poisonthewellxx
id give away my soul just to hold you again
As each day progresses, piece by piece, my dreams begin to unfold unto reality. I constantly think about that night and the feeling of being in your arms...its almost too good to be true...but it really happened and the future holds so much more. How long i have wanted to feel your lips meet mine and the indescribable feeling of being wrapped up in your arms. If only i could re-live that night over and over again...
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Rachel told me to take this
You’re a Romantic goth...(Go you!) Your beauty is
beyond belief, and you have a quiet, and
nurturing understanding for everything, and
everyone around...and perhaps, you have a
fondness for vampires aswell?
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Dead like Me
I look back on a broken mess
Pictures shattered with the shards of glass
This is what my life means to me
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So buckle up cause now im driving
(written September 2nd)
You tell me you cant stop crying, its all so new to you. You beg me to come see you, just 5 minutes will due. But where were you when i was crying? I was left alone. Congratulations for feeling, how ive felt long ago...
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Nothing was suppose to hurt like this
(written September 2nd)
Its too late to say your sorry. You should have thought about all this before. So much hurt and pain could have been avoided but you let it come to this. Now that you realize what your about to lose, the appoligies pour from your lips but its just too late now. Thanks to you, i feel dead. Thanks to you, i no longer feel.
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Everythings falling apart
(written September 1st)Have you ever gotten to the point where you pray to God begging him to take your life because you just cant handle it anymore?
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Everytime i trust, i loose. Cause of you, i still believe in nothing....
(written August 31st)
In the past few months, you’ve managed to kill me a little more each day. The worst part of it all is the fact that you watched as it all happened. You knew as each word slipped from your lips, they flew at me like knives, ripping me apart shread by shread. You bled me, heart and soul, each tiny drop a crimson tear, crying out with my last hope and dream. And now, as reality hits you like a wave of terror, you finally realize whats at stake. Your fear gives me life and the strength i need to go on, Thank you for fucking us up. Nothing is more sweet than pure revenge...
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a light that bleeds unforgiving shadows
(written August 1st)
Congratulations Adam, you succeeded in ripping out my helpless heart and crushing it between your finger tips
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i beg to see your face but all i see, and all i hear is nothing
im sitting here, getting ready to go to the circus...yea...originally, i had planned to go to an angles game with travis...that was until my parents informed me otherwise...now i wait until 5:30 to go sit and watch people torture animals and what not...oh gee...while i sit and watch bubba the talking elephant, ill be thinking about what i could be doing...watching a good game while laughing and having a great time with an awsome friend...*sigh* such is life...its amazing how things work out...the sooner i get back from my trip, the sooner ill be sitting in some resurant laughing with trent, travis and grace while celebrating two years...they’ve been great friends and i dont know what id do without them...whenever were together, i forget about all the chaos of life and laugh...they make life seem so much simpler than what it really is and for that, im thankful...I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
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...lonliness finds us beneath dim lit lights...
Hey everyone, as the summer draws to a close with only one month left, i get ready to embark on two trips for the last hurrah...this sunday, i will be leaving to iowa to visit my dad for two whole weeks of humidity, bugs and fun...i will be returning on the 15th, only to leave again five days later on trip to HAWAII!! I will try to update while im gone but i cannot promise how often that will be...i will miss all of you and for those that i am close to, i will be writing...
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feeling nothing was the easiest existence
i can only hold everything inside for so long and i was doing fine until you called me up and told me you were letting go...giving up...all i could do was try to not let you know that i was crying...when i dont talk to you during the day, i dream about you at night and it kills me...you were in my dreams again last night and after i woke, i couldnt get you off my mind...i want to break down and cry but a part of me wants to stay strong and just make it through another day...you told me that you want me to call but you have no idea how hard that is for me...hearing your voice, your laugh, your pain through your voice, knowing that ive hurt you...you have no idea how much i long to drop everything and run into your arms...i wish you could just hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok but its not...your letting go and though i understand why, its hurts to loose you for the second time...as you let go, you take a piece of my heart with you that i will never get back...i will always need you, i will always want you and i will always care for you...always...
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we’ll never find true answers from a wishing well
i use to like this guy for over a year...we would have been together except he was with someone else at the time. They wernt doing to well but she cried and pleaded and promised that they would fix things...so instead of being with me, he stayed with her...time passed and i came to believe that if we were meant to be together, something would happen...a year later, something did happen...he told me that he still cared for me and now he wants to be with me...the good thing is, i still like him just as much as i use to...the bad thing is, im currently with someone else...doesnt seem like that big of a problem right?...wrong...im torn apart between a boyfriend i believed i could end up loving and a boy i swore to be in love with instantly...love means nothing to me any more though...i dont believe in such thing...but i do care a lot for both of them and in the end, i have to hurt one of them...if i was leaning either way, the decision would be simple...but im not...and while i continue to prolong the decision making process, im ripping my heart to shreads...because both sides are equil, im looking for problems either in the relationship that im in now or in the relationship i could have with the other guy...but there arent any...so what do i do? ive started picking little pointless problems and arguing with my boyfriend over nothing just so that maybe he’ll get mad or ill find some crazy reason to break up with him...im looking for a sign or something to tell me which way im suppose to go but there arent any. My boyfriend now thinks im crazy, the other guy thinks that im ignoring him, my parents think that ill actually cheet on my boyfriend with the other guy and im about to declare to be single for the rest of my life. I believe everything happens for a reason but i cant tell if this is a sign or a test...im afraid to make the wrong decision...i have no idea what to do and no one can tell me because in the end, i have to go with my heart...but how can i, when i like them both?
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as a paper, i cut your life
I had an awsome spring break but im really sad that its now over...i saw scooby doo 2 with my friend amber, hung out with adam, and spent three crazy days with Grace, megan, carissa and diana...we went to the beach, ran from the cops, pissed off the rich bastards at Fashion Island, ate at Jack n’ the box 20 times, met Icky at In n’ out, had piggy back ride races down the pier in huntington beach, met up with Biff (who i havent seen in months) and went to the As i lay dying show at the Glass house.
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blah
hello everyone, as you can see, i havent been on melo in ages...the thing is, nothing is really going on in my life right now...well, nothing juicy and dramatic enough to put on this here melo...life is good and damn, its about time...its almost spring break and that means i can eat deserts again AND gracita and i are going to the as i lay dying show on the 16th...i cut my hair all short and i have no idea why i didnt do it a hell of a lot sooner...long hair...eicky...what was i thinking!!
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just throw out any reason for us not to care
the air my lungs first loved, carves craters from my eyes, they said, "breathe deeply son and watch the traitors die, beneath the falling night and heaven’s shutting gate, pray keep your tongue held tight or suffer the same fate. The blood on our black gloves, it is none of your concern, it you want to call out bluff, get in line and wait your turn and watch the witched burn."
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