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*Katie and I*



This is a picture of Katie and I. We both had a semi-heart to heart today at lunch. We found some common ground and kind of helped eachother out a bit with sorting out our emotions.

I haven’t been able to use melo in a while because it wouldn’t allow me to get on! Oiy!

Well today was a S H I T T Y day! A shitty day for sure, if there ever was one. Dance practice was pure hell, it was miserable and I don’t particularly want to talk about it. =)

Tomorrow is friday which is awesome because I get to spend some time with Brian. The only down point to tomorrow being Friday is that the following day is Saturday....my point being that....Saturday means COMPETITION DAY! Which means, stress, frustrations, errors, and most likely tears if it is anything like last week was for me. Even though I was flying solo on the whole "crying" thing.....I was upset like all hell. Today was too different from it either...I have found myself crying a lot this week. Why you may ask? Gawd only knows....I don’t even know to be completely honest with you. I guess things just....suck....I dunno. Things will get better I hope.....you think they will? I dunno...sometimes I wonder....

I miss my boyfriend, I feel like shit, my eyes are bloodshot from crying, I have tear stains mixed with mascera on my face from crying, i have a bruise on my arm from where ms lindenberg pinched me....go to my LJ to read bout why today realllly sucked...i dont feel like writing it again (www.livejournal.com/users/isallhopelost) yah..........and...I dont know if I mentioned yet that I really miss Brian.....a lot.......

alright...I am off to work on my senior research paper for J-Rod’s class and then to listen to my "girl" music, think bout brian, hopefully talk to brian.....prepare myself for another day at the hell hole we like to call Diamond Bar High School. Whoot. Peace Out

As Marcus would say *One Love*

*sAmE iN tHe EnD*

hahahaha.....today was with out a doubt, the best english class EVER. My teacher J-Rod AKA "Mr. Rodriguez" somehow encorporated "Same in the End" into our talk about the 4 letter "F" word.....FATE. haha.....it was so cool..he read it aloud...or....sang it aloud hahaha......he is the coolest teacher ever. seriously i love that man hehe...here ya go


down in mississippi where the sun
beats down from the sky
they give it up, and they give ti up, and
they give it up
but they never ask why
daddy was a rollin, rollin’ stone
oh, he rolled away one day and he
never came home
it aint hard to understand
this aint hitlers master plan
what it takes to be a man
oo, in my mind, and in my brain
i roll it over like a steamin freight train
it aint hard to ascertain

you only see what you want to believe
when you light up in theb ack with those
tricks up your sleeve
that dont mean i cant hang
but the day that i die will be the day that i
shut my mouth and put down my guitar
sunday morning hold church down at the bar
get down on your knees and start to
pray
oooh, pray my itchy rash will go away
back up y’all
it aint me

kentucky fried chicken is all t hat isee
its a hellified way to start your day

if i make you cry all night
me and daddy gonna have a fist fight
it ain’t personal, it ain’t me

i only am what you told me to be
im a backward ass hillbilly
im dick butkiss
you know i lie
i get mean
im a thief in the dark
im a ragin’ machine
im a triple rectified ass son of a bitch
rec-tite on my ass and it makes me itch
i can see for miles and miles and miles
oh...my broken heart makes me smile

in my mind, in my brain
i go back and go completely insane
it aint personal, it aint me
if i make you cry, i might
be your daddy at the end of the night
take a load from my big gun

you only see what you want to believe
when you creep from the back i got
tricks up my sleeve
24/7 is the devils best friend
makes no difference its all the same in
the end



ahhh.......awesome song! hehe.......


practice this morning was hell.....we had to be there...to dance...by 630....!!!!! dancing for.....3 hours......not my idea of a good wake up call! shit.......but....i got a good workout. blah! dance team captain.....with ige (kristin) is a lot of work this year....but....it will be worth it....i hope. i am so exhausted though....sheez..........blah!!!!!!!!!! oh and now....even roqriguez calls me johnson (its my last name...) so now i have dance teamthat calls me that....Mr. CUccia.....J-Rod........whom else?!?!?!? sheez ! lol so many random people .....weird...i dont really respond to kristen any more....sad stuff.....

