looking into your eyes,
I am falling fast,
the places pass
and I am lying in your arms again
I dream of you every night
pulling me close
just another dose
of you
like an addiction
to my drug starved body
I pull you in
I breathe you in
I cant get enough
of the touch of your skin
I smell your scent
and it makes me
fall deeper still

" Your the light to my darkness, without each other, we would cease to exist. "

Never were truer words spoken to me and reinterated in my heart over and over.
I have spent my whole life running, never facing my problems or seeing that the grass isn't always greener on the other side. I have ran away so much that I am living on the fringe of society with nothing. I still have hope and I still pray. If I wasn't such a flake or I could be just a bit determined I could do great things. I have always believed that.

It wasn't until the day you told me you still loved me when I realized, what am I doing with my life? Back then, we were young and naive. I say naive because no matter how much I loved you or you loved me, we both ended up hurt. I knew we weren't ready for this love so I let it go. Yet, here you stand before me, willing to forgive me and I, you. I never felt so right in my life. Every moment your next to me, even when were so far apart, I feel you near. I really don't think I am imagining these things. When you tell me I am the light to your darkness, I say I am not perfect. I can feel you look right into my eyes, even though it's only over the phone, and you say your perfect to me. I know you mean that with your whole heart. I have always been betrayed by love, but you were always there. Even when you hurt me and I hurt you, we always gravitated back together.

Life, love is so fickle. Now, you want me to marry you. I have never been so scared in my whole life, I am anxious, counting down the days until I see you again. Your right, you are my darkness. I have never truly been able to forgive myself for my transgressions, and I know your the same way. It only feels right to me, who have I always wanted to be with more than anyone, since the first day? Everyone knows, we were always together. So, yes it only seems right to spend the rest of my life with the one I love. Even though I am scared, it's not exactly fear, but excitement as well. I could feel my heart burst any moment. The more I gush about you, the more I realize I have got it bad. The love sickness, the thought sickens me, but thats just my old self realizing, I never thought, in a million years this would happen.

Either way, if we were to marry tomorrow with noone to even witness it I wouldnt look back but would keep moving forward. I would be the truest wife for you, and you would be the truest husband for me. I just hope everyone sees that. Love isn't something you can decide on, or hope it will grow in time. It's something you fight for with your every fiber. Otherwise, it begins to dull and fade, and disappears completely.

If everyone is wondering who this mysterious darkness is to my light, it has always been my Alucard. I love you more than words can express. I hope you see that.