faithinmankind

(no title)

I’mmm back bitches

here is a quick photo unpdate oif all that has been going down in my life

this is what I look like now

this is my fiance :-p

Mary still remains

jesse is my best friend and boyfriend

Barrett (ex-boyfriend) not best friend

I’m starting an all girls hardcoire band and I am screaming :)

my best friend brittany, I love it cause she knows no one on the scene so nothing lame will tear us apart, it’s happened to me twice


I am still edge, for all of those who thought I wouldn’t be 4 or 5 months after <3<3<3 great to be back

BDB girrrrls I miss it so much!

Laurann, Lita, Bebo, Alex, and Michelle these are my girrrrrls, I <3 them
Thier first day of high school, and I wasn’t fucking there, I hate you north valleys!

NEW PICS

Let’s start the presentation with the classic eye shot
I love the pictures when my face is whiter than your eyes
mary left, Tori right, because we looks so much alike!
When I took this pic I was avoiding cleaning my room, haha, and wearing a formal dress :)
*hissss* look at how white I am! Dear jesus.
"Must have been hard to see through the tears she was hiding."
Branden and I, Do I go through guys? Or do they go through me?
This is my favorite picture as of nowCloooooooose up! word
and end it with another eye shot taken earlier in the year


jack off

Jack Be nimble
Jack be quick
Open the knife
Give it a flick

Slit those wrists
don’t be shy
Just one less time
you have to cry

Who will notice?
No one will
Can’t they see
you were born to kill?

Your funeral was
a lovely affair
The entire family
was even there

There was utter silence
you could hear a pin drop
Everyones confused
you were at the top

Everyone Loved you
Everyone cared
Interfer in your life?
No one dared

What kind of example
is that for you brother?
How Many meltdowns
can you cause your mother?

Your sisters alone
no ones there at night.
Do you think that’s okay?
Do you think that’s alright?

So ask yourself this
is it worth all thier pain.
Don’t give up now
there’s so much to gain

Life is a bitch
That ain’t a lie
your not alone, do
you really want to die?

for jason

I am 58% Metal Head

I rock just as hard as the rest of the thrash set, except when no ones looking I like to get down with a little "More than a Feeling."

Take the Metal Head Test at fuali.com

what I was going to send to someone....

Fuck kid, you are pissing me off! It’s nine o’ fucking clock and I am risking my neck so yuo can go see stupid fucking gothica. I really don’t even want to see it! I’m getting you in for free and you can’t even show up on fucking time! In your live journal, you said " there is too many people in reno who want to see me, and i am getting frustrated." I knew I would later regret it so I didn’t but, I was going to write a comment that said "I’ll make it one less person who wants to see you k?" I feel like that right now! It’s okay I can see where your priorities lay. Because I get to do shit so often, you have to stop at everybodys fucking work. My mom is being extremlly leniant! Heck of lenient! You are making such a shitty impression by having no punctuality! I am so angry right now! I can’t even express it... next time be a little more straight forward!!!!!!! Allen is angry at me because of you! Because I ditched one of my best friends so I couldn’t hang out with you, fuck that. If you want to talk pinch yourself and then call me. Bye

X ~*Tori*~ X

just acouple questions for my annonymus....

Did you do anything with her?
Do you like her?Am I being dumb?
What am I worth to you?
Do you still love me?
Do all good things really come to an end?
(It would hurt less if you wanted to end it now)
Why start when I know you’ll go away?
Are you ashamed? Embaraced?
Are you sure?
Have you even told anyone about me?
Would you call me your girlfriend in English?
Am I not "hardcore" enough?
Why do you only kiss me when no one is looking?
If they asked, would you tell your friends about me?
The age does bother you, huh?
Why am I so jealoud of everyone now?
How come now that we are together, I feel more ugly?
Why even get up in the morning?
Am I really everything you say?
I wish I could be more everything for you

I NEED SOME REASURRANCE, THAT I MEAN SOMETHING

mmmmmm





still makes me drool!

to Hayley, Mary, Paige, Ellyse, and my mom

Morning, Beautiful!