peace

*sAmE iN tHe EnD*

hahahaha.....today was with out a doubt, the best english class EVER. My teacher J-Rod AKA "Mr. Rodriguez" somehow encorporated "Same in the End" into our talk about the 4 letter "F" word.....FATE. haha.....it was so cool..he read it aloud...or....sang it aloud hahaha......he is the coolest teacher ever. seriously i love that man hehe...here ya go


down in mississippi where the sun
beats down from the sky
they give it up, and they give ti up, and
they give it up
but they never ask why
daddy was a rollin, rollin’ stone
oh, he rolled away one day and he
never came home
it aint hard to understand
this aint hitlers master plan
what it takes to be a man
oo, in my mind, and in my brain
i roll it over like a steamin freight train
it aint hard to ascertain

you only see what you want to believe
when you light up in theb ack with those
tricks up your sleeve
that dont mean i cant hang
but the day that i die will be the day that i
shut my mouth and put down my guitar
sunday morning hold church down at the bar
get down on your knees and start to
pray
oooh, pray my itchy rash will go away
back up y’all
it aint me

kentucky fried chicken is all t hat isee
its a hellified way to start your day

if i make you cry all night
me and daddy gonna have a fist fight
it ain’t personal, it ain’t me

i only am what you told me to be
im a backward ass hillbilly
im dick butkiss
you know i lie
i get mean
im a thief in the dark
im a ragin’ machine
im a triple rectified ass son of a bitch
rec-tite on my ass and it makes me itch
i can see for miles and miles and miles
oh...my broken heart makes me smile

in my mind, in my brain
i go back and go completely insane
it aint personal, it aint me
if i make you cry, i might
be your daddy at the end of the night
take a load from my big gun

you only see what you want to believe
when you creep from the back i got
tricks up my sleeve
24/7 is the devils best friend
makes no difference its all the same in
the end



ahhh.......awesome song! hehe.......


practice this morning was hell.....we had to be there...to dance...by 630....!!!!! dancing for.....3 hours......not my idea of a good wake up call! shit.......but....i got a good workout. blah! dance team captain.....with ige (kristin) is a lot of work this year....but....it will be worth it....i hope. i am so exhausted though....sheez..........blah!!!!!!!!!! oh and now....even roqriguez calls me johnson (its my last name...) so now i have dance teamthat calls me that....Mr. CUccia.....J-Rod........whom else?!?!?!? sheez ! lol so many random people .....weird...i dont really respond to kristen any more....sad stuff.....

peace

*memories seep from my veins...let me be empty*

My Uncle Mike, 55, died today of a heart attack. He has no history of heart problems. He was in the Marines and is a Vietnam War Veteran, he worked for the government. Last weekend I was supposed to go to his Retirement dinner with my family and brian. My uncle ended up cancelling the whole thing due to the fact that he had a cold and wasn’t feeling well. Today...not any more than 3 minutes after walking in the door....my dad calls and asks for my mom...and then my mom tells me my uncle had a heart attack. i ask if he is okay, she says no, i ask if he will be, she says no, i ask if he passed away...she says yes. tell me how it is right...tell me......i would like to know........there is no answer....i know..."things just happen right" tell me why it didn’t happen to some dumb ass drug dealer...or some murderer.....or hell....iono.....usama bin laden...saddam hussain...or however the hell you spell that fuckers name..................tell me.....why not them

*L is for the way you look at me*

haha...i j ust found this singing gorilla thing that stephanie duenas gave to me freshmen year for valentines day and it sings that L O V E song....

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very very extra ordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

yadda yadda yadda hehe....i love this thing! it’s so cute! hehe

today i am in a much better mood than monday. tomorrow i have my spanish and english finals. spanish should be okay. i have an A in there so I just have to do decent enough on the test to keep my A like i have all semester. All my other classes I got A’s in! so yay! hehe. welps..im off to take my shower....and do laundry....and all that fun stuff before bed...........peace

