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I've had a crazy (but good) couple of weeks..
5 Months from today I am getting MARRIED!!!!!! I can't believe the past weeks have been so great. I made a new friends who has forced me out of my shell & has kept me company while Kyle is working. While I enjoy my alone time it is nice to get out & about on occasion. She invited me to a pi party on 3/14 & it was more fun then I have had in a long time. we went to a concert supporting a local women's clinic & yesterday we played games with local MRDD kids. (Boy was that an experience.) I am thinking about making her my 4th bridesmaid so Kyle can have his younger brother as a groomsman. I had a dress fitting yesterday & the good news is I have lost 12 pounds since I got engaged. The bad news is the dress is too big & needs to be taken in. We may not be moving to Cincy. Kyle got a job offer in Seattle. We have to way out options & figure out what is best for us a couple. He has a job lined up in Cincy & I've already been accepted to graduate school there so we have a lot of thinking to do. Heading to a dance weekend in Cincy in 9 days. I can't wait to see my friends & dance like a maniac.
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I missed my meloversary.....
I've been so busy with work & wedding plans that I missed my own meloversary. Oh well, I'll have another next year.
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Entirely happily exhausted
I went on another of my road trips this weekend, I haven't taken one since last September's excursion to North Carolina so I figured it was about time. I hit a contra dance in Dayton that lasted until 11, got in the car & drove 3 &1/2 hours to Ann Arbor for the Sunday dance of Dawn Dance. In between all the dancing & driving I got to visit with some really amazing friends. My friend David put me up & we actually sat down & had a conversation (& lunch,) a conversation with David is a rare occurrence since I usually only get to talk to him him before or after he performs (he is in a folk duo that is amazing!!!) I had dinner at an Ann Arbor establishment.. Zingerman's Deli. I swear the corned beef was to DIE for, I brought back Pastrami sandwiches for my dad & fiance, Kyle ate his as soon as he got home from work looking like the cat that ate the canary.
It was wonderful to see friends who I had not seen in months. I had to go to the dayton dance because my friends Seth from Atlanta was calling (he is one of the biggest flirts I have ever danced with.) I don't remember the last time I saw David... I think it was back in November when his duo played a concert downtown. I got to see my cousin Jess, until today I hadn't seen her since 2007 when she came down for my college graduation party.
There were people missing, most of the St.Louis contingent did not make it & neither did my friend Sally from Lexington Kentucky who has a bag of neck ties for me.
After an exhausting drive home I am in bed more then ready to go to sleep.
Thinking about going back to Dayton for their first Friday dance....will have to see what the weather looks like.
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WE PICKED OUT OUR WEDDING RINGS TODAY!!!!!
I love my ring, white gold with a small swirl pattern engraved around the edge, very elegant & classy. Kyle's is white gold also with a pattern around the top & bottom edges, it is hard to describe but it is very manly.
I am having a saying from the talmud engraved on the inside of his that is recited at all jewish weddings "I am my beloved's & my beloved is mine"....simple & to the point. He is having part of my favorite poem (My love is like a red red rose by Robert Burns) engraved on mine.
"Fair art thou,my bonnie lass, so deep in love am I & I will love thee still my dear 'till all the seas gang dry" (it'll have to be very small type but it should fit.)
We are going to go through with the October wedding & we are going to try to go to Israel together at another time.
I am going out of town this weekend & I will be seeing my cousin who is also one for my bridesmaids so I can give her the material for her dress. I feel like screaming....this all happened so fast. I feel like I am dreaming.
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1 year ago (give or take a few days)
I was substitute teaching, single (recently dumped via e-mail by a coward,) finding out what an ass my ex was via conversations with his other ex-gf & his ex-wife, dreaming of grad school & trying to figure out what to do with my life. Today I am engaged, happy, planning a wedding to the most amazing man ever. The man who went out & shoveled our driveway last week so I could go to work when he could have slept in.
We have purchased a house on the north side of Cincinnati & are waiting on some foundational work to be completed to start moving stuff in. We are going to keep the house up here & rent it out until the market improves but live in Cincy. I have to stay in Columbus for work until the end of August (since I am on contract I have to stay until my contract is up which works out perfectly because I start classes in Cincy 2 weeks later.)
I feel like I have come an extremely long way in a short period of time & I feel so fortunate to have the people I have in my life & the support system of amazing friends.
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I have such respect for Ice Dancers.
