...that I can be up and down without much to do with what's going on around me. I had a good day and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry for hours. I need to go to sleep and I'm scared to turn out the lights because it just makes it worse when I stop everything to try and sleep. How do you turn your brain off? How can you ignore everything that's going on inside your head long enough to fall asleep? I can't seem to do it. Don't think I've EVER been able to do it. I wind up not sleeping and getting physically sick or taking sleeping pills that knock me out regardless. And still I feel so tired and exhausted all the time.