*until the day i die, i’ll spill my heart for you*

last night.......AMAZING! I got to spend so much time with Brian last night. This week has been hell because we haven’t been able to see eachother due to the fact that we’re back at school, he has ROP and had a lot of homework, and I had a lot of practices this week! ah! it was torture! But we made up for it all yesterday! yay! hehe

aaaaahhhhhhhh..................he makes me soooo happy.....its incredible

*Just tell me that you love me baby, even if it is a lie....*

current music: Tori Amos *Precious Things*

*a passion in your carress......floats from your finger tips....and i pray for the day when i hear those precious words press through your lips.....and imwishin upon a star from up above...that soon you’ll look at me baby and say im the one that you love...am i the one....that you think of. *

brian....brian....brian...........amazing.......hott........caring.... understanding.......gorgeous......uuggh....so many things......you all don’t understand. last night was so awesome...so much fun. i am loving life right now. i am loving this......feeling....thank you brian for these wonderful feelings..........

*she hangs around the boulevard shes a local girl with a local scar. she got home late, she drank so hard the bottle ached. and she tried and she tried and she tried but nothings clear in a bottle full of lies. she takes and she takes she takes and she takes, she understands when she gives it away. she says man ive gotten get outta this town man ive gotta get outta this place, man ive gotta get ou tta this town...out of this town and back to la. shes got a gun, shes got a gun, shes got a gun she called the lucky one, she left a note right by the fone, but dont leave a message kuz this aint no home......she cried and she cried she cried and she cried.....she cried so long her tears ran dry. she laughed and she laughed...she laughed and she laughed....she laughed kuz she knew she was never coming back. its all she loves...its all she hates....its all too much for her to take..she cant be sure just where it ends or where the good life begins. so she took a train...to a little old town without a name she met a man who took her in but fed her all the same bullshit a gain........*

yah.....i have an ubsession with beth hard..........love her music....

*corque du soleil..........VAREKAI!!!!*

that is what i got to see yesterday........so amazing.......... i would see it a million times more......................it gave me chills...........it made me want to do so much more........... i want to see zumanity by cirque du soleil.......i want to go to vegas and see all of their shows..............i am in love with cirque du soleil I HAVE SO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT THIS LATER.....varekai is the new love of my life!

*corque du soleil..........VAREKAI!!!!*

that is what i got to see yesterday........so amazing.......... i would see it a million times more......................it gave me chills...........it made me want to do so much more........... i want to see zumanity by cirque du soleil.......i want to go to vegas and see all of their shows..............i am in love with cirque du soleil I HAVE SO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT THIS LATER.....varekai is the new love of my life!

*yOuR eYeS tElL tHe StOrIeS oF a DaY yOu WiSh YoU cOuLd ReCaLl...*

*yOuR eYeS tElL tHe StOrIeS oF a DaY yOu WiSh YoU cOuLd ReCaLl ThE mOmEnTs ThAt OnCe hAvE rEtRaCt ThE fOoTsTePs ThAt BroUgHt Us To ThIs FaVoR i WoUlDnT aSk ThIs Of YoU*

I have the bestest boyfriend! hehe! he got me this best christmas gifts! hehe ;) yay! thank you brian SO SO SO SO SO SO SO much! last night we went to the movies to go see the last samuri at 9:50 but......2 people ahead of us in line bought the last tickets! so we ended up seeing *bad santa*at 10pm. which was soooo freaking hilarious! hehehehe *shit happens when you party naked!* the ending was not what i thought it would be. i actually really liked the ending though it was good! ahhh! if you haven’t seen *bad santa* you should see it! hehe. welps yesterday was such a good christmas! yay! hehe ;) today i am going to go see varekai with my mom! i am excited! ryan from FOREVER ends said it’s really good. he saw it on TV or something and said he thought it looked really good. so yay! hopefully ill get to come back and see brian before the night is over.......hope everyone had as good of a christmas as i did!