I can not ice skate, I can tango IF I have a strong lead but combining the 2 just makes my jaw drop to the floor. I love the ice skating events (pairs is always amazing.) I feel like ice dance does not get the credit it deserves as there are no big jumps or throws & lifts can not be above the woman's waist. This event is so complex that it is hard to understand.
i love the winters (half pipe, skating, mogules, bob-sledding, etc.) but I can not wait for the summers (gymnastics, diving, swimming, etc.)
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I am SOOOO glad it is Friday
What a busy week, I had to go to a memorial service last Sunday (which happened to be valentine's day.) Harriett was 82 years old & one of those little old women with that mischievous little twinkle in her eyes. She supported me through a very difficult time in my life & I felt I owed it to her to pay my respects.
I was FINALLY able to dance last Friday. I have been having major problems with my right knee & when I tried to dance my right knee would lock up. I went to an orthopedic clinic & they suggested support taping the knee. I got the stuff & watched a video on youtube. I was able to dance all night. (It was also Kyle's first introduction to Contra, he needs to see a real dance weekend to understand the high I get out of it.)
i had 3 days off work this week due to holidays & snow but I feel more wiped than i would if I had worked all week. I have to go to yet another funeral tomorrow which means I have to skip yoga :( My dear friend Gordon's wife died last week. I have known him since I was 8 & I was very close to his first wife Lucy who passed away several years ago. Connie was his second wife & I didn't know her all that well but i am going to support Gordon (I'll probably just stop in for visitation seeing as I REALLY don't feel like sitting through a catholic funeral mass.
Work was a wash this week, I missed my tutoring sessions with 6 of my 8 kids & I am going to have to catch up like crazy since we have test prep starting in 2 weeks.
For now I am just hanging out watching the Olympics.
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tomorrow (feb 17th)
Marks 5 years since I was raped.
I am not embarrassed or ashamed, I am no longer angry either. 5 years is a lot of time & much has happened to help me grow beyond this occurrence & let me live my life again.
The scenario is very common, I was invited to a party by a guy who liked me & I trusted him but had no desire to sleep with him. I got drunk & passed out on his couch. I woke up still drunk & now naked in his bed. As soon as I could I stood up & called a friend to come drive me home. I had the whole incident in my mind for several days before realizing what exactly it was. I was talking to a friend & explaining that I had made my feelings known to him but he had taken advantage of my situation. It was not bad consensual sex, it was RAPE.
I share this not to get sympathy but I am hoping that if I & other rape victims speak out we will desensitize the stigma that lingers behind rape. Too many women do not report such assaults & when they do there is little to no physical evidence. They are ashamed or embarrassed or feel as if they deserved what they got. Something MUST change,
I have changed a lot in the past 5 years, I went more than 2 of those years without any sex at all. I couldn't sit next to a black man on the bus for months & when I finally did I had to do breathing exercises to get through. I had the continual reminder every time I walked past the building it happened in. I no longer balk at black men or have panic attacks when I step foot on campus. But I have changed the way I walk, the way I get in & out of my car in the dark, I know who is around me & where my cell phone & whistle are at all times. I am cautious & I try not to put myself in vulnerable situations.
The pain & trauma are still with me but with the love & support of my friends & family I am living my life as best as I can.
I hope nobody ever has to go through what I went through but if it does, PLEASE report is as soon as possible.
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KILL ME NOW!!!!
I hate putting together resumes.. ESPECIALLY when my father thinks his templates from 15 years ago are still relevant. Resumes are like fashion, they change constantly & he doesn't seem to understand this. I've spent the past week listening to experts in their fields talking about what to include & how to assemble a well-formatted resume. I've sent my draft to a professional & I hope she will give me some USABLE advice. The problem I am having is how to assuage my father that I have taken his advice without completely screwing up my shot at this job.
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we are snowed in..... YAY!!!
I get 2 whole days snowed in with my fiance. No work, no parents, no dealing with the house in cincy. Just me, Kyle, his dog, my cats & a shit-ton of movies. I went grogery shopping yesterday so we have milk, fresh veggies, etc. in the house. I am even contemplating playing with yeast tomorrow (my aunt sent us a bread maker as an engagement present which I have yet to play with.)
I do hope the roads are clear tomorrow night as I am dying to get downtown to dance.
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mmmmmm..... fruit
My mom went to Costco on Saturday while I was home sick & while Kyle was in Youngstown. She came over with a shit load of our favorite foods. Blueberries, strawberries, pineapple, raspberries, a 2 pack of Nutella, a HUGE box of Cheerios, a tub of Chocolate covered raisins & an enormous box of Crystal light lemonade mix. We didn't need the food but it is really nice to have some of the luxuries that are not entirely affordable.
