frenchfishey85
"I can stop whenever I want."
Bullshit. I need me my Marlboro Reds. Tomorrow, I'm attempting to go the day without. Meh. I'm going to die.
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I wish I was a guido.
Instead of studying for finals, I'm watching Jersey Shore. I'm cooool.
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1:28am: I love u so muhc dude ir almaxing I oboe u.
Someone needs to stop texting while drunk. xD
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Long story short.
Maybe I'll start posting here again. Less speculation, more life. What's real is all that matters, the rest just gets you down.
Last night I was driving with Jess, Bo, Jeremy, Itzel, and Jon, we pull over and a cop car pulls up behind us with its lights on. Apparently he was undercover at the mall and thought he saw a drug deal. Somehow we talk him out of searching our car and drive off with weed and a piece on us plus a huge bong in the backseat. Fucking insane, we thought we were going to be arrested for sure and Bo and Jeremy are over 18 so they would have been screwed. I also ended up with about $25 worth of free weed. Jon was freaking out about his parents and just gave it to me, he doesn't even want it back. I feel kinda bad about it though, I'll probably end up giving it back to him. Despite everything though, it was a pretty great night.
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So, what now? We pretend like nothing ever happened?
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The sense of loss is overwhelming.
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Dramatic pause turns to awkward silence.
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I hope that one day we'll reconnect.
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I love you.
It was an illusion, it was all an illusion.
A lie.
Make believe.
There until something better came along.
And here it is, that something better.
The dream is shattered.
But in the end, it doesn't really matter.
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Do you have any friends left?
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I don't miss you; I don't want to see you, to talk to you again
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I haven't noticed the days gone by.
His broken heart
My new scars
Her dried tears
Their angry words
If only I could focus, this blur might seem real
I might not feel as though I'm floating through a nightmare
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I was on the verge of tears all day.
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I don't know what I'm saying anymore
I don't know what I want
I don't even know who I like, what I like
One minute I have clear cut feelings
The next my mind does a 180
I can't make this out
I can't comprehend
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You don't know my heart, but you've learned my body.
You know how to make me uncomfortable but at home.
You know how to make me self-conscious but ready for anything.
You know how to make me feel unwanted but irresistibly desired.
You know how to make me feel powerless but in complete control.
You've learned what I want and how to give it to me moments before I lose hope.
You've learned what my limits are and just how far I'll let you push them.
You've learned when to pull away just as I've begun to get comfortable.
You've learned when I've had enough but have not yet been satisfied.
My head has been filled with thoughts of you, my heart, I'm sure, will soon follow.
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I wanted to talk to you, to see how you were.
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I wish it were me.
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Let the ocean sweep you away.
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Out of my life before you have a chance to blink
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A slow slaughter of minutes
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One person shouldn't be able to feel so much,
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hahaha it happens dude. You will be done when you are ready and only when you are ready.
Ha, I'm sure I'm going to smoke again tomorrow. I feel like such a bitch after today, it suucks..
LOL yah the littlest things will get to you because you feel so on edge in the beginning. I actually threw tantrums and cried on the floor twice during my quitting first few weeks. ;X LOLLLLLLLLLL
God. That's how I was today. It was horrible. People just talk too damn much. xD
I quit smoking a few yrs ago and it was really tough. I feel your pain!!! I wanted to shoot people for awhile LOL.
hi. just wondering. where are you from? and which one are you in your display pic?
My last name is Guido, I hate how much I love that show.
From how it was explained to me from a girl I took a class in college with (she's from Long Island) you do not want to be one of those.
But then again who wouldn't want to be self absorbed and complete oblivious to everything?!
Definitely know how you feel there.
On a random note:
Bonjour, je m'ppelle Joey. Voulez vous du the vert?
Bonne nuit.
:)
i wish i were a guido too, or to punch one
hehe that was funny i looked it up online
I don't blame you. It's a trainwreck- can't keep your eyes off of it =]
Aw, you're sweet. And I don't mind, I need a reality check every once and a while anyways. I'm careful though, just close enough to the edge to feel the rush, never a step over it.
<3 :)
You've got a lot to offer the world, I'd hate for that to happen.
Sorry, I'm such a worry wart.
Naw man, I don't let people drive me around if they're fucked up. If I'm going to die young, it's not going to be because some idiot can't handle his high, ya know? I'm more careful than that, don't you worry.
I miss your posts Ariane.
Were any of the drivers high?
When I arrived home I got a mail-out from my old high school. I learned that someone in my year level (class '08) died in September 2009 (details were vague but they said it was a car accident). I was shocked.. Couldn't believe that they were just 19 too. Towards the end of year 12 we used to joke about what people "would be" at the 5 and 10 year reunion. I remember there were also jokes about who was the most likely person to die.. - "so and so will..he's such a motor head". I don't think we ever thought this would happen to him or his sisters and family.
ARIANE!
So sorry! I haven't checked back here in a long time. The second part of this year is flying... I can't believe it.
How've you been?
Can you guess what I'm doing? *tea*
I'll try to be on aim.
If this is me, I wish you'd talk to me about it.
If this is me, I wish you'd talk to me about it.
If this is me, I wish you'd talk to me about it.
frenchfishey85
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