It is Beautiful Woman Month,

Facts on Figures : There are 3 billion women who don’t look like
super models and only eight who do.

Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14.

If Barbie was a real woman, she’d have to walk on all fours due to
her proportions.

The average woman weighs 144 lb. and wears between a 12-14.

One out of every four college aged women has an eating disorder.

The models in the magazines are airbrushed -- not perfect!

A psychological study in 1995 found that three minutes spent looking
at a fashion magazine caused 70% of women to feel depressed, guilty,
and shameful.

Models twenty years ago weighed 8% less than the average woman.
Today they weigh 23% less.

~Beauty of a Woman~
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman Is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With passing years -- only grows.



An English professor wrote the words, "Woman without her man is
nothing," on the blackboard and directed the students to punctuate
it correctly.
The men wrote: "Woman, without her man, is nothing."
The women wrote: "Woman! Without her, man is nothing."


~The Images of Mother~
4 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mommy can do anything!
8 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!
12 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mother doesn’t really know quite everything.
14 YEARS OF AGE ~ Naturally, Mother doesn’t know that, either.
16 YEARS OF AGE ~ Mother? She’s hopelessly old-fashioned.
18 YEARS OF AGE ~ That old woman? She’s way out of date!
25 YEARS OF AGE ~ Well, she might know a little bit about it.
35 YEARS OF AGE ~ Before we decide, let’s get Mom’s opinion.
45 YEARS OF AGE ~ Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?
65 YEARS OF AGE ~ Wish I could talk it over with Mom.

~Needs~
Due to the month you should tell 5 beautiful woman, why and how you appreciate them. Tell them thier phisical, mental, emotional, intelegent, and spirtual strengths. Tell them you love them and why.


Although beauty knows no gender, it is time to grace a certain type so, embrace it and show your love to those 5 beautiful woman.

(no title)

-- Name: Tori
-- Birth date: 07-31-89
-- Birthplace: Greenbare, Califfornia
-- Current Location: xRenox
-- Eye Color: blue.
-- Hair Color: sort of cross breed between egyptian plum and dark brown
-- Height: 5’9"
-- Righty or Lefty: right
-- Zodiac Sign: Leo

LAYER TWO:

-- Your heritage: german, french, irish, cherokee, and I just very recently learned, asian indian
-- The shoes you wore today: old ass black and white chucks
-- Your fears: Falling, saying the wrong thing, dying alone
-- Your perfect pizza: one with gum or mint after
--you’d like to achieve: college, marraige, kids, succesful band, Writing a book.

LAYER THREE:

-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: (sadistic laugh) muahaha
-- Your thoughts first waking up: I wish I were in someone else’s bed, or had someone next to me.
-- Your best physical feature: eyes? legs?
-- Your most missed memory: When my dad wasn’t complaining about his "broken" fucking heart and he was sincerly happy to see me...

LAYER FOUR:

-- Pepsi or Coke: diet coke
--McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds, for dippin’ dots
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Brisk
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Chai

LAYER FIVE:

-- Smoke: eww, grose
-- Sing: not well
-- Take a shower everyday: twice, I <3 showers
-- Have a crush(es): I will crush anyone who comes near my boy
-- Do you think you’ve been in love: I think that I am
-- Want to go to college: Heck of, west coast, cal poly core
--high school: NVHS
-- Want to get married: I do. HAHAAHAHA!!!!!(NO PUN INTENDED!)
-- Get motion sickness: nope
-- Think you’re attractive: not unfortunate but I feel beautiful with the help of some people (thanks)
--health freak: chips n’ dip forever
-- Get along with your parent(s): Yes, very well actually, (not dad as much latley) I love my mom and Steve but, they just love me so much they don’t like to "share"
--play an instrument: 2 and a half, guitar, bass, and 1/2 drums

LAYER SIX:

In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: fuck no
-- Smoked: fuck no
-- Done a drug: fuck no
--Had Sex: nope
-- Made Out: yes
-- Gone on a date: Yay! Dates! Can we go on one now?
-- Gone to the mall?: *shivers* a numerous ammount of times
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
-- Eaten sushi: eww, raw fish? might as will lick between toes
-- Been on stage: yes. introducing something for a class thingy it was weird.
-- been dumped: The month isn’t over yet, hopefully not
-- Gone skating: yes actually, Nate took me
-- Made homemade cookies: No, I wish
-- Gone skinny dipping: does the bath count?
-- Dyed your hair: yes
-- Stolen anything: probably.