We are cuddled on the couch watching the premier of LOST eating Nutella & Strawberries. There are times when I can not stand my mother because she can be petty & hold a grudge like nobody else & then there are times like this I hadn't even told her I was sick, she was just going to leave the food in the sun room at the back of the house. I asked her why & she said "this is what you do when somebody close to you looses somebody." I think it was her way of welcoming Kyle to the family.
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I didn't realize how much I missed him
I am so glad to have my man back. It was a very long & lonely 9 days.
I came down with a nasty sinus infection yesterday so we both agreed that is was best for me to stay home & rest rather than ride all the way to youngstown for the funeral.
I am still not sure about the trip to Israel. Kyle is insistent that we will be fine & he will be waiting for me when I come home. We got news from our realtor that the seller has accepted our offer on the house. Kyle is driving to cincy tomorrow to sign the loan papers. There is some work that the seller needs to do before we close & take possession so we won't be moving for quite some time. We also have to decide if we want to sell the house here or rent it out for a while until the market picks up again.
We have a lot of decisions to make, about grad school, Israel, moving....etc...etc.
It feels like a lot at this point. I am so glad we are doing this together.
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I'm going to a funeral on Sunday
My fiance's grandfather died this morning. I was not there but he was & told me it was very peaceful. He was very ill when he passed so while it is sad that he is gone I am relieved that he is no longer in pain. I am riding to Youngstown with Kyle's sister on Sunday & riding back with him. I wish I could be there to help him take care of his grandfather's affairs but alas I have to work.
One more night of house sitting & then I get to sleep in my own bed.
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my fiance is jealous of a dog... :)
so my fiance is in youngstown caring for his grandfather & I am house/dog sitting until Thursday. I talked to him last night before I went to sleep & he was saying he wished he could trade places with the dog so he could cuddle with me again. We have only been apart since friday & he is already missing me so much, I don't know how (or if) he is going to handle my going to Israel for 5 months. I miss him too, I miss the safe feeling of having his arms wrapped around me & knowing he would never hurt me. ( Also the dog snores & he doesn't .)
I consider myself so fortunate, I have a man who I know loves me & I will never doubt that. I have been in love with him since high school but was never brave enough to put a voice behind my feelings. I tried dating other men but I never loved or felt for anybody as much as I feel for him.
In other news we may have found a house in Cincy. It is a forclosure with 3 bedrooms, a basement, a bonus room & a HUGE kitchen. The tub in the master bath has JETS!!!!! all for about $120,000. Kyle put down an offer & we are just waiting to hear back from the realtor. I will finally have a real home. Do I really want to leave for 5 months just as things are going so well for me??
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CRAZY couple of weeks...
My fiance is leaving tomorrow to head to Youngstown to care for his grandfather who is dying of parkinsons disease. It really is a sad situation, I met Kyle's grandfather at his high school graduation party & the first thing out of his mouth was dirty, I had an instant respect for the man. Here we are 9 years later & I am marrying his grandson & he could not be happier for us. His prognosis is not good, fortunately he was a cop before he retired so he has decent health care. We are not sure if he will live to see our wedding.
A couple friends of mine are going out of town & asked if I would house/dog sit while they are gone. This is PERFECT seeing as my man is leaving tomorrow when he gets off work & I really don't like being home alone in OUR house, I am not a fan of the neighborhood.
Work is going really well, the 8 students I have are doing so much better than 12 weeks ago when I started tutoring them. As much as I hate teaching to a test I love seeing them do well. We have DIEBLES coming up which are pain-in-the-ass reading benchmarks. We have to pull each student out in the hall & have them read aloud for us. As they read we mark every word they mispronounce or hesitate to say in a palm pilot. The Palm Pilots at my school are really old & shitty.
I am re-thinking this whole Israel thing. We haven't officially paid for anything yet (except my dress which can be worn anytime.) Kyle suggested pushing it back until March of 2011 but I really don't want to wait that long. On the other hand if we move the wedding up & have it in early August before I go I will be spending my first 5 months married away from my husband.
life can be very funny... a year ago I was so depressed I just wanted to go to sleep & never wake up, now I am so bloody happy I don't know what to do with myself.
ok, time to sleep, gotta enrich young minds in the AM.
