something about you that sparked my interest ,because usually i wouldn't even consider going out with a person like you"

like you

a person like me. how the fuck am i supposed to feel when my boyfriend basically said he loves me, but he doesn't know why.

he said he used to want a girlfriend who was pure, who only kissed a couple guys, because everytime i touch him, everytime i kiss him, he knows my hands and my mouth have been elsewhere.

what he doesn't understand is i saved myself for him. i gave him my fucking virginity, and he didn't even bother saving it for me. if he gets pissed at me for mistakes i've made in the past, maybe i should get pissed at him for having sex with 2 other girls before me. (especially since he wasn't even in a relationship with one of them)

so big deal, i've given head to one person before him. i've made out with about ten boys. big fucking deal. at least i had enough self respect to keep those boys from going further.



sorry i was a slut.