LAYER SEVEN:

Have you Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yeah
-- If so, was it mixed company: yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: shit no
-- Been caught "doing something": havent we all?????
-- Been called a tease: yes, just out of spite
-- Gotten beaten up: me? haha, I laugh at the statment
-- Shoplifted: yes
Changed who you were to fit in: to a certain extent pssst...*whispers* I don’t really like the eyeliners


LAYER EIGHT:

-- Age you hope to be married: mid-late 20’s
Names of Children: Paige, Tyler, LuLu, Sadie, Liela, Yani, weird names....that’s not how many just some name ideas
How do you want to die: "I die every night your not here..." running and jumping off a huge ass cliff so I had one last form of bliss before passing, or in someones arm, with the same bliss complex
-- Where you want to go to college: Cal Poly, UCLA, SLO, USD, a southern california college.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: an English Teacher, writer, owner of venue, and part time piercer of tatoo"er", but first I want to have alot of odd jobs, such as; truck driver, SF airborn, intern, UPS, weird stuff I can write about or tell my grandkids about
--country would you most like to visit: France, India, Tibet....OH WAIT THAT’S NOT A CONTRY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!(damn chinese government)


LAYER NINE:

-- Best eye color: Green
-- hair color? black with a little blonde in front
-- Short or long hair: short
-- Height: about 6"
-- Best weight: skinny/buff
-- Best articles of clothing: Tight pants, and tight shirts, less is more
-- Best first date location: aberetum
-- Best first kiss location: by the culdisac outside his best friends car to only have your brother watching your grounded ass!!!!! :-p

LAYER TEN:

-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 1, *hits forehead* stupid stupid stupid
-- Number of CDs that I own: until my CD case got stolen roughly 100
-- Number of piercings: 2, 4 this weekend
-- Number of tattoos: none yet
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? 3, Mostly shit having to do with Erich or my dad raving about how great THEY are
-- scars on my body: to many to count, I am extremlly active, 8 on my hips alone.
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: As long as I turn out happy, none, it’s all experiances that make you less iggnorant in the end.

I hella got new undies!

all underoos REPRESENT

Only she can make me feel bad about being happy...

Since when am I a bad friend, huh?!? Since I got something to enhance my happiness?!? Well fucking excuse me, I don’t want to fight, I see no reason but you find something that makes me feel like I was the one who messed up, or it’s my fault. Or someone I knows fault. I’m not the one who made my mom not trust you... I’m not the one who stayed out 2 hours past my cerfew on a fucking weekday! Your mom’s the nazi? You abuse your privliges all the time and make me suffer by making my mom not trust you. I want to hang out with you, I really do, I have a blast andf I love you, but fucking. seriously, get all hot and bothered I didn’t mention your name on the fucking quiz thing!!! I’m such a horiblle friend, What else can I fucking do to displease you, ask barrett! I didn’t talk to him either. The last time I had a conversation on the phone was wednesday, with him, and I am not going to apologize for being happier than before, and never fucking again call me Hayley..... I love her to pieces but I will NOT have what happened between you and her happen between you and I!!! You love the drama, and make it, even when it’s non-exsistant. I can teel when something is reallt traumatic, you shut down, live in your own world and lock it away, when you are spastic and loud about your "toubles" you seem to just want attention. I love you forever but don’t make a fucking problem when it doesn’t exsist!!!!!!

