ive got loads of burden..
dont like it...
its always all about the money...
i completely hate it!!!

it's overtime time!!!
kinda wird hearing those words...
i had a blast weekend...
yet, i think am gonna have a rough week...
what will happen to me?
btw,
me and the bf talked about marriage...
i think i wanna marry him...

It's one those days ...
I hate things that happen to me yesterday...
I have this Shitty problem with a cellphone Seller...
I was suppose to have a handsfree and a 1gb mmc yesterday that he promised me a day before...
It was easy for him to say that I couldn't get the handSfree because he didn't Say so the day before...
He said he only promised the mmc which I couldn't get because Someone took it & hasn't returned It...
and when I asked him when will the mmc be returned...
He only Shook his head and Says that he doesn't know without even looking at me...
I tried to contact my bf but he was out of reach...
He didn't pick up...
It turned out that he went to '' Puncak'' without telling me...
What the hell was that?
If I did that to him, there's no question that he'll be mad at me...
what the fuck?!!!!!
(to be continued )

am feeling a bit lousy...
a bit upset...
i wanna yell at people...
at this point, i really dont wanna talk to my bf...
dont wanna talk to anyone...
seriously...
but can i bare it???

ive got a hectic day...
am proctoring tests from 8AM to 4.30PM...
GOSH...
i'll be a proctor tomorrow too...

after being mia for such a very long time, i finally got here...
my mum is finally better now...
ive finally received my salary (still need an assasin for free to kill my boss)
i finally hit it with my bf
the neighbourhood around my second home are finally torned down... (new second home is badly needed)
my fellow housemates finally get a new home for them (i am extremely excluded cos am the only gal)
and so i finally wept

mY mum iS Sick :(
SHe doeSNT waNNa eaT coS SHe aLwaYS THRow iT uP...
SHe doeSNT waNNa See a docToR...
buT i maNaGe To GeT a docToR To See HeR...
SHe'S baReLY abLe To waLk...
SHe caNT eveN cHaNGe bY HeRSeLf...
aNd i kNow How mucH SHe HaTeS beiNG So HeLPLeSS...
mommY...

THe eNTRY of Him beiNG SweeT To me waS oNLY Like fouR To five daYS aGo. YeT, we fouGHT SiNce THuRSdaY NiTe aNd am NoT SuRe THaT we wiLL RecoNciLe. i TexTed Him LaST NiTe wiTH aLmoST 21 PaGeS of woRdS. He uSuaLLY wouLd caLL, buT No woRdS fRom Him TiLL 8:13 THiS moRNiNG. So, i GueSS... No RecoNciLiaTioN? bReakiNG uP? weLL, iT'S SomeTHiNG i wouLd Have To live wiTH. i Need To go ouT!!!

i feeL TeRRibLe...
am feeLiNG HomeSick, aT THe momeNT...
i waNNa Go Home...
i feeL So emPTY iNSide...
eveRSiNce i Have a New bf, i feeL Like mY fReNS aRe TakiNG diSTaNce...
wHeN i caLLed him LaST NiGHT, i waS cRYiNG...
i feLT Like am beiNG aLoNe, aLL of THe SuddeN...
i waNNa go Home...
i waNNa See mum...
i waNNa SLeeP oN mY bed...
i ReaLLY² waNNa Go Home...
i ToLd Him THat...
THeN, He came To "koSTan" To caLm me dowN...
He SaT THeRe, waiTiNG foR me To SHuT mY eYeS and SToP cRYiNG...
THeN, i feLL aSLeeP wiTH Him HuGGiNG me So TiGHT...
aS if SHowiNG me THaT He woNT LeT me Go...
i fiNaLLY Have To admiT THaT



i Love Him

me SiNGiNG mY HeaRT ouT aNd THe cuTe GuiTaRiSt



So, Some of mY office fReNs PuT mY Name iN a SiNGiNG comPeTiTioN...

i waS cHoSeN To SiNG -- caN'T Take mY eYeS off of You

wiTH Live baNd ouTdooR...

iN fRoNT of aLoT of PeoPLe...

PLuS, THe PaRTiciPaNTS weRe judGed bY THRee judGes...

i feLT Like aN ameRicaN idoL PaRTiciPaNT...

oH, boY... weReN'T THeY HaRSH...

i didN'T GeT 1ST oR 2Nd oR 3Rd PRize...

coS i oNLY maNaGed To PuT mYSeLf iN THe ToP TeN...

i oNLY Received a comPLimeNTaRy PRize...

buT, iT waS iNvaLuabLe exPeRieNce...

me SiNGiNG iN PubLic wiTH a baNd...

oH, boY!!! THe GuiTaRiST iS Soooo cuTe....

So THe V aRea kiNda SoRe...

THaNkS To mY STuPid acTioN of BeiNG eViL...

mY BoYfRieNd WaS Like Sooo woRRied...

He'S Like caLLiNG me oVeR aNd oVer...

i didNt waNNa Pick uP coS i THiNk i Need mY SPace...

wHeN i fiNaLLY Pick uP...

He ScoLded me coS He'S woRRY Sick...

i duNNo How i feeL RiTe Now...

i Need To TaLk To SomeoNe on THe V maTTeR...

:d/ yey...
it's a long weekend...
and i had a blast cleaning up my rum and our "kostan"...
i just hope that when i return tonight, it'll still be clean...
and i think my left neighbor will have another blast tonite...
fucking her boyfren who happens to be the ex of her roommate...
LOL...
i just wish that they can be discreet about it...
If they wont, i swear i'll put a CCTV camera somewhere in her room...
and then, broadcast it to the whole house...
am sure the guys will be happy...

we made out...
we fought...
im ill...
i dunno whats happening to me now...
ive fever...
unstable body temperature...
hard to swallow anything...
red rashes on my upper part of the body...
headaches...
two bumps on the left and right of my neck...
two bumps on the left part of my head...
what the fuck is going on?

my nu boyfren and i have ups and downs ever since we dated...
we always fought in the first week...
i even want to break it off...
am so tired of fighting...
however, i gave him a second chance...
we never had a big fight since...
however, this morning we had one...
for something as simple as my soft voice that he cudnt hear me...
it's so lame...
starting a day with something as FUCK as that...
i dont feel like working today...
i feel like singing in a karaoke club or something...
ive got a headache now...
let's go shopping or something...

I ALWAYS TAKE PICTURES WHENEVER AM DOWN...