"Can You" or "Hope" by Duncan McCulloch


Can you take your hands off my eyes
I'd like to see, clear blue sky
These days my minds been foggy inside
Can you make me feel like I'm alive.

Light at the end of my tunnel, is there anything there?
Hope for the future, live a life without care
Sinkin' in quicksand, to scared to dare
Clean up the wound, suture the tear.

She will be beautiful, in so many ways
I will be happy, day after day
Is this a dream, Hope this comes true
I'd really like to be with you.

Holding on to the rope
Holding on to hope
Holding on to the past
But i'll let it go.

Can you take this off my mind
I'd like to be flyng through the sky
I want you, to stop the crying inside
Can you help me to be more alive.

I"m sure everything will be okay
This mental rain, must end, there will be a sunny day
I'm just going to keep on my way
If this is who I am, I shall not sway.

Slave by Duncan McCulloch

Forget about me, I'll forget about you.
Erase the memory, everything you knew.
Cut through the vein, constant blood flow.
That would will scar, but you Reap what you sow.

Whip through the bush, thorns ripping through the skin.
Pain sensations, like being peirced with pins.
Your lifes been going down the drain.
Change who you are, but your still the same.

You'll never fool me with your games and tricks.
Everyday your making your grave bigger, soon you'll fit.
People trying to be different, but your all the same.
and Everyday theres something crazy going on, everyones going insane.

You may be free, but where will you go.
Served the time, far from innocent, stooped nice and low.
You never know in what direction you are headed.
Lost in the maze of life, the curse is embedded.

Your Just a
Slave to the pain that you've got yourself into.
And thats how it will always be.
Take your hands off your eyes
So you can finally see
Remove the gag, I'll let you breath.
Cut you with a knife, allow you to bleed.

My cat died.. well my sisters cat... "Cruiser" he wasn't even old, he was only 2 years old....
so I am probally taking him in for an Autopsy. Im guessing a Myocardial Infarction (heart attack) or maybe a stroke.. because as far as I know he did not have any symptoms or illness.. and he seemed fine yesterday before he just died...maybe he had liver failure or something.. ... it just sucks because he was getting nicer, and wasn't rough anymore really... I might be getting a Kitten.. so will have to see...

on a better note... i got 2 scrubs yesterday.. (the outfits doctors, Vets, and healthcare workers wear..)
a Green one, and a Black one.. the school pays for one, but if you want more then 1, you have to buy it yourself.. but anyways.. that was pretty cool...

well im off... i might write in this ol' thing again in a little while..

-Dee-

Marital Status] Single
[Shoe size] 11 i think,.. sometimes 10
[Parents still together] Yea
[Siblings]sister-Jennifer..23 or 24 or something
[Pets] Lots..2dogs 2 cats 2 birds 1 guinea pig 3 Tarantulas..
FAVORITES [Color] Lots.. black is always good
[Number] none..
[Animal] probally dogs..
[Drinks] Beer
[Soda] Any
[Book] A few..
[Flower] Lillys
DO YOU [Color your hair?] did once or twice.. i need to again...
[Twirl your hair?] not usually
[Have tattoos?] Nope..
[Have Piercings?] yep, 2
[Cheat on tests/homework?] lol.. not seriously..
[Drink/Smoke?] yep
[Like roller coasters?] No
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] yea... or be someone else..
[Want more piercings?] kindof
[Like cleaning?] Sometimes
[Write in cursive or print?] Print
[Own a web cam?]yea
[Know how to drive?] Yes
[Own a cell phone?] Yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?] sometimes.. lol.. when im not working,going to school, getting drunk, etc..
HAVE U EVER [Been in a fist fight?] Yes
[Considered a life of crime?] not really so much a life.. but doing crime yea..
[Considered being a hooker?]fuck that.. dont need clemetia
[Lied to someone?] Yes
[Been in love?] Yea..
[Made out with JUST a friend?] Yes
[Been in lust?] not really..lust is for suckers
[Used someone] not really..
[Been used?] lots of times..
[Been cheated on?] dunno.. probally..
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] Yes
[Stolen anything?] lots of times..
[Held a gun] yea quite a few times
CURRENTS [Current clothing] Pj's :) cuz im l337
[Current mood] Shitty
[Current taste] gross mouth
[What you currently smell like] like washed?
[Current hair] shaggy hair
[Current thing I ought to be doing] getting smashed..
[Current cd in stereo] none.. listened to Kiyoshi Nagata a couple times today..
[Last book you read] ummm... Coral Island i think
[Last movie you saw] hmm.. i forget..
[Last thing you ate] dunno
[Last person you talked to on the phone] who knows.,,
[Do drugs?] just some..
[Believe there is life on other planets?] yep
Remember your first love?] yea...
[Still love him/her?] sure..
[Read the newspaper?] no.. news is depressing..
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] don't think so..
[Believe in miracles?] No.. obviously not..
[Do well in school?] yea now i do...
[Wear hats] not usually..
[Hate yourself?] yea.. sometimes..
[Have an obsession?] not really
[Collect anything?] not really..
[Have a best friend?] no..
[Close friends?] A few
[Like your handwriting?] no.. i write messy.. i can barely even write ...

