ya cant cheat karma

im really pissed off at myself for letting myself go lol. ive told myself im going to change so many times, but this time im for real, and if i fail i will be very disappointed. ive realized giving up meat is just not reasonable for me anymore. but i really need to stop eating so much and so shitty. tomorrow is a new day and i refuse to fuck up. i spent the day indulging sprinkles cupcakes and reading twilight.. finally. im half way through the first book. i then went over to marina's house where she was a horrible influence on me, and once again, lured me in to a deep frying feast fest. it was terrible. now i feel like utter shit and im pissed off. in order to succeed, i feel that its necessary i spend less time with kylie and marina because they are horrible influences, in many more ways besides food. including weed and cigarettes. and mainly food.

i really need to take this seriously, this will be easier when janet finally moves in because we'll be able to help each other out and walk to the gym and walk the dogs. i need to exercise more also, its not like i have anything else going on. OH YEAH, all of this would be much easier if i wasn't sitting around with a god damn cast on my leg all day. i have a goal to meet and this is by may, which is coming up very quickly. i need to be a bombshell. hahah. i have dreams of riding around hb to all the bars in a BATHING SUIT. i couldn't even tell you the last time i was in a fucking bathing suit. i doubt i have enough time with nearly only 2 months to go, so my goal will not be met, but hopefully one day ill cut the bullshit and get where i want to be and be happy.

its ridiculous how much fucking weight rules my life. i wish i had enough will power not to eat. fuck fuck fuck.

dont even have anything to say about my life. im broke, i cant work, i cant drive, i cant walk. it sucks. its nice having nothing to do, but im already bored.
ugh.

UGH

and no one has even noticed hahaha. i wish i could move away so fucking bad. this place is so pointless. im glad im leaving again tomorrow night. i wish i had a music downloading program or whatever. i just wanna finish my tattoo and save money and get the fuck out.

cool csu system for not admitting spring transfers. awesome. now ill be out of school for a year.

fuck life.

life has been weird. schools out. i dont know how i did it but i busted 2 A's and 4 B's. i started my sleeve. i still need to finish the outline and the color. work sucks, im broke as fuck. im going to see blink 182, slightly stoopid & snoop dogg. uhh here are some pictures.



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just listen closely to your heart and follow....

for texting me. I'm better off not talking to you and I just began really getting over you and realizing how big of an asshole you were. Fuck you for saying something to me again.