*yOuR eYeS tElL tHe StOrIeS oF a DaY yOu WiSh YoU cOuLd ReCaLl...*

*yOuR eYeS tElL tHe StOrIeS oF a DaY yOu WiSh YoU cOuLd ReCaLl ThE mOmEnTs ThAt OnCe hAvE rEtRaCt ThE fOoTsTePs ThAt BroUgHt Us To ThIs FaVoR i WoUlDnT aSk ThIs Of YoU*

I have the bestest boyfriend! hehe! he got me this best christmas gifts! hehe ;) yay! thank you brian SO SO SO SO SO SO SO much! last night we went to the movies to go see the last samuri at 9:50 but......2 people ahead of us in line bought the last tickets! so we ended up seeing *bad santa*at 10pm. which was soooo freaking hilarious! hehehehe *shit happens when you party naked!* the ending was not what i thought it would be. i actually really liked the ending though it was good! ahhh! if you haven’t seen *bad santa* you should see it! hehe. welps yesterday was such a good christmas! yay! hehe ;) today i am going to go see varekai with my mom! i am excited! ryan from FOREVER ends said it’s really good. he saw it on TV or something and said he thought it looked really good. so yay! hopefully ill get to come back and see brian before the night is over.......hope everyone had as good of a christmas as i did!

*yOuR eYeS tElL tHe StOrIeS oF a DaY yOu WiSh YoU cOuLd ReCaLl...*

*yOuR eYeS tElL tHe StOrIeS oF a DaY yOu WiSh YoU cOuLd ReCaLl ThE mOmEnTs ThAt OnCe hAvE rEtRaCt ThE fOoTsTePs ThAt BroUgHt Us To ThIs FaVoR i WoUlDnT aSk ThIs Of YoU*

I have the bestest boyfriend! hehe! he got me this best christmas gifts! hehe ;) yay! thank you brian SO SO SO SO SO SO SO much! last night we went to the movies to go see the last samuri at 9:50 but......2 people ahead of us in line bought the last tickets! so we ended up seeing *bad santa*at 10pm. which was soooo freaking hilarious! hehehehe *shit happens when you party naked!* the ending was not what i thought it would be. i actually really liked the ending though it was good! ahhh! if you haven’t seen *bad santa* you should see it! hehe. welps yesterday was such a good christmas! yay! hehe ;) today i am going to go see varekai with my mom! i am excited! ryan from FOREVER ends said it’s really good. he saw it on TV or something and said he thought it looked really good. so yay! hopefully ill get to come back and see brian before the night is over.......hope everyone had as good of a christmas as i did!

*it’s like electric sex in the window!*

someone......tell me that *a christmas story* isn’t the best movie ever created by man...............shit that movie is so hilarious! haha....okay here’s what i got for christmas....

10 shirts

2 jackets

1 kick ass purse!

lipgloss from mac.....it’s so prety! and it tastes good!

make up from stila

more make up from mac

8 pairs of socks with designs on them! yay! i am ubsessed with those kinds of sock!

a finch shirt

something corporate shirt (from kevin)

blink shirt (from kevin)

coheed and cambria cd

’"Wayne" a true story about a guy who was SEVERELY abused (worse than dave pelzer from a child called "it" ’

*our boys* a true story about these guys who raped a handicapped girl and then the town didn’t think it was true...they thought the girl was making it up for attention...a lot of twisted things happened to her

another book by torey hayden! i LOVE this woman! she wrote my favorite book ever *murphy’s boy* aahh! I cannot wait! it’s called *beautiful child* aahhh! she writes about her students...she works with emotionally disturbed kids.....i love these kinds of books they’re so interesting! I cannot wait to read !

my FAVORITE perfume EVER! *LUCKY YOU*

2 lotions from victorias secret

2 body sprays from victorias secret

and.......my dad got my mom and i tickets to go see varekai tomorrow night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heheheheh!

ahh..what else did i get

50 bucks

a dale earnhardt jr. picture with his freaking autograph! haha! the prettiest jewelry thingy ever from brian’s mom and dad. it’s in the shape of a star...and it has a picture of me and him in it! it’s so pretty!

oh and also from his parents.....my favorite stuff from bath and body works ! my favorite scent from there too! cucumber melon! whoooo!

a CUTE scarf! and....uh........oh!

a pretty pretty pretty necklace with stars

like 10 pairs of earrings

a belt with zebra print on it and star hole thingys! yay!

uuhhhhhh i dunno what else! but i am so happy with what i got! yay!!!!!!!!!!! heheheheh! whoo!



brian is coming over right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!