Its All Over
By Duncan McCulloch


Wrote this a long time ago..
good song.. complete with lyrics and guitar

..Use P.M. as Desired...


Intro (2x)
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Verse (4x)

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When I Was A Child
I Didn't know wrong from right

Now I'm all grown up
and this shit will end tonight

I don't know, why, or when
but this is going to be the end

Chorus (4x)
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It's All Over
This will be the end

It's all over
Won't see another day again


Verse (4x)

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Its almost your time

Then you will be, a victim of crime

If I was you, I'd get away

You were a friend, but you betray

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It's All Over
This will be the end

It's all over
Won't see another day again

Bridge (play a few times)

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It's All Over
This will be the end

It's all over
Won't see another day again

Verse (3x)

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YOU BETRAY!
YOU BETRAY!
YOU BETRAY!

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END

"Lost" by Duncan McCulloch
November 19/05

I am so lost, I've never been so confused
I don't know what to think, do, or feel
and all I think about is you.
Through All of this, I lost more then myself
I lost everything I ever knew
I miss everything, but mostly me and you
I must look to the future,
There lies my salvation.
Although I am forever scarred,
Hopefully I'll always have you
The memories will always be there
Accompanied by the pain,
What value is life, if this is what I gain.
A life of tears, and no one calling out my name
I need someone to hold, or for things to be alright
I've never felt this bad, in my entire life
Love is the greatest feeling in the world,
but it can also hurt like hell
You say you care and that you worry
but where are you now?
Often I sleep to waste more of the day
Hoping as the days go by, that this suffering will go away.
I will not give up, I will do what I was told to do.
Carrying on is so hard, when theres no love from you
Now its time to sleep, to bring forth a new day
Hopefully it is alot better, alot better then today.

how would you feel, if you thought life was pointless
and the only reason you keep going, is hope
I don't feel like im living at all
Im losing hope and falling in
I want and Need to start a band
I need to express myself, and to scream out the pain inside me
what makes people popular anyways? i mean.. fuck that
if you need more people around you to make you feel better bout yourself.. go to hell
having people who say their your friends? but they arent truely? im fine without that..
and people that thrive on peoples pain and sorrow, or who simply dont fuckin care.. fuck you 2...
well.. enough of the cursing and stuff.. i just dont understand, if this was really all meant to happen to me.. why.? frig.. this is retarded.. murderers and rapist get away free all the time, or spend a few years in jail, and wow.. their innocent again pretty much.. and i cant even get any happiness, or to feel that feeling inside of you, when you dont feel like a piece of shit.. well geez.. all i want is to be happy.. and to you know.. have a good job, have a family in a few few years from now.. i mean.. is that to mch to ask for? is to have a chance? u know? well enough bitchin, no one likes a bitcher..

"Christmas"
By:
Duncan Mc Culloch

Christmas used to be my favorite time of year
But now, I'll be washing my sorrows away with beer
Being alone, is the worst feeling I think
Just leave me be, just let me fuckin' sink.

Family is all split up, I'm so lost in the mix up
Christmas is about love, but where is mine ?
Forget about me, thats alright, I'll be fine
Each year its always getting worse, Its like a curse
Grab your fuckin' present, you open yours first.

Coming together for Christmas, thats where its at
Eating so much over the break, people get fat
I can't do this anymore, why do we all do this for ?
We all don't get enough presents, we always want more.

I just want to feel some love
Not looking for faith from above
I want to feel something in my heart
I'm always stuck at the start

Living a life that I hate
Am I doomed to this fate ?
Will the new year be the same ?
God damn things never change.

Were looking for more possessions
Not me, Happiness is what im stressin'
Suppose to be my friends, but where you be
Wanted you to spend some of Christmas with me.

Christmas is the worst, just pass already
Gun to your head, Don't you throw that confetti
What are you bitchin' about ? didn't get a Xbox 360 ?
Or wait, you only got Three Hundred and Fifty?

I don't want anything, but to not feel so dead
Tired of being alone, need someone with me in bed
You think you have it bad ?, try feeling like this
I don't mean for a few days, try months, you bitch!

Christmas used to be my favorite time of year
Used to like it as much as hicks love deers
I just want to have somebody to hold
Winter fuckin' sucks !, its to damn cold !

