Hows it going? I havent updated in a while. I dont know what to write about except my day.

It was a Friday, which is just wonderful in and of itself, and then it was an A day, which means I got to see Matt. I think I might like him. hahaha. But, anywho, then after school, I didnt have to wait around for meine Mutter. I just got to go...well, not home, but away from THAT FUCKING HELL HOLE!!! *smile*

I got my nails done. They are this deep, blood red color. I love them a lot, they look kinda like claws. I went to Blockbuster, rented the extended version of the LOTR Two Towers and Interview with the Vampire. Lovely movies, both. I came home, took a hot bath, read a bit and then crawled onto the couch to watch movies. After I finished Two Towers, I came up here.

This song, Brujeria (Brujerimo) is great. I have this up in a different window so I can listen to it on Notrefervousa’s melo. Its currently downloading, but I wanna listen to it now. I am such a dork.

I am going to UshiCon in Feb. in Austin. For all you Jrock/Anime fans out there, I am dressing up as Mana. Its gonna be great.

Much love all...


"I wonder if you are as pretty on the inside as you are on the outside" *evil giggle*

Hey, Hows it goin’? Its absolutely fabulous here. I realized on like...Friday, Thursday...Thursday, I think, that I am all okay now.

I figured out that I am great without him, because not only have I my chick friends, (that are better company than any male) but I also have been asked out/propositioned/checked out (obviously) like four times by like four different guys in the last week. Its been fun. I stayed on the phone with one of my guy friends for like...two and a half hours, yesterday, and there was not ONE silent moment. It was great. I am going to a party this weekend with a lot of my guy friends, and most of them think I am uber hot, so that should turn out promising. All in all, I am better now.

Life is great. I have so much money coming in...my parents are paying me for good grades (which I have a lot of) and then I have been teaching lessons for ten dollars each, and Arnott just keeps on giving me kiddies. Its fun, so my wardrobe has been upsized dramatically as of late.

I think the only bad things that happened this last week, that I still consider bad things were my cat dying, and some people that I knew of dying...in that order. *smirk* Its great to not feel anything again. Oh, how I missed being able to know about someone’s untimely death, shaking my head and continuing to read and go about my business like nothing happened.

As for him, I dont talk to him much. I dont think its worth my time. Not to be rude, but...I just dont. Its like, he lied to me...and now, I just dont want to spend time with him. I have no HATRED for him, but I would just rather, politely, mind you, NOT talk...at least for a little while, or until he decides to initiate conversation. I would talk to him, when he decides that he wants to talk to me...but I dont think he can handle that right now, but then again, I wouldnt know, I mean, its not like I have had a civil more than one word conversation with him lately.

*smile*

The world, while falling apart is okay...

THE ICE QUEEN IS BACK!!

.:Ciao:.
Asidhle

Well, since this is the second time that I have updated in advisory, I figure that I might as well just make it a habit, so from now on, every week, I will have one entry. Yay. Go me. I think you all should go out and see X, or X/1999...because Yaoi is really good, and the men are uber hot. ANYwho, I want to get my Samurai X back from a certan vAL..but she wont return it to me *cries*. I love Danielle, but she never comes and sees me on this thing. The guy next to me right now is such a fitness buff, cute, but a fitness buff. My friend really likes him, and he just ignores her...the big dick. I love The Family Guy. Stewy is great I dont know how to spell that name, but he is uber cool. There are sxome cool melos here at this site, but I really like livejournal better, because IT lets me customize it. I hate these colors...well, actually, they could be a lot worse, but still I really dont like them...Blues and I dont mix very friendly, and I am rambling, because I am determined to write the entire period that I am in here. I need to CG some stuff pretty soon, I have gotten out of practice. Rory is cool, yo. I am actually surprised. At least I have someone to talk to about music, because the fitness buff doesnt talk to me or doesnt like me or some shit. I dont care. He is stupid...and new. I wish he would just die. Jk. I love you Michael. GUYS!!! GROW OUT YOUR HAIR AND MAYBE THEN I WILL WANT TO FUCK YOU!!! .:Ciao Bella:. Asidhle

I am at the Boerne Public Library, which, by the way, I believe is very much biased, considering the only "Occult" books that they carry are the New York Times bestsellers, which include, oh, THREE of my favorite series, and ANNE RICE! As if we DONT get enough of HER anyways. (No offense to you die hard Anne Rice fans, I love her work too). It just makes me mad. I wish someone would decide that maybe good occult (horror fiction, vampire fiction, witchy stuff) is good too, and just because they dont have some great Christian symbolic meaning behind them, that they are very much worth reading. *sigh* You know, The middle school library, where I went to school, didnt even have Bram Stoker’s Dracula? Now, if you ask me, that is like not having...well, one of the greatest books ever written. I mean, its a CLASSIC for crying out loud.

Thats enough bitching about the selection of books here in the Library. I had a good day today. Nothing was thrown, and I wasnt harassed in any way, and that always lightens my mood. XD. Balle would know what I am talking about.

