i havent been on here in awhile so i thought... "im just sitting in the computer lab basement alone while my model pieces get laser cut....skipping physics again...why not just go on melo?" so... i am... things have been the same. i've found that everyday has been the same. nothing special has been happening on any day. apx news.. i am now a big brother. i have a little and his name is frank, he's the bad ass of the pledges pretty much. he parties, sometimes a little too hard. like when some of his vom flew on me... that was nasty but other than that. convention is coming up and it seems only me, katie, and ed will be roadtripping to st. louis. more than anything i wanted chris and margo to go too... but whatevs. i havent really talked to chris for a couple weeks, maybe that's why everyday has been the same. theres no fighting, no massive break outs of who knows what... i kinda like it this way... maybe? school is decent. dennis was pissed at us the other day in studio, our pin up was canceled and now we have a graded one scheduled for tomorrow which is why i got to the laser cutter before everyone else so that im not waiting and i can put this model bitch together. i do like dennis in all of his social awkwardness. i miss jimmy, some days. he was an interesting professor but my senior friends are hating him pretty harsh in studio. there is a boy in my life... sort of. i think? and it's different but the same. and sometimes i wonder how many times i can go back to the same people? don't get me wrong, i adore this boy... and he adores me. but... it's not new and that worries me. and it's far away and that worries me even more. im taking advice, and it's not really advice, everyone knows it... but someone once told me this "we'll take it a day at a time, no think about the future. think about now, us now" and that's what i'll do.. though in the end that person wasnt very good at not looking to the future which still makes me feel icky. what else? there's nothing.. i honestly feel like theres nothing else. im done partying for the semester after these last few weeks. it was too much... it hurt too much... so... yea ive been just relaxing my weekends away by sleeping which has gotten me in trouble. well... im gonna go check on my shit.. and also i cant think of much else to ramble on about, not that anyone cares about this shit... to end this

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