:D Frontpage art again :D

It's a submission from last year. ♥

So he broke up with me a few weeks ago over a text message.
Pathetic right? I went out with the pussy for a year and he ended it over a text message.

I still don't know why he did.. he gave me all these bullshit excuses.
Havn't really heard from him since..

I fell in love with an asshole and right now I'm working on falling out.

His name is Tito. :P

Yesterday: I went over Carlee's since it was raining & we didn't go to the fair. We watched part of "St. Elmo's Fire" before we were like, this sucks. Then we put on "10 Things Hate About you," & "How To Deal." After that Kevin came over & we went upstairs, ate, and watched "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind." Then I came home, ate, talked to Mitch for a while.. then passed out. :]

Today: I went to the State Fair with Carlee..
It was okayy. It would have been better if there were wristbands for rides & if it wasn't hot as balls out. We just wandered and ate.. 'cause we thought buying tickets was a waste of money. We left like around 3:30 'cause it just sucked.. and no one was really there.

Right now I'm STARVING and bored off my ass.
So I'm off to go fix that. ♥

Seeing my baby tomorrow. :]

BTW, My parents are loaning me money for Wildwood.. thank god.
I just have to pay them back.. which I don't mind.

So, today was another lazy day.

I was suppose to hang with Kat or Dana but because I refuse to be social even for a minute for some odd reason, I decided not to and just sat around all day taking pictures.. That's pretty much how my summer's been. I'm such a loner. I really wonder what's wrong with me.

I might be hanging with Carlee later, though.
State Fair tomorrow if it doesn't rain. :]

I'm seeing Mitch Sunday. ♥

Seaside at My Uncle's this weekend with Carlee & her family. :]♥

Friday: We spent the day driving down to My Uncle's. When we got there we unpacked and spent the first few hours there playing clue and monopoly. We were like.. "this sucks." So we finally went to the boardwalk. We got there walked around for a few hours. Then around 10 we left and by the time we got back to the house I wanted to KILL Carlee's brother & his friend. This kid had to be the most annoying person I have ever met, and I don't usually get that annoyed.. so you know it takes a lot to. Surprisingly, I controlled myself all weekend though.

Saturday: We hung on the beach, then went on the boardwalk.. played a few games.. got some Rita's ♥ played a game of DDR.. then crawled our way back to the beach. We hung out there for a few hours and ended up meeting these 2 guys. They randomly came over while Carlee was doing a handstand and started talking to us. They were pretty cool. After that we went back on the boardwalk and walked around. Then we went into this one arcade and just as we were passing this crane machine this guy pulled out 2 stuffed bears and gave one to each of us. It was perfect timing. Then we went into this one store and the lady had a one-eyed dinosaur. I was like "That's so cute!" So she was like, "Do you want it?" and gave it to me. ♥ Then like 5 minutes later I found a dollar on the ground.. 'cause some stupid kid stuck it there with something. I don't feel bad at all for taking it, 'cause that was just a retarded thing to do. Anywaysss, so we ate pizza then my Uncle gave me some money and I bought a sweatshirt that I'm pretty much inlove with. I walked up and down the boardwalk looking for it because the store I originally went to was sold out. It sucked, but I ended up getting it anyways. :] After that we did a photobooth then pretty much left.

Today I did nothing but come home and watch all 3 episodes of "Fallen" & talk to my baby. :]
No idea what I'm doing tomorrow.

I had an awesome weekend.

Friday I went to The Mall. It was okay.
I don't remember anything that really happened. We stayed for the Harry Potter thing though.My Mom wanted me to get her a wand so I stood online for 30 minutes just to get her one. Then when I finally got it I was so mad. I was freaking out I'm like, "I stood online for a STICK with GLITTER." haha. Then we went to Barnes and Noble and there wands were like x10 better but they were stold out.. and normally I wouldn't care but I just thought that it was so lame that I stood online that long and got a stick out of it. They dropped me off around 12 and I talked to Mitch 'til I passed out.