merry christmas everyone

dont you make me feel crazy, if i break down and cry just tell me that you love me baby even if it is a lie*

happy, sad, content, depressed, contemplative, close minded....i am beginning to think i have a slight case of med.....multiple emotions disorder! the only thing is, i dont know if there even is such a thing. naw.....i think it’s just a freakin girl thing that sucks like all hell.

last night i went and saw "stuck on you* with brian. it was pretty good, or atleast I thought so. I thought it was funnier than i had expected it to be which was a plus. then we went back to his house and watched pirates of the carribbean......it is good i have never seen it before. not tooo bad if i do say so myself.

i have so much shopping left to do it is not even funny at all. i am going nuts there is no way i will ever finish!

if anyone......can help me to find the song by beth hart....called *am i the one* it would be GREATLY appreciated........GREATLY


my first day of break was.......ehh........not tooooooo bad. woke up at 730........took a bath and got ready to go to my orthodontist appointment just so i could sit in the chair for LITERALLY 5 minutes and the guy says,....*have you been wearing your retainers at night 3 times a week......how do they feel? any problems? okay come back in 6 months they look good. merry christmas* yes..............so worth waking up early! score! welps....then i went with my mom to the mall and got a couple gifts for peoples. i got part of brians, have to get the other thing i want to get today, then i got um.......what’d i get i dunno....oh i picked out clothes for myself with my mom because she and i do NOT have the same taste in clothes and she said she didnt want to buy me anything i would hate. yup yup.......

lord jesus...............there is a God! Brandon just found me the beth hart song! yay! brandon.......thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you! i have been looking for it online forever! yay! ahhh you freaking rock!

my house is currently in the process of being painted......so it smells not to pretty right now and it is making me feel a bit light headed and i havea slight headache......i wonder if that’s why they’re wearing masks......i should ask for one too...that ish smells icky........blegh! welps....i am sitting here.....in a towel....haha...as i have been for about 30 minutes now since i just got outta the shower....so i should prolly go put on some clothes now....might be a good idea......alright peace out ya’ll!



a passion in your carres, floats from your fingertips
and i pray for the day, that i hear those prescious words pass through your lips
wishin upon the star, from up above..uhh
that soon you’ll love at me baby, and say im the one that you love




here’s a quiz that i stole from brandon


entrancing
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

dont you make me feel crazy, if i break down and cry just tell me that you love me baby even if it is a lie*

happy, sad, content, depressed, contemplative, close minded....i am beginning to think i have a slight case of med.....multiple emotions disorder! the only thing is, i dont know if there even is such a thing. naw.....i think it’s just a freakin girl thing that sucks like all hell.

last night i went and saw "stuck on you* with brian. it was pretty good, or atleast I thought so. I thought it was funnier than i had expected it to be which was a plus. then we went back to his house and watched pirates of the carribbean......it is good i have never seen it before. not tooo bad if i do say so myself.

i have so much shopping left to do it is not even funny at all. i am going nuts there is no way i will ever finish!

if anyone......can help me to find the song by beth hart....called *am i the one* it would be GREATLY appreciated........GREATLY


my first day of break was.......ehh........not tooooooo bad. woke up at 730........took a bath and got ready to go to my orthodontist appointment just so i could sit in the chair for LITERALLY 5 minutes and the guy says,....*have you been wearing your retainers at night 3 times a week......how do they feel? any problems? okay come back in 6 months they look good. merry christmas* yes..............so worth waking up early! score! welps....then i went with my mom to the mall and got a couple gifts for peoples. i got part of brians, have to get the other thing i want to get today, then i got um.......what’d i get i dunno....oh i picked out clothes for myself with my mom because she and i do NOT have the same taste in clothes and she said she didnt want to buy me anything i would hate. yup yup.......

lord jesus...............there is a God! Brandon just found me the beth hart song! yay! brandon.......thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you! i have been looking for it online forever! yay! ahhh you freaking rock!

my house is currently in the process of being painted......so it smells not to pretty right now and it is making me feel a bit light headed and i havea slight headache......i wonder if that’s why they’re wearing masks......i should ask for one too...that ish smells icky........blegh! welps....i am sitting here.....in a towel....haha...as i have been for about 30 minutes now since i just got outta the shower....so i should prolly go put on some clothes now....might be a good idea......alright peace out ya’ll!