Fuck Christmas ! Fuck Jolly Saint Nick !
Christmas can suck on my fat fuckin' dick !
You ate the whole box of chocolates ? you make me sick
Heres a knife, Please, On my Neck, Make a slit

If this new years better, I'll kiss your shoes
No, Even better then that, I'll pay all your dues
This Christmas, I'll just stay in my bed
Christmas doesn't bring happiness, for me its dead.

When I Close My Eyes, My Eyelids Fill With Tears

I Hate My Life

I Want to Be Happy

People probally think that all this is sappy

Well guess what? if been dead all my life

But when I was with you, i felt alive

Now that i'm alone, with no one to make things right

I lay alone, every single night

Its hard to handle, how you are now

But your still strong in my heart

And You Always will be

Its not that same, when your not with me

Comparing You To everyone else

Feeling dissapointment within my self

I close my eyes again, the lids fill with wet

i wont die, i wont give up, not yet

Our World

By Duncan Ross Buckley McCulloch



We live in a world of hate
You turn it all around, but its to late
Millions spent on bombs, when theres starving children
Your a sinner, but now your forvgivin'

Perfect paradise turned to shit before your eyes
Gaining more weight, supersize those fries
Room on the raft, but keep them sinkin'
Shoot 'em' in the head, to stop 'em' from thinkin'

Let Killers loose, don't let innocent free
Smirks on their faces, their full of glee
People killing themselves because no one cares
Can't afford noting, to high fares

People driving like shit, but blame the weed
Allowed to drive, but they cant read
Take your hands off your eyes, now you can see
Say you've changed but a liar you be

We are the future, does anyone care?
No future, with so much polution in the air
Everything, going down the drain
Waiting in the hospital, pass out from the pain

Religion full of hyprocrits, no one feels the shame
Everyones going for the money and the fame
Street violence, blame it on a game
Take it away, but everything stays the same

Pretend like you give a shit, your on the air
Caring about how people look, and what they wear
Someones in trouble, they walk right by
What comes around, goes around, knife in your eye

You can't do nothing right, don't even try
Your a fuckin' pussy man, Don't fuckin cry
Make up excuses, you can't state the facts
Price for everything, bills come in stacks

Paradise, turned to shit before my eyes
Planes are coming, better look up to the sky
Theres room here, but we wont let you in
Don't touch that, you don't know where its been

We live in a world of hate
We can turn it around, its not to late
Stop wasting money, and killing animals for leather
Atmosphere is all screwed up, constant changes in the weather

To much diseases, I can't keep track
Made an enemy,you better watch out for your back
Will things get better for us, should we believe in fate?
Everyone wants to go to Heaven, through the Pearly gate

We believe in things, we don't know are true
Oh, you looked at me funny, I'm gonna sure
Taking all the money they got
Can't walk alone at night, you will get shot

Don't judge people by the color of their skin
And your going to hell, because your full of sin
Speak your mind, let people know
THIS IS THE END, TIME TO GO


WE LIVE IN A WORLD OF HATE
TIME FOR CHANGES
BEFORE ITS TO LATE

"Our World"
By Duncan RB McCulloch

In Your Eyes
By Duncan Ross Buckley McCulloch


Always missing you like crazy
looking around, eyes, getting hazy
on my mind, no matter where or when
I cant wait to see you again

In your eyes, I see my old world
Even though you hurt me, you were my girl
what i'd give to be with the old you
holding on to everything I knew

holding on to everything you say
living my shitty life, day by day
can't move on if theres no one there
find someone, then my heart could repair

Don't diss my rhymes cuz its all from the heart
Don't need to be black to be part of art
expression through music, is my thing
intense words, sometimes can sting

Do you think of me, like I think of you?
Do you still love me like you used to
feelings may dim, but feelings are always there
Life SUcks, Its never Fair

If we hurt the ones we love
Do we love the ones we hate?
Always have something on my mind
thinking bout something all the time

If you hurt inside you gotta let it out
put your emotions to music, don't just pout
letting things out is a way of healing
Don't need to be in a room with padded walls and ceiling

If only I had one wish
I'd wish to have never gone through this
I'm trying to carry on
It's hard when everything is gone

In your eyes I see my happy world
you really hurt me, you were my girl
what i'd give to hold the old you
thinking about everything I Knew

When you talk to me, I don't feel like dieing
Used to wanna die, or always be cryin'
My heart is scarred but im still here
I hit black ice, impossible to steer

songs can be intense or they can be like this
change rape or killing, to kiss or miss
no need to be angry all the time
you gotta get it off your mind, need to unwind

I hope this all(song) doesnt sound lame
who cares about money or fame
music is my way out
out of a world, full of doubt

If we hurt the ones we love
do we hurt the ones we hate?
In your eyes I see everything
Scarred heart is losing its sting

*In Your Eyes*

*In Your Eyes, I See Everything*