X~*Tori*~X

(no title)

Have you ever...
{x} Fallen for your best friend? many times before
{x} Made out with JUST a friend? yesum
{x} Been rejected? not as much as I would liked to have been
{x} Been in love? but of course
{x} Been in lust? I’m me, of course
{x} Used someone? yess, sorry to them
{x} Been used? far to much :(
{x} Cheated on someone? ONce
{x} Been cheated on? almost positive
{x} Done something you regret? who hasen’t?

Who was the last person...
{x} You touched? myself
{x} You talked to? my uncle
{x} You hugged? mitchel my cousin
{x} You instant messaged? XBarrettX
{x} You yelled at? my mom (I need to stop that)
{x} You laughed with? Barrett
{x} Current Clothes: CBGB T-shirt, blue jeans, beanie
{x} Current Mood: confused
{x} Current Taste: tang, eww
{x} Current Hair: under a hat, shitty
{x} Current Annoyance: my cousin, mitchel
{x} Current Smell: Cat
{x} Current thing you ought to be doing: being with Barrett
{x} Current Desktop Picture: my uncles computer, blue
{x} Current Favorite Group: throwdown
{x} Current Book: A child called "it"
{x} Current DVD In Player: Amelie
{x} Current Refreshment: tang, eww
{x} Current Worry: will my mom let me see barrett ever again?
{x} Current Crush: your face
{x} Current Favorite Celebrity: um, sarah michelle gellar(buffY)?

Favorites
{x} Food:BLT.
{x} Drink: water
{x} Color: black and white together, grey?
{x} Shoes: worn out chucks
{x} Candy: skittles! (purple)
{x} TV Show: Buffy! or ANGEL!
{x} Movie: Amelie
{x} Dance: the humpty dance
{x} Vegetable: carrots
{x} Fruit: Necturines or strawberries

On Dating....
{x} Long or short hair? short
{x} Dark or blond hair? DARK!
(x) Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? Mr. Funny
{x} Tall or short? tall
(x) Hat or no hat? XdespoticX hats are hott! (on barrett)
{x} Dark or light eyes? light
{x} Good girl or bad girl? Uhh, Mike (hehe I liked Hayleys answer :-p)
{x} Pierced or no? PIERCED, PIERCED, AND PIERCED!
{x} Freckles or none? none
{x} Stubble or neatly shaved? where?

Random..
{x} Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? hot chocolate!
{x} McDonalds or Burger King? McDondalds (dippin’ dots)
{x} Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? perfect friend always room for improvment (if needed)
{x} Sweet or sour? sweet
{x} Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? root beer
{x} Sappy/action/comedy/horror? coming of age
{x} Cats or dogs? cats
{x} Ocean or Pool? Ocean
{x} Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? cool ranch
{x} Mud or Jell-O wrestling? you can wrestle in jello? those crazy italians!
{x} With or without ice-cubes? With
{x} Shine or rain? Rain
{x} Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? Autums, heck of
{x} Vanilla or Chocolate? Vanilla
{x} Gloves or mittens? Mittens are cuter!
{x} Eyes open or closed? dazed
{x} Fly or breathe under water? breathe under water
{x} Bunk-bed or waterbed? bunk!
{x} Chewing gum or hard candy? hard candy
{x} Motor boat or sailboat? sail
{x} Lights on or off? off
{x} Chicken or fish? chicken, fish=tuna

What’s your favorite:.
{x} Number? 7
{x} Holiday? Halloween
{x} Radio station? 100.9, 92.9, 103.7, 104.5, 96.5, 103.1 ect.
{x} Place? under the UNR Volleyball gym mauhaha
{x} Flower? plumeria
{x} Scent? lilacs
{x} If you could be anywhere, where would you be? waking up in someones arms (who could that be?)
{x} What would you be doing? kissing
{x} What are you listening to? my best friends wedding soundstrack
{x} Can you do anything freakish with your body? my shoulder is double jointed and I am extremlly flexible
{x} Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? Et, my kitty m/ represent!

Is it over already?

...

So Happy

We have a song!!!

