Talked to a lady the other day who wanted to buy an iMac because she was done with PC's. Wrote everything up she wanted and she asked for the most powerful floor model we had. Sure, alright, not really going to argue with you on the fact you don't need it more than I have already mentioned.
Then she has me talk to her "tech guy" on the phone. I explain the specs to him and hand the phone back.
"He told me it wasn't powerful enough."
Are you fucking kidding me? an i5 with 3.9 clock speed and 8gb upgradable RAM (AND upgraded NVIDIA graphics card) isn't enough to run bootcamp and PeachTree, a low tech tax software program? Fine. Go pop $3-4k at the Apple store on an i7 and 32gb RAM.
Here is the truth of the matter: Your tech savvy "friend" doesn't really know shit about computers. When you come in and ask me to be honest and get you what you need, I will. I also wont charge you for my 'expertise.' Its like paying for a personal trainer when you have access to one free with your gym membership to someone more qualified and friendlier. Just don't waste my time if you're that stupid.
I have a six song EP recorded for my band that is technically now in a rebuilding stage. Brandon shipped for the Marine Corps and we had everything set to go, then Andy found out his Father in law had his cancer return. We replaced our drummer but again, I am left to record new material.
The project has taken on a new face of its own and they want a new name and set of songs. I don't blame them.
My dilemma has become this. I am considering releasing this EP still but even if it did gain any sort of attention, it'd be irrelevant. I just got the mixed & mastered copy at the beginning of the month. Part of me wants to throw up a kickstart, print a few shirts, and allow people who attended a few of the gigs we opened to purchase the copies. The other half of me feels selfish for even wanting that. I don't want to put a damper on the new project that could be.
Other than that, you don't want a personal update. I am a hurricane.
Coming to grips with my current reality.
Nothing has stopped me from being happy since I was able to visit home and attend a few good shows.
New job is going amazing. Training out of town all next week. Couldn't be more stoked.
For the record: I am single as fuck. I hate that I even have to state this but it makes me happy. I don't want to deal with anything extra right now. I am happy the way things are and I don't need to complicate that, at least for a short time now, with any complex situation.
But time has betrayed us both.
No song can capture this moment,
No melody can encapsulate or replicate the thoughts.
New job is working me to the bone. If I haven't responded to you, its not for lack of trying. I have been sick during this new job, training like crazy, and handling other life affairs. I have been to one band practice, for my own band, in two weeks and only was able to stay for an hour.
Things will clear up this weekend. I am starting to feel better. Patience, please.
I am at a loss for words. Things have been too confusing for me. My grandmother passed. Another incident happened the same night which I don't yet want to share.
I am a mess of my emotions. I hope to feel grounded when I start a new job on Friday.
People seem to come and go from your life without a formal hello or goodbye anymore. The time you invest in them is swallowed up and taken away. I am left to wonder if they think on me the same way I think on them, or if I am the only one left in this world with a real heart. They mean so much to you, for so many years, and you go your separate ways. I get that this is part of growing up. I just don't understand why loyalty doesn't exist. It is not like these bridges have been burned, they just seem to go unused anymore.
A decade drifting, a decade sifting through this ill life that you bring,
My own words are gospel ‘cos who else can I believe in.
I'm sleeping alone tonight, I'll be fine on my own tonight,
I've found my own way home for years all alone.
Just so you know I'm sleeping alone tonight, I'll sleep alone tomorrow,
But not forever. (Fuck you).
But I'm a ghost, a ghost that mixes with the most.
Don't invest stock in my love life. Its honestly a roller coaster. At least for now.
Pulled the plug on the Kristin thing then went out on a date last night with a girl from Embry Riddle. She's an aerospace engineer who loves hockey as much as I do but has all the feminine qualities a guy would want.
My heart is just honestly non-existent right now. No idea when it's going to show back up. The only one I will even open up to right now about it is what, 1,000 miles away in California?
Prep continues tonight for the Terror show. Rallying the band together and recording some scratch of the new material. Heavier than I expected but that's fine, cause I seem to be filled with angst these days.
It's safe to say that I'm not into it.
But in the picture, you are not
Someone else is in your spot.
This is the result of people moving on.
Good luck with killing time,
You won't be killing mine.
I'll do my best to always be on your mind.
Finally feeling a bit back to form today. It was a nightmare, to say the least, how I felt this past week. I was an absolute train wreck.
Now that I have energy back, I am chompin' at the bit to get back out there this weekend. I have been caged up for far too long.
If I should begin writing on this new chapter of my life. Things are still shakey. Going through a roller coaster of emotions in a good way. Finally on the ups. But, waiting to make sure things are finally on the ups before I begin going in depths on my life again.
Still on track to record the demo, by the way. Working hard week in and week out. Just miced the drums up last weekend in the studio and are ready to lay down the tracks. This next weekend will mark the final sound checks and beginning of recording.
"We are not meant to contain the sadness of this world" I whispered in her ear and drew her close."Real Name:
Nov 28 1987
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