Saturday was the drive in.. it was awesomeee. ♥
Despite the fact that it was my second time seeing Harry Potter. I ended up seeing 3 shooting stars & a crazy amount of lightning bugs. It was a lot of fun. But, I was freezing. 'Cause I was stupid enough not to bring my sweatshirt & the blanket barely helped at all. We left after 10 minutes of "Lisence To Wed," 'cause Kat had to be up early and I was beat.. so I didn't really care too much.
But yeah, I definately want to do that again sometime soon. :]

Sunday I saw my baby ♥
It was so much fun. :] We cuddled as usual & all that good stuff. He made me eggs. :] Then went upstairs to watch his brothers and watched some Pokemon and ate icecream. :P Then we went outside to watch them 'cause they were swimming and we just hung out. After that we watched this DVD I brought with ghost stories on it. They were all pretty damn corny. But, we had fun while we were watching it. :P Then we had a tickle fight and I completely kicked his ass. And something else by accident. :/ I got him on the floor a few times. Haha. So we ate dinner and they dropped me off and I slept over Carlee's.

I came home today and did NOTHING. Hopefully tomorrow will be different.

Still no job :/ So no money for Wildwood.
Hopefully I can figure something out.

So today I saw Harry Potter.. it was reallyyy good.
Then afterwords I hung out at the mall for a few.

My "son" was there and he kidnapped me so we went off and hung out for a while. He tried doing stuff with me, but I stopped it 'cause I can't do that to Mitch.. no matter how bad things are between us. Sunday I'm deciding whether or not I want to be with him, but honestly.. if I wasn't see him Sunday I would be breaking up with him.. it's just too hard and too complicated and I just don't feel like dealing with all of it.

It's weird how I'm attracted to people that I know would treat me bad and don't have the best intentions but I'd rather have someone who could treat me better.. I'm just not happy with anyone.

Anyways, I wasn't really at The Mall that long, it was really beat tonight.
But I saw Brian Scott for a few, he's mainly the reason why I go there still.




Anyone going to projekt revolution? ♥

We're badasses.. haha.♥

Faygooo ♥

So Mitch just called me while he was fucked up. Normally I wouldn't get mad about this kind of thing..I don't know.. I guess it just made me mad because it brought back memories of Johnny when he for the most part clean and I could actually relate with him and talk to him.. and hang out with him without him being fucked up. I ended up breaking up with him because he became someone completely different.. and ended up in rehab. I havn't seen him since before Klug.. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I'm not worried or pissed or hurt. He told me he'd stop.. but I didn't want him to.. I didn't want to be one of those bitches that controls their boyfriend's life.. he told me anyways that he would quit.. and that it wouldn't be hard.. or that big of a deal.. because he rarely did it. So it was HIS choice. He was the one that brought it up in the first place..

I could really use someone to talk to right now. This is what bestfriends are for. This is what FRIENDS in GENERAL are for. I've needed to talk to mine lately but apparently they could care less. I'm sick of only talking to Mitch. Yeah, he's always there for me.. but I feel like he's really the only one right now.. and I can't talk to him about everything.. especcially things that are about him.. I'm going insane and I just need to talk to someone else I'm close with.. I feel distant from everybody I know right now.. I feel like I can't relate with anyone.

I feel really lost.. and honestly I just want to get away from everything. If it wasn't so fucking COLD outside I might just run away for a few hours.. just to clear my head.. but it figures that on spring break it's FREEZING.

I'm just a mess.. and I feel like the only person I can count on is Mitch.. the only one that's there for me is him.. and at this moment.. I feel like I can't even turn to him.

I'm losing it. I'm fucking losing it.

So last night was fuckin' INSANE.
I did end up going to The Mall with Carlee, Mark, & Derek. Then we all slept over Mark's.
Let's just say all I remember is crawling on the floor & calling Carlee a midget.
There's a few other things I remember, but basically, that's it.
I bet you can guess what we did. I'm not sure how much I drank, but I was goneee.

Then I had to get picked up at 8 this morning, drop Carlee off, and go to Mitch's.
Which was.. wow.. all by itself.
Tomorrow I'm hopefully hanging out with Carlee..
'cause we need to talk about A LOT of stuff.

As for now, I'm probably passing out soon.