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This group is the epitome of chick-folk
I have had "Levi Blues" running through my head ever since I made the decision to go to Israel (by way of Boston & Paris.)
http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=122621253&ft=1&f=1039
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I am so freaking lucky
I have the most amazing man in my life. He is not only ok with my going to Israel, he had the idea to push our wedding back to 2011 so I can go on the better of the 2 programs which starts in August & ends in January instead if the program that begins in March & ends in August. I am so looking forward to going back to Israel, I wish there was some way he could come with me but he is not Jewish & he has to work.
There are a few things I am going to miss out on while I am gone, the holidays & the huge local dance weekend that I look forward to every year. My soon to be sister-in-law just found out she is expecting & is due right around the time I will be leaving.
I am looking forward to reconnecting with friends that I have not seen in years. Part of the program is a 3 day sea to sea hike. August seems so far away, at least I have time to prepare & save some money before I go.
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crap......
So I found out yesterday I was accepted into a 5 month program in Isreal. If I went I would be missing the first few weeks of school & I would be returning a month before my wedding. I have been wanting to get into this program for years. I haven't discussed it with my fiance yet but knowing him he will tell me to go & postpone starting grad school.
It is so odd to have another person involved in making decisions.
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fucking TMJ...
I had a root canal back in late November/early December (just before I got engaged) & it was one of the most miserable experiences of my life. I now have a permanent crown but I am also guarding on the right side of my mouth which is making the muscles tighten up & hurt like hell. It also hurts to chew and *ahem* other stuff.
My dentist told me he could get a bite guard made for me & it would only cost an additional $500 on top of the $3000 for the root canal & crown. I think I am going to go to the drug store, get one of those night guards that you soak in warm water & allow to conform to your teeth, about a $450 price difference.
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I had quite an interesting afternoon
I started modeling for figure drawing classes at the cultural arts center today. I was a little nervous about being totally naked in front of a roomful of strangers. My fiance had all the faith in the world that I would be fine but I was still nervous. I walked in & the room was freezing but the teacher had a couch set up with a space heater so I was warm enough.
The really odd part came during the first break. I had mentioned to Susan (the woman running the class) that she might be able to find more lights on-line. I told her I had met several guys on-line & not all of them were assholes (just most of them) one of which dumped me in an e-mail because he was too much of a coward to face me.
Susan & another student had been talking about their home town of Circleville. The woman asked if she knew the Stewarts & my ears perked up. Susan mentioned that she had been engaged to the eldest. I asked if it was by any chance scott stewart (my ex to whom I have to thank for my presence on this site who also happens to be one of the biggest man-whores alive.) She said yes & we stood there in utter shock & disbelief for several minutes. It was one of the strangest moments I have had in a long time. Talk about random occurrences.
Kyle is going to laugh his ass off when he gets home from work & I tell him this story.
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It seems 2010 will be a much better year then 2009
2009: recap
shitty:
dumped via e-mail
bank account was hacked into
pneumonia
miscarriage
out of work for 2 months
thought I had made 2 new friends who turned out to be just like the guy we all dated
several bad dates
massive car problems
massive family problems
not so shitty;
started dating my high school boyfriend
moved in with him
got engaged
got into graduate school
went on an awesome trip to North Carolina with some of the best friends a person could ask for
started loosing some weight for the wedding
fiance is making me breakfast to absorb all the alcohol from an awesome new years eve
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Sunday October 17!!!
We are looking for a house in Cincy & Kyle is looking for a job down there. All this on top of the holidays. On the up side I will be able to have family to my own home next year. I know it sounds anti-feminist to want a husband but after living alone for 5 years I feel like I have earned the right to a partner. I am so glad that he looked me up after all these years & the feelings we had for one another back in high school are even stronger now. Looking forward to my first New Years eve as an engaged woman!!!!!!
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just in case anybody was wondering....
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You're so strong. Rape victims need more voices like yours to encourage them to use their own.
I used to be a figure skater and so I understand this particular sport when I watch it.
And, I, too, have great respect for what these figure skaters are able to do. :).
lOl my mom treats her dogs better than she does meh!
tmj is the pits! every time i come to your melo it makes my jaw hurt :x
have you done the new update? motorola supposedly did a few things to make the battery last a bit longer.
also, if you disconnect your social networking sites, the battery will last much longer because it will no longer be randomly sending data to update the phone or service.
Wow, really?
Women actually wanted to cry infront of men? Odd.
the phone is freaking awesome. how long have you had yours for now?
i just got mine! i havent been able to put it down :P
and i feel your tmj woes, i suffer as well.
my mom, sister and i all have the same thing. :(
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Congratulations on your impending marriage. I wish you all the best.
I friended you, btw. :)