Why do your eyes paralyze me
what makes me feel this way
Just carry me away with silence and heartbeats
As rapid thinking about your embrace
and how it makes me feel
I just want to feel this way forever
Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you
Why have i been given the chance to fly
Why I’m not with you i feel lesser alone
I remember your face/ imprinted on angels
Your voice as beautiful/as the sounds of waves
crashing against my heart
Time slows down when you look at me
I’m infatuated with this/infatuated with you
It’s so hard for me to understand why
I hadn’t found you before don’t dull away
hold my hand.

~Poison the well

Well actually it’s more of his song to me, we haven’t found a mutual song yet and I haven’t found one that can express my feelings for him. Oh whoa, I’m happy!!! LIPS RINGS ROCK! Sooooooooo Happy!

...

Faith knows no gender nor favor

Regardless of all of my own and other peoples shit, I&rsquo;m so happy...


ninjasrockalot: Este chica es la que te amo. Ella es muy bonita y perfecta en todas las maneras. Queiro visitar con siga mucha, como todas las dias de la semana. Besos y abrazos mi novia.

XshowgumX: This is the girl that I love. She’s way pretty and perfect in every way. I want to visit her with (siga?) a lot, like evry day of the week.
XshowgumX: AAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
XshowgumX: And the last part,
XshowgumX: besos y abrazos mi novia?

ninjasrockalot: uh huh
XshowgumX: Kisses and hugs my girlfriend.
ninjasrockalot: *gasp* OMFG that is the sweetest thing ever. He publicized it, it’s offical I’m so happy. :-)
By the way xShowgumX is Mary, my best bud
who was translating for me.

Am I?

Am I pretty
Am I fake?
Does Heaven exists
What can I make?

Do I stutter?
Do I slouch?
Do I deserve life, or to
To die on her couch?

Am I too dirty?
Am I to clean?
Am I too nice?
Am I too mean?

Am I to thin?
Am I to tall?
Am I a geek?
Are my boobs to small?

Am I too stupid?
Am I too smart?
Am I to cold?
Do I have a big heart?

Do I think too much?
Or not enough?
Am I to frail?
Or am I too tough?

Am I the one?
Do you like me a lot?
Am I a person?
Or am I just hot?

I

Grounded:(

OKay so, I am not allowed online because I am grounded. HOPEFULLY I CAN GO TO THE HALLOWEEN SHOW AND SEE THE FUSE AND bARRETT, but dang I just kinda fucked up, hah, it was so stupid, Marys mom didn’t wast to give me a ride home, which is cool, so I solve the problem and tell barrett and Jamie to give me a ride home, Mary and her mom get in this huge fight. Which makes mary’s mom suspisious and fucking call my mom and say "Tori is in a car with people who I don’t know." NOT A GOOD IDEA, MY MOTHER IS A NEO-NAZI! It was just a ride home, simple and innocent no one had to know, I just didn’t want my mom angry at me, and now, shit, *sigh* I’m not sure if I can do anything for halloween! I am so sad but, maybe I can pull the "it only comes once a year." "I’m doing well in school." "it was a one time thing." "the ark-aik is closing soon." "I haven’t seen the savior fuse in 2 weeks!" I am pissed ah cest la vie, I really like this barrett kid

IT*HAS*BEGUN

MIKE, JASON, HAYLEY, RYAN, AND TORI, WATCH OUT RENO, NEXT GENERATION OF HARDCORE HAS BEGUN!!! LET’S DO THIS SHIT

what*makes*me*come*alive*

I think I have decided for something to work twards, I wan’t to be a writer, not of poetry, I am not that good, but I want people to loose themselves in my perspective of the world, I wan’t to give people insite, I want to make them think, and I wan’t to describe what it’s like in mind. Some one once wrote

"Don’t ask what the worlds needs to come
alive ask what YOU need to come alive,
then do that, because what the world
NEEDS is people who have come alive."

I’m am going to try to live by that, it makes alot of sence to me, anyway, thank you for everyone who will support me in doing this.

