He's supposed to be here today. I won't find out till later today after 2:30 or 3.

Tonite is the candle light vigil. I want to go. I don't knoe if Liviers gonna wanna go.
We have alot of things to do today...

I still can't get a grip that he's gone. I knoe it'll really hit me when I find out that he is here and where he is and if we should go see him, which there may be the possibility.

I want to see him. I want to touch his hands, to tell him that I'm sorry for what those bastards did to him. He was no part of anything that they wanted. To tell him how much I miss him. How I wish I hadn't been in the shower when he came on the day of the baby shower so I could've seen & hugged him then and not a month or so prior @ Nicks b-day party. To say thank you for being one of the firsts to welcome me into the "family" upon our first meeting 4 & a half years ago.

I wish more than anything that it could've been someone else...not one of MY family members. I knoe that's really bad of me to wish it upon anyone else a murder so gruesome and wrong but it should never have been meant for him.

He wasn't involved in any drugs or stupid shit people are writing in the comments on the news paper articles online. Then you people will come up w/ "well, how do you knoe? Maybe he was just hiding it well from you guys" Cuz THIS family is closely knit together. Everyone knoes everything...there's no secrets and if there happens to be one, it's not one w/in about an hour or 2 max. Everyone knoes EVERYONES business. That's how we knoe.

I really do hope those heartless bastards are caught. Technically, I knoe that's asking too much, but I really hope they're caught. They destroyed a family of 100 plus people, friends, co-workers & students over another 100 plus if not more. There's people that are now living in other countries findind out and paying respect cuz he was their teacher or their principle, one guy that I noticed is now living in Norway.

I just....I knoes it's real....I knoe this happened...I saw the pictures, I knoe the conditions his body was in, I knoe the run around that happen the past few days in Mexico, I've seen it all on tv, I've read every article I can read about it online along w/ translating from Spanish to English, I've been to the house almost everyday since finding out, I KNOE it's REAL....but I'm still so much in denial....I don't want to believe it....I don't want it to be true. I want to wake up from thise horrible nitemare, I want someone to say, it was all a misunderstanding...you have the wrong person, we found him, injured & hurt, but ALIVE. I want someone to say this is a joke...a REALLY SICK FUCKEN joke, but he IS ALIVE. I want him alive! I want him around cracking his 3 some lesbian jokes to me when he sees me.

So many people are devestated beside us, his co-workers, his students....so many.

I try to see it the way my brother in law the other day said it where, he died, but being a martyr. He's changed so many individuals lives around. He's helped out so many kids. Has helped & pushed kids who never thought they'd graduate or go to college, achieve that goal.

I just hope those bastards really burn in hell...if not something worse if that's possible.

I love & miss you Bobby. I hope you've reached heaven already where no pain can ever touch again and are watching over us all. Seeing how much you're missed & loved. Alot is being done for you, I hope it makes you proud to see how many lives you've touched & made an impact & difference in. You will NEVER, EVER be forgotten.

for a selfish wish....cuz I'm selfish like whoa!

NOT a woman's responsibility
heads up for the menfolk

A lot has been said about how to prevent rape.

Women should learn self-defense.
Women should lock themselves in their houses after dark.
Women shouldn't have long hair and women shouldn't wear short skirts.
Women shouldn't leave drinks unattended. Fuck, they shouldn't dare to get drunk at all.

How about:

If a woman is drunk, don't rape her.
If a woman is walking alone at night, don't rape her.
If a women is drugged and unconscious, don't rape her.
If a woman is wearing a short skirt, don't rape her.
If a woman is jogging in a park at 5 a.m., don't rape her.
If a woman looks like your ex-girlfriend you're still hung up on, don't rape her.
If a woman is asleep in her bed, don't rape her.
If a woman is asleep in your bed, don't rape her.
If a woman is doing her laundry, don't rape her.
If a woman is in a coma, don't rape her.
If a woman changes her mind in the middle of or about a particular activity, don't rape her.
If a woman has repeatedly refused a certain activity, don't rape her.
If a woman is not yet a woman, but a child, don't rape her.
If your girlfriend or wife is not in the mood, don't rape her.
If your step-daughter is watching TV, don't rape her.
If you break into a house and find a woman there, don't rape her.
If your friend thinks it's okay to rape someone, tell him it's not, and that he's not your friend.
If your "friend" tells you he raped someone, report him to the police.
If your frat-brother or another guy at the party tells you there's an unconscious woman upstairs and it's your turn, don't rape her, call the police and report him as a rapist.
Tell your sons, god-sons, nephews, grandsons, sons of friends, and everyone else that it's not okay to rape someone.

Don't just tell your women friends how to be safe and avoid rape.
Don't imply that she could have avoided it if she'd only done/not done x,y or z.
Don't imply that it's in any way her fault.
Don't let silence imply agreement when someone tells you he "got some" with the drunk girl.
Don't perpetuate a culture that tells you that you have no control over or responsibility for your actions. You can, too, help yourself.

If you agree, repost it. It's that important