a passion in your carres, floats from your fingertips
and i pray for the day, that i hear those prescious words pass through your lips
wishin upon the star, from up above..uhh
that soon you’ll love at me baby, and say im the one that you love




here’s a quiz that i stole from brandon


entrancing
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

*dear santy...*

So, today my dad asks me to come into the living room..and he hands me two envelopes. They are each written on with my handwriting from when I was little...unopened. He tells me to open them and read them...... here’s exactly what it said.....and no...these are NOT spelling erros right now...its how it looks on the paper...

I LOVE YOU SANTY

from kristen i love you sattiy dersatty iwtt to no if im in the b ad oaw the goo 12/9/92/1992 tosatty hww aer the radersa sasiler rudoiph,.

yes....so I obviously was not the most intelligent 6 year old around. I guess i didnt know how to write the date.......and had no clue how to spell! hehe i was nuts! lol! if only you could see the drawing on the paper......haha....priceless. to be completely honest, it was kind of a nice feeling to see that my dad kept those letters all of those years. it has been 11 years since i wrote that letter......my dad usually doesn’t keep track of t hese kinds of t hings.....it was definatly a very nice change....

this christmas....i am so happy to have someone to share it with. I am so happy to have my boyfriend this christmas. I have always wanted someone special to share this time of year with...and now I finally can. I cannot wait to see what kinds of fun things will arise in the near future! =) thank you brian for everything

*dear santy...*

So, today my dad asks me to come into the living room..and he hands me two envelopes. They are each written on with my handwriting from when I was little...unopened. He tells me to open them and read them...... here’s exactly what it said.....and no...these are NOT spelling erros right now...its how it looks on the paper...

I LOVE YOU SANTY

from kristen i love you sattiy dersatty iwtt to no if im in the b ad oaw the goo 12/9/92/1992 tosatty hww aer the radersa sasiler rudoiph,.

yes....so I obviously was not the most intelligent 6 year old around. I guess i didnt know how to write the date.......and had no clue how to spell! hehe i was nuts! lol! if only you could see the drawing on the paper......haha....priceless. to be completely honest, it was kind of a nice feeling to see that my dad kept those letters all of those years. it has been 11 years since i wrote that letter......my dad usually doesn’t keep track of t hese kinds of t hings.....it was definatly a very nice change....

this christmas....i am so happy to have someone to share it with. I am so happy to have my boyfriend this christmas. I have always wanted someone special to share this time of year with...and now I finally can. I cannot wait to see what kinds of fun things will arise in the near future! =) thank you brian for everything

*dear santy...*

So, today my dad asks me to come into the living room..and he hands me two envelopes. They are each written on with my handwriting from when I was little...unopened. He tells me to open them and read them...... here’s exactly what it said.....and no...these are NOT spelling erros right now...its how it looks on the paper...

I LOVE YOU SANTY

from kristen i love you sattiy dersatty iwtt to no if im in the b ad oaw the goo 12/9/92/1992 tosatty hww aer the radersa sasiler rudoiph,.

yes....so I obviously was not the most intelligent 6 year old around. I guess i didnt know how to write the date.......and had no clue how to spell! hehe i was nuts! lol! if only you could see the drawing on the paper......haha....priceless. to be completely honest, it was kind of a nice feeling to see that my dad kept those letters all of those years. it has been 11 years since i wrote that letter......my dad usually doesn’t keep track of t hese kinds of t hings.....it was definatly a very nice change....

this christmas....i am so happy to have someone to share it with. I am so happy to have my boyfriend this christmas. I have always wanted someone special to share this time of year with...and now I finally can. I cannot wait to see what kinds of fun things will arise in the near future! =) thank you brian for everything

*dear santy...*

So, today my dad asks me to come into the living room..and he hands me two envelopes. They are each written on with my handwriting from when I was little...unopened. He tells me to open them and read them...... here’s exactly what it said.....and no...these are NOT spelling erros right now...its how it looks on the paper...

