"Each organism raises its head over a field or corpses, smiles into the sun, and declares life good." - Earnest Becker, Escape from Evil 1975

I have never had so many comments on a costume that I've worn! People were running up to me screaming "GINNY WEASLEY!!!!" Got kissed by a girl at a place I was hanging out at. She proceeded to text her friend to say that she kissed Ginny Weasley. Also met a little boy dressed as Harry Potter. He seemed so excited to finally meet someone who was playing as Ginny. :) Overall, this was a great Halloween! My man made me my wand; it is made of cherry wood.

Why I left. :)
I had been going through a time in which I didn't need to write out my feelings.
I was pretty damn happy and didn't need a journal anymore.
Well, now I'm back to needing to vent and I know you guys read it.

I am no longer engaged to Matthew.
I haven't been since the 9th of October.
However, he and I are still somewhat together, if you can follow me.
I am still staying the night at his house...
Yes, he got a house right after leaving me.
His parents paid for it out of pocket.
Before he broke up with me, we had been house hunting together.
So now I have an apartment to myself, but I haven't stayed one night in it since he found a house. haha
I still love him to bits and he says he still loves me, but it's time for us to really explore together.
No more talk of marriage, no more engagement, just dating and fun for all. :)
And I think I'm liking it better this way.
I know I am a LOT happier now.
I am finally the old me again.
I can smile and mean it, laugh and mean it....
And my heart feels a ton lighter.
So, all in all, this is for the best.
It's giving me time to find myself----really really search.

Nikkii's back. :D