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1year and 6months since my last entry

What has happened in all this time? Truthfully where did all of this time go is what I ask myself. In that amount of time I should have finished college, and moved on with life at least somewhat. I can only say that this time has brought me more question than answers.

I broke up with Jess 6months ago. Realizing now how good of a thing that was. Needy, self-conscious, and well really OCD. It is fairly safe to say that the relationship was on its downfall when I posted my last entry and it never really picked up from there it just kind of lingered on.

One failed relationship since Jess, that one just never worked but thats what I get for letting my friends try to hook me up with someone. Now I have a crush on someone who just started at work. I could've already fucked that up before anything happened, hooked up with her saturday. That was quite the interesting night, but she seems disinterested in hanging out this week when I brought it up at work. C'est la vie.

Now, school is entirely its own story. I need 1 credit to finish my bach. degree. I guess I have just been putting the class off since I dread taking it and I have no idea what to do with my life. I planned everything around law school, being an attorney and so no. But after working in the field for a while that dream was just shattered. I realize very clearly that not all environments would be the same as the office I was in but still. The level of stress I saw in all of my co-workers was not something I would willingly bring upon myself.

tldr; Still haven't graduated, single and hating it, same job I've always had.

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cruise was wonderful!

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woooooooo! we've been together 6 months!! love you

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I hate my stupid fucking french class homework website it aggrevates me to no goddamn end.

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im happy for my girl, she has rediscovered some old friends.. i just worryfor her.

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I know its a little tacky that you are sitting across the room from me and i am not just talking to you but id rather say it on here. I love you.. you make me so happy no matter what. i know your worried about starting school but everything will be okay. we both know that we are there for each other..things will be okay.

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i love my girlfriend.
and i am going to be so sad while shes gone.
she is perfect
in every way

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I love my girl.

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I hate being sick, i cant even really talk to my girlfriend for any prolonged time or it will have me burst into coughing fits.. this is terrible. I just want to be better.

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shopping despite being one of the worst things for a guy to do was a really great thing to do today, spent time with my girlfriend and my dad.. always a good combination. things are going really well with jess and I it makes me super happy. i hope she can find a way to deal with her stress level, i dont like seeing her stressed and worried.

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Waking up next to her makes my day complete.

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if i had to choose anybody in the world to lay with at night and to wake up to in the morning it would be jessica.
why, because shes perfect in everyway...
well, close to perfect, but shes perfect to me.

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Those nights are so hard when I go to sleep without you in my arms. Those mornings when you are not there are even harder.

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Everytime I read something that you have written a tear comes to my eyes, not because im sad, upset or anything like that but because I too did not really expect this to happen. I can, however, say that this is by far the happiest time I have ever had and I am thankful that things are going so well between us. I really love you more than anything, my life has really changed since this all started -- by far for the better. I could not ask for a better girlfriend, I really don't think one exists.

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I love my girlfriend there is no one I know who could possibly be better than her. I missed her more than anything this past weekend and it is wonderful to have her back here in my arms.

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im angry, i dont want to go back to school today. i love her, i really do.

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i love my girlfriend

she is the best!

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I really for once in my life cannot complain about anything in my life. Things have been really good. They have worked out nicely, got a new car, have a WONDERFUL girlfriend for once in my life. Things have been going very well for us -- things are good.

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i have the best girlfriend in the whole world...
I LOVE HER

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Things are good. Finally found someone who is worth spending time with, good times are had. I cannot really say that I have been this happy in a very very long time. We've been spending way more time together lately than before, is that possible? Either way it has been wonderful.


P.s. Being stuck in traffic sucks.

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Finally got myself over to Lauren and Mandy's, all it took was a special persons involvement. She is of course right, the pancakes after the party were far better than the party itself.

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You know who the best person in the whole wide world is?

Of course you don't!! But I will tell you!!

She is smart, funny, sweet and she thinks I'm pretty damn good too!

<3 Jess

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theres a girl i know
and shes pretty fucking wonderful
yeah
thats right
the end

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Pinch me, I think I am dreaming.

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So, I don't make new entries. Does this make me a bad person? I would so rather say stuff on LJ than over here.. but well I guess I don't post stuff there either.

Maybe I like to keep it all bottled up inside until I explode..

Thinking about someone.. <3

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After being away for so long maybe I will give this another go.


Oh wait, fuck this.

Darkfilter's Melo Quick Entry

Time to buy a gun.

A pakistani crazy fucker tried to run me off the highway today, he then pulls up behind me at a stop light -- gets out of the car -- punches my roof and gets back in. Luckily there was no damage.

The Second Summer of the Rest of My Life

It seems like I went through the same exact shit last summer, people moving, friends going off to out of state schools; I was happy it was over last time. It takes a lot to get through.

With the latest batch of people moving away this leaves me with very few people I would consider to be close friends in the general area. This kinda makes me really unhappy. I guess I will have to go out and meet new people. [That is something that I definately do not enjoy doing, as well, I am not very good at it.]

Could things possibly get any worse this summer? Friends not speaking to longtime friends, tearing other people apart.. Only time will tell.

Love, Hate, Appreciate

love (lv)
n.
1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

hate (ht)
v. hat?ed, hat?ing, hates
v. tr.
To feel hostility or animosity toward.
To detest.
To feel dislike or distaste for: hates washing dishes.


ap?pre?ci?ate (-prsh-t)
v. ap?pre?ci?at?ed, ap?pre?ci?at?ing, ap?pre?ci?ates
v. tr.
To recognize the quality, significance, or magnitude of: appreciated their freedom.
To be fully aware of or sensitive to; realize: I appreciate your problems.
To be thankful or show gratitude for: I really appreciate your help.
To admire greatly; value.
To raise in value or price, especially over time.

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Dont hate, appreciate the love.

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lol your entry makes me feel less like an odd fuck up... so we're NOT fucking up, life just sucks no matter WHAT.... i will note that i've been right about that since jr. high lol

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Slurpee

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Happy Meloversary ^_^

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oh i see.
why do you not post anything?

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& it did it again. :/

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Hello from the random tour bus...

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melo tour brought me to you, even though you don/t seem to be around. :/

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you've been around just as long as I have.. I was kinda shocked to see the picture, and I think you should keep it! don't change it!

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hahaha nice profile pic!

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friended. enjoy :)

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its going... lol hows it going for you???

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Yeah, at this point I'm not terribly worried about spamming the front page,.

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good.. how is you?

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damn - long time... I couldn't remember my shit..but got in finally - lots changed! so weird to be back on here...I was so addicted there for a bit...all good things much come to an end eh? ciao!

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So how are you? I see that it's been awhile since you've been on here. I just recently started up again too. Different profile for me though.

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Hello!

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i love your quote.

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awesome! welcome!

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Where are you from? :)

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happy meloversary

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merry meloversary

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Happy meloversary. =]

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Happy Meloversary!

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Happy MELO-BIRTH Day!!! ♥

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happy five year meloversary!

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HMV ^_^

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heyheyhey

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hooray for oct bdays!

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sure thing!!!

~*Lishie

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Ho ho ho. Santa is recruiting elves. :)

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Why hello there

STELLA

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So happy for you and your girlfriend <3

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i'm doing well. i've just moved from san diego back to the east coast between philly and nyc. how's everything going with you

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hey let me know if you're back :) miss hearing from you

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s'okay.. i just randomly came across here a few times myself :) but really, come back! :D

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where've you been?

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Yeah, that's usually when I go on sabbatical as well.
When things are really bad, or really good.

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