I dreamt about a guy last night. Not The One, I am very sorry to say, but he was named Nineveh. If you ask me to pronounce it for you, I will, but, he was a complete and utter DICK. Still, I spent the night dancing with him until The One came and killed Nineveh. You are, and ever shall be my SAVIOR!!! It was pretty cool. Just the way Nineveh’s blood splattered on all our white. The One was dressed in black, of course. It was neat. He was wearing A long black leather and strappy outfit, and I was wearing the flowy white dress. Our personalities TOTALLY reversed. And, The One saved me. Its only a dream, I know, but the fact that He is in my apocolyptic dreams already says something to me. hahaha. When Nineveh died, The moon fell from the sky, and burned. I guess Nineveh was the epitome of the moon on earth. He looked rather like it, Almost like an albino except for those eyes...Those lilac eyes. I dont know why that seems so scary...it just does. You would have to be in MY mind to understand it fully...and none of you can do that...so HAH!

I read teh most awesome fanfiction the other day. *sigh* I love Sesshomaru. He is awesome. Anyways, that was for you, Berg.

I am going to go continue my search of darkly amusing art.

CIAO

.:Asidhle:.

IxLOVExYOU

Im at school. Fun stuff, eh? Not really, but I am bored now...poetry is only SO fun. :) So, I decided to come write in here. God knows I dont do it enough. Everyone is like "oh, melodramatic will be your new addiction" blahdi blahdi blah...well, no, actually. I am NOT addicted to melodramatic. Go me. Every one, go look for the "Goth-o-Matic poetry generator" its funny shit, yo.

Ya. well,

Ciao.
.:Asidhle:.

I dont know what the hell happened down there with the last entry, because I sure as hell didnt do it. I am NOT like that. hahaha. Well, I get horny and all, but I am more reserved...I dont write that kind of stuff for everyone to see!! Anywho...today, in applied music, I nanced around the Band Hall with Emily T. It was sooo funny. We would SPIN AND SPIN AND SPIN AND SPIN, and then fall on the ground, and lay there laughing for a few minutes. Then, we would go dizzily skipping off into the distance. Today, after school, I went to eat Sushi from a really good place called Taipei (SAN ANTONIO), and then I got my hair cut. They cut a good 5 inches off. Wow. And, you know, its not like I had a whole lotta hair to begin with, but I like it. Its origional. I swear, everyone at Jeanettes just EXPERIMENTS with my head...I get kinda....scared at times, but its too cute. XD! Then, I went and bought a cute pink plaid skirt and a red plaid button up dress. Kinda like the one the nurse wears on the Blink 182 album, but red plaid. Its awesome. So, ya, that was my day. Oh, and if any of you were wondering what that poem meant down there, its in Italian, and you can find the translation of it at www.babelfish.com .:Ciao:. Asidhle

Well, A band that almost NO one knows of, OPETH, is one of the BEST bands of all time!! Here are some lyrics, and unfortunatly, you have to hear the song to understand them...haha.

CREDENCE
Deserted again.
You speak to me through the shadows.
Walking in closed rooms, using cold words.
Captured by the night.
The yearning escapes from my embrace.
Strange silhouettes whisper your thoughts, scream your sadness.
And they all turned away, unable to face more of this death.
Credence in my word.
Written in dust, tainted by memories.
I confess my hope, recognize my loneliness.
Your laughter weeps the truth.
Push me into corners.
Confirming the epitaph of my soul
and displaying the once unknown KARMA.

CIAO
Asidhle

Well, last week, I got into a rather nasty fight with one of my new, though good friends this year. Over a guy, no less. The truth of the matter was, that I had him first, but I gave him up because she liked him, she didnt know that, but eh. So, today, when she DOES find out that I did that for her, she writes me a long, drawn out, sorrowful apology note. She then went on to say "I dont deserve your friendship" and I was thinking "You know, you are right. You dont deserve my friendship, but you will get it because 1) you wouldnt have done the same to me, and 2) because if I dont take you back, I would be just as childish as you were this last week." So, against my better judgement, I did. I took her back, warning her that it was never going to be the same between her and I.

I wish I could just take all the childish attitudes at my school and crush them in my little hands. It seems to be a dehibilitating disease around here. Damnit. In other news, I feel whole. I dont know how long it has been since I felt that everything in my life is...good. At least tolerable. I mean, I dont have that issue with a friend, I have good friends that I know will be there for me anytime, and I am happy with myself. The non emotional prick that I am. I know its amazing that I can say that I am happy with that, but honestly, I am. I feel like I can do what I want, because the people that like me like me for whoever I am, and those that dont, I couldnt care less about, so ya. That basically sums it up. I talked to Danielle the other day. She should come sit with Jessie and I. Just to get away. We could give her a...refreshing outlook. :) Taylor and I are starting to talk again, which is nice. We kinda had a...falling out earlier this year, but it is nice to talk to her again.

In Your eyes, I see my world.
Tossing, turning, tumbling down.
Finding the stars are not in heaven,
Finding the moon in your hand.
I look,
I find,
I see,
I love.
I am.

~CIAO~
Asidhle