I LOVE YOU SANTY

from kristen i love you sattiy dersatty iwtt to no if im in the b ad oaw the goo 12/9/92/1992 tosatty hww aer the radersa sasiler rudoiph,.

yes....so I obviously was not the most intelligent 6 year old around. I guess i didnt know how to write the date.......and had no clue how to spell! hehe i was nuts! lol! if only you could see the drawing on the paper......haha....priceless. to be completely honest, it was kind of a nice feeling to see that my dad kept those letters all of those years. it has been 11 years since i wrote that letter......my dad usually doesn’t keep track of t hese kinds of t hings.....it was definatly a very nice change....

this christmas....i am so happy to have someone to share it with. I am so happy to have my boyfriend this christmas. I have always wanted someone special to share this time of year with...and now I finally can. I cannot wait to see what kinds of fun things will arise in the near future! =) thank you brian for everything

*you make me nervous....hella hella hella nervous...*

ah! haha...that song is so funnyyy! lol gracias to mi amiga carlyn from freaking elementary for intro-ing me to *gravy train* even though she prolly has NO idea she intro-d me to them! yup...oiy...brian’s sick! blegh! i feel so bad for him he feels like pure ish! and that’s not good! last night was fun, i went with him and his mom, dad, and two grandma’s to claim jumper for the first time. and wow, it was so good! it was fun! i love his family! today i got the honor of wearing christine’s o so sexy jacket! i LOVE this thing it is so awesome! yay! had to go shopping today to get some stuff done, had fun shopping with mi madre. took a spanish oral today....iono how i did we’ll see. did a spanish written exam as well and i think i did pretty dang good. it was on salvador dali...i love that guy......he’s a freaking kick ass artist... welps...i have a report to write! peace!

*you make me nervous....hella hella hella nervous...*

ah! haha...that song is so funnyyy! lol gracias to mi amiga carlyn from freaking elementary for intro-ing me to *gravy train* even though she prolly has NO idea she intro-d me to them! yup...oiy...brian’s sick! blegh! i feel so bad for him he feels like pure ish! and that’s not good! last night was fun, i went with him and his mom, dad, and two grandma’s to claim jumper for the first time. and wow, it was so good! it was fun! i love his family! today i got the honor of wearing christine’s o so sexy jacket! i LOVE this thing it is so awesome! yay! had to go shopping today to get some stuff done, had fun shopping with mi madre. took a spanish oral today....iono how i did we’ll see. did a spanish written exam as well and i think i did pretty dang good. it was on salvador dali...i love that guy......he’s a freaking kick ass artist... welps...i have a report to write! peace!

*im wasting so much time my friend*

things worked out for the better....for once. wow....i have neglected melo lately....i am sorry melo! yeesh...what kinda user am i?!?! well.....yah..................wow......i am so content right now that things actually worked out for the better because.....i have really been down about all this ish happening it has gotten the best of me and it feels good to not have to crymyself to sleep tonight.......

*im wasting so much time my friend*

things worked out for the better....for once. wow....i have neglected melo lately....i am sorry melo! yeesh...what kinda user am i?!?! well.....yah..................wow......i am so content right now that things actually worked out for the better because.....i have really been down about all this ish happening it has gotten the best of me and it feels good to not have to crymyself to sleep tonight.......

*hahaha....*





i wish.....dont they know this woman was nice?!?!? and PATIENT?!

*how stoopid could i have been*

well...today at disneyland freaking rocked. So, today was awesome! Went to disneyland......first thing that me, katie corinna and gracey did, was got ice cream! haha! then we headed to indiana jones, then......the drama of the day happened....as we’re walking towards pirates...corinna realizes that her phone fell off on indiana jones...so we had to go back and luckily they had it!Then....off we went to the haunted mansion.....ran into the one and only justin lottie. hehe...and that is where the stoopid picture started....in front of the haunted mansion. i took over 35 pictures today....i cannot wait to get them developed!hehe...even took a picture with justin! lol! then....we went...to splash mountain...then we ate...yes again! hehe...then....off to um....where did we go i cannot think....o yes....matterhorn....then.....um.....carousel...and me and katie were um doing weird poses with our legs so corinna could take a pictuer...but the man got mad! hehe...oiy......hehe fun times. then we went shopping...got somethin for brian....and...then ate again...then had to go perform which was....eh....medeoaker....but...wutever......o well...my night just got a little shakey. ..........whoooooooo.......damn...today was perfect too.....fuck....that sucks.....wow..............