PEARL*JAM*last*kiss

Oh where oh were can my baby be?
The lord took her away from me
she’s gone to heaven so I’ve got to be good
so I can see my baby when I leave this world

we were out on a date in my daddy’s car
we haven’t driven very far, there in the road
straight ahead, a car was stalling the engine was dead
I couldn’t stop so I swerved to the right
I’ll never forget the sound that night, the screaming
tires, the busting glass the painful scream that I heard last

Oh where oh were can my baby be?
The lord took her away from me
she’s gone to heaven so I’ve got to be good
so I can see my baby when I leave this world

When I woke up the rain was pouring down, there
were people standing all around, something warm pouring
down my eyes, but somehow I found my baby that night
I looked at her head she looked at me and said
"hold me darling just a little while." I held her close I kissed
her our last kiss, I found the love I knew I had missed
NOw she’s gone even though I hold her tight, I lost my love,
my life, that night

Oh where oh were can my baby be?
The lord took her away from me
she’s gone to heaven so I’ve got to be good
so I can see my baby when I leave this world







7, it&rsquo;s a magic number

Seven things you love:
1) Breakdowns
2) eyeliner
3) reading
4) skittles and mountain dew
5) cuddling
6) making out
7) Shows

Seven things you hate:
1) NORTH VALLEYS!!!!!!!
2) people who don’t fallow through
3) People who use you
4) rude people
5) my hair
6) people who are not thankful for all you have done for them
7) Allen

Seven things in your room:
1) DAVID BOWIE!!!!!!!!!!(poster)
2) My computer
3) my goegia o’keefe calander
4) band aids
5) my instruments
6) stereo
7) my instruments

Seven things to do before death:
1) screw a rock star
2) marry a rock star
3) raise a rockstar
4) become a rock star
5) drink a rockstar (tm)
6) rock the stars
7) kick a rock stars ass and take his money
8) die a rockstar m/

Seven things you can do:
1) dance
2) play guitar
3) dress
4) foreplay
5) make friends
6) loose friends
7) rock your fucking socks off!

Seven things you can’t do:
1) fly:(
2) sing
3) care what people think
4) insult someone
5) not care about people
6) get my lip pierced
7) play my instruments very well

Top seven things you say most:
1) hella
2) like
3) dude
5) tedious
6) *sigh*
7) rock

haha*so*not*true

I hate you so bad
you are the "I hate you so bad" happy
bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your
not ashamed of it.


which happy bunny are you?
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dedication

The Simple Truth Even though I’m always gone It doesn’t mean I’m not thinking of you all the time When life is getting rough I imagine us sharing our whole lives We could run away Leave behind anything paper Not knowing where we’re going to stay There’s no Monday You’re part of me, it’s so easy to see the simple truth When I’m in your arms, I feel safe from harm and sorrow too You’re part of me, it’s so easy to see the simple truth But most of all, nothing couldn’t be solved when I’m with you The memory of your smile Pierces through the dark when I go to bed alone I remember your open arms waiting for me to come home Let’s create our own world Made of trust, simple and honest I’ll sing a song you’ve never ever heard No one else can hear

*the*skies*fall*

This is one of the be3st bands I have heard in a loing ass time, melo beware for those of you who don’t like screaming I advise you to stay away! MAY I INTRODUCE THE SKIES FALL! M/


GO TO THIER SITE AND LISTEN TO THEM! YOU WILL NOT NOT NOT BE DISAPOINTED!

www.theskiesfall.com

*when*I*think*of*you*


I get cold,
when I think
of what we could have
BEEN

fuck yes!!!

You are Ludo - You’re very tall, very hairy and you don’t know your own strength but you’re really sweet with it! You’re at one with nature and will do anything for your friends.
You are Ludo - You’re very tall, very hairy and you
don’t know your own strength but you’re really
sweet with it! You’re at one with nature and
will do anything for your friends.


"Which ’Labyrinth’ Character are you?"
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hot ass hot

this is the most beautiful woman ever, she rocks, so hard! This is Agent M of tsunami bomb *drools*

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