iwanandisco

SAMUEL JAMES SHIMKUS 03/15/90 to 01/28/10

Submitted by iwanandisco on Fri.02.26.10 10:13pm

Tags: Death, funeral, hiking, love, obituary, samuel james shimkus

i miss my cousin very much.
it's been almost a month now,
and i know it sounds crazy
but nothing has been going right since.
literally.

my cars broken down.
my laptop also broke down.
i've been unbelievably depressed.
and i almost lost my job, because i just can't concentrate.

i've been to a dozen funerals.
i've lost more than a dozen people in my lifetime.
but i can't stand this one.

and i want my cousin back.

he was a good person.
he was doing amazing things with his life
with the promise of doing even more so.

please read about him.
please don't take his death in vain.
and remember not to party so hard.
because one party night could be your last.

i love you sam.
and i'll always miss you.

http://www.ocregister.com/articles/sam-232370-school-san.html

http://www.oc-hiking.com/Sam_Shimkus_Memorial_Cabin/

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ROMMEL NEEDS TO SHUT HIS FACE

Submitted by iwanandisco on Sun.01.10.10 8:48pm

You'd think it'd be quite a feat to be drunk this early in the night.

But no, it's a typical night with my roomate and friends.
In our own little partymansion.

And now, it's time for some drunken monopoly.

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LET'S HAVE HOPE IN THE LIGHT

Submitted by iwanandisco on Tue.01.05.10 7:32pm

Sometimes I'm amazed at myself.
No, amazed isn't the right word.
Surprised.
Sometimes I'm surprised at myself.

I'm usually this shy tiny thing in the back of the room
The red haired girl that doesn't speak at party's until spoken to.
That doesn't offer her opinion loudly until asked for it.
That will never EVER make the first move.

But then there's times when I really want something.
I really need something.
Like a second job
And I can pull out so much bravado out of my ass its ridiculous.

I guess I'm just how much determination I have.
And how much tenacity I can muster up.

And I guess I'm just proud of myself.
and I thought I should share this.

I am now employed, twice.
And it feels good to resolve my new years resolution.
Something that rarely ever happens or works out.

Guess I'll be all saved up for europe in no time.
So look out europeans, michelle's a comin' to visit.

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EVERYONE CHOSES SIDES

Submitted by iwanandisco on Tue.01.05.10 12:19am

I consider myself very open minded
Especially very open minded musically

But I can't remind myself enough
At how much I can not stand techno.

It's so fucking repetitive it makes me nauceous.
And I don't think I spelled that word right
But that's just how sick it makes me

And half the time,
They just steal another song and mix it

If it's going to be annoying
And least make it original.

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IT'S QUITE SIMPLE REALLY, FUCK YOU.

Submitted by iwanandisco on Thu.12.31.09 1:38am

Maybe I'll always think of him this time of year
Because I met him in Bens garage
At a shitty eve of new years eve party
And then four of us got high and wasted in a shitty travel lodge

Or maybe I was thinking of him
Because he was my first real relationship
And I just ending a fling that was headed nowhere

Or maybe he was just really the one that got away.
Or because I hope he thinks I'm the one that got away

All I know is I hope I never have to see his shallow cheating face again.

Thanks for the complex asshole.

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DINOSAUR

Submitted by iwanandisco on Thu.12.10.09 10:37pm

Three hour tattoo session.
And I'm feeling a bit sore.

And dinosaur just had to jump right on the damn thing.

Ouuchh..

Another three hour session. As soon as I can afford it.

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SAKURA

Submitted by iwanandisco on Tue.12.08.09 10:13pm

i'm sitting at my work not working.
and using some internet for a change.

i've got to wait here for my sister to finally get down here
and off to home i go.

so events this week.

i've got my grandpas funeral tomorrow.
i never really knew his, so it feels completely awkward
not to mention having to see my mother.
whom i've seen twice in 16 years.
definitely going to be a strange day.
but i'll have my nieces and nephews there to distract me from everything.

thursday night kick back as usual.

and just working the rest of the week for me.

i am going to get my tattoo thursday too.

and i need to get it.
i need it to start the new year off right
to remind me i am who i am
and i'm going wherever i'm going
and that just fine.

and it's just that feeling i have that things won't be right with me
mentally or spiritually or whatever else-lly.
until i get it.
especially with my mom coming back around suddenly
and whatever it is i'm doing with this boy
there's just been so much unresolved issues popping up around me
and i can't think of any other way to handle it

i feel like it will make me a whole again.

i'm getting a sakura tree from my front hip
around my side
up my back
and down my arm a bit

to me it represents mortality
that life doesn't last forever
but we can at least make it as beautiful as we possibly can
and that every year brings changes
but that doesn't have to change you
you can still be that same beautiful tree no matter what

it's going to look gorgeous.
and thank you diego for such a great deal on it.
it's made my year

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RAINY DAY LUNCHES

Submitted by iwanandisco on Mon.12.07.09 2:36pm

Are simply the best.

I am about to sit down and enjoy me an ice cold peach tea and some leftover shrimp and chicken pasta.

Delicious.

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DAISY

Submitted by iwanandisco on Sun.12.06.09 10:05pm

I've been stuck on Brand New's cd Daisy
For about a week now

And it's just not getting old.

I've got nothing but work and family events going on this week.
Tomorrow being my only day off for myself.

And I'm staying home,
And not answering any
Calls, texts, or emails of the like.

I want that day for myself.
I want this week for myself.

To stop and smell the roses.
To figure out what it is I really want with that boy.
What it is I really want in boys in general.
Or if I even want them anymore, at least for a long while.

I've got my life together,
I guess I just need someone who can say
Or at least feel the same.

I need someone that can honestly tell me
That they are exactly where they want to be in their life
Even if they've got a million plans and things they want to accomplish
Just tell me you know what you doing
You know where you are
And you know where you want to go

And if things don't happen the way expected
I need someone that can accept that that's how life is
And continue to their goals through the unplanned route
And not think that it's any big deal, just how things go.

I might be searching awhile.
But hell I'm only 21
And I've got a lot of time and liquor stores
I'll find that someone eventually.

On a plus note, I've got 250 dollars saved.
50 more and I'm getting my tattoo, FINALLY
I'm hoping I'll have it before christmas and my birthday,
That way I can start the new year fresh and renewed.

And it gives me a full year to save for my trip to europe.

Oh, I'm all smiles.

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I MAY NOT

Submitted by iwanandisco on Thu.12.03.09 9:46pm

Be your girlfriend
And I may not ever want to be

I might just be your bedmate for all intensive purposes

But at least greet me when I walk through the goddamn door

Asshole.

See if you get any tonight.

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22 IS BETTER ANYWAYS

Submitted by iwanandisco on Wed.12.02.09 8:59pm

21 was all about
Drinking too many
Smoking too fast
And spending too much

22 is all about outdoing 21.

It's still 3 weeks away,
But birthday here I come.

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Intro

Submitted by iwanandisco on Sun.04.29.07 7:24pm

My name is Michelle⁸⁶²

This is a story about love, death, driving, mythology, sickness, wellness, narcissism, America, having sex, not having sex, the ill-advised glamorization of recreational drug use, eating bread sticks at Olive Garden, work, friends, religion (or lack thereof), movies you have and haven't seen, Brian Jonestown Massacre, the underground hip hop generation, other defining music of this century, and -- to a lesser extent -- prehistoric dinosaurs.
If these are not things that intrest you, please don't read my journal.

and my family celebrates halloween june 1st, what of it?