*how stoopid could i have been*

well...today at disneyland freaking rocked. So, today was awesome! Went to disneyland......first thing that me, katie corinna and gracey did, was got ice cream! haha! then we headed to indiana jones, then......the drama of the day happened....as we’re walking towards pirates...corinna realizes that her phone fell off on indiana jones...so we had to go back and luckily they had it!Then....off we went to the haunted mansion.....ran into the one and only justin lottie. hehe...and that is where the stoopid picture started....in front of the haunted mansion. i took over 35 pictures today....i cannot wait to get them developed!hehe...even took a picture with justin! lol! then....we went...to splash mountain...then we ate...yes again! hehe...then....off to um....where did we go i cannot think....o yes....matterhorn....then.....um.....carousel...and me and katie were um doing weird poses with our legs so corinna could take a pictuer...but the man got mad! hehe...oiy......hehe fun times. then we went shopping...got somethin for brian....and...then ate again...then had to go perform which was....eh....medeoaker....but...wutever......o well...my night just got a little shakey. ..........whoooooooo.......damn...today was perfect too.....fuck....that sucks.....wow..............

*It’s not catastrophes, murders, deaths, diseases, that age and kill us; it’s the way people look and laugh, and run up the steps of omnibuses*

yeesh, it has been a LONG time since i have written in melo! it looks like no one has been writing in here lately though. wow. sucks for melo! haha...so yah....i am officially an online journal FREAK! i have this melo, 2 xanga’s one of which i share with my lil chelsea from dance team, and a live journal...........lord help me get over this addiction! last night brian and i went miniature golfing at speedzone..........i lost by 1 point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one point! how is that possible! the first game we tied.....55/55 the second game 44/45! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! haha how random. i think my dad got me sick.....but i am feeling a lil better because i got a pretty good sleep last night. I have to leave in 30 minutes so I can go learn the officer dance with katie and ige and gracey.....pressure....pressure....pressure.........my gawd if i an nervous right now....can you imagine how nervious i will be when the time comes on february 21 to compete this shit for the first time! lord jesus................help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*It’s not catastrophes, murders, deaths, diseases, that age and kill us; it’s the way people look and laugh, and run up the steps of omnibuses*

yeesh, it has been a LONG time since i have written in melo! it looks like no one has been writing in here lately though. wow. sucks for melo! haha...so yah....i am officially an online journal FREAK! i have this melo, 2 xanga’s one of which i share with my lil chelsea from dance team, and a live journal...........lord help me get over this addiction! last night brian and i went miniature golfing at speedzone..........i lost by 1 point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one point! how is that possible! the first game we tied.....55/55 the second game 44/45! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! haha how random. i think my dad got me sick.....but i am feeling a lil better because i got a pretty good sleep last night. I have to leave in 30 minutes so I can go learn the officer dance with katie and ige and gracey.....pressure....pressure....pressure.........my gawd if i an nervous right now....can you imagine how nervious i will be when the time comes on february 21 to compete this shit for the first time! lord jesus................help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*catch me if you can*

today was so much fun! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went to brit’s house again this morning.....soooo much fun! hehehhe.............then came home went x-mas shopping then spent time with brian from like 4-1 am hehehe.............it was so awesome! we went to old navy so icould buy a gift for someone..then to tilly’s to visit tyler...then to tylers house.........then to brians house. ah..........so awesome
he’s so awesome.....ahhhhhhhhh

note to self......strawberry daquri’s r lethal! hehehe

*what could possibly be better than....*

what could possibly be better than kicking off your morning with the magic school bus! whoo! hahaha and it was an episode on butterfly’s and moths. welps...i am off to brit wysowski’s house ryte now to finish up this macbeth project..hopefully we’ll get it done today! i have a lot to do today.....go shopping with my mama.....and spend time with brian........and get some stuff made for some special peoples..... :-D hehe.................oooo if only you all knew what i was planning :::::::evil laugh::::: lol

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