Don't you see? We're in this together..
Today was better than I thought it would be.
We used the drunk goggles in Drivers Ed. I havn't used those in so long..
I couldn't even take a step without being scared of falling over & breaking his laptop.
Haha. I was the only one who couldn't take more than one step. :X

Then after school Alli & me talked Gavin into walking to a chinese place and getting us food.
It was amazing. ♥ I can't believe he actually did it.
So we ate chinese the entire time. It rocked.

Tomorrow I'm staying after 'til 10 for the performance.
Right now I'm off to go drink hot chocolate & hope that there's school tomorrow.
Which is a weird thing to hope for.. :/

BTW! Ben's moving to Eagle Rock! ♥
So he'll be like 5 minutes away from me. It's going to be awsome.

Today/Tonight was fuckin' awsome.
First of all I went into school late today 'cause I got my stitches removed.
Afterwords we ate breakfast at Panera bread & my Mom bought me my lunch there.
By the time I got to school it was 11. So the rest of the day went by fast.
Gavin made an ass of himself when Alli told him he was walking like he had a boner.
There were drills making noises in the background and as soon as he opened his mouth the drills went off.. so "where's my boner?" echoed across the hallway. And he made it seem like he couldn't find it.
I guess you kind of had to be there.

But anyways...after school I went to The Mall with Carlee, Derek, & Serg.

My Mom & Derek clicked. haha. They were getting along so well.. it was so funny. I'm just like, "Mom, why can't you be this way with my boyfriends!?" 'Cause they were laughing with eachother like the entire ride there. She was also trying to hook me up with some guy that works at Sams club. She's like, "He's emo. You'd like him.. I don't know what emo is.. but you'd get along great." Lol. "Sam's club, top of chain," "I work at Sam's club baby, what's up? ;]"

So yeah, once we got there a bunch of people were there.. but not really mallrats. Just a bunch of random 12 year old emos. There was this one kid dressed like a clown. Alex? he was cute. I grabbed his clown nose and he like jumped and tryed licking my finger. I thought it was adorable. He was odd, though. His friends were prettyyy hot. But they're younger than me. So I'm staying away from that. Plus, these mall newbies kind of piss me off. I mean, I've been going to The Mall for 3 years.. and I don't act like I own it. But these 11 year old scene kids thing they're hot shit. it's a strange thing to be mad about but I mean seriously.. fuck off? :]

Sooo anyways. Saw Brian Scott!♥ George.. Frank.. Katie.. bunch of others. Mark was there. We were suppose to bring Nick but Mark 'forgot' .. so that didn't happen. :/ Sami showed up. I hung out with her and emo boy a lot of the night. I bought some stuff.. surprisingly. & Sami ended up taking me home.

When I got home my parents were all, "Disney world!?"
So I'm like "Wildwood!" And they're like "BOTH!"
So hopefully we'll be able to go to Disney world in May. But we're definately going to Wildwood. That's right Kat. And you're coming with me to Wildwood.

So that's pretty much my night. Hanging out with Nick tomorrow? I hope. Too much running around to see my Grammy.. I'm seeing her during the week. Then Sunday I'm seeing Mitchhhhhhh! Which makes my life. :]♥


Rahhh I'm hyper! good moods are amazing. I hope it'll last.

Today was really weird.
There was crazy traffic in the morning so the school ended up having an in-school delay.
Buses were already on their way.. so they just delayed when school starts by like 30 minutes.
I ended up getting there at 9 though, so it was like a 2 hour delay for me. 'cept not as good.
'Cause I got stuck on the bus with freshmen.. oh-well.
We did nothing all day pretty much.. & ended up not having testing.
Then I had to stay after & it sucked. I didn't get my mac & cheese. haha. Alli.

So that's pretty much it.
I'm off to go eat something & call Nick back now.

Scariest. fucking. night.
I was in the shower and the phone wrang. It was really loud and obnoxious.. so I got out to go answer it... and I slipped.. and BASHED my chin/jaw on the toilet seat.. and somehow hit my thigh. The toilet hinges either bent or they broke completely.. either way the seat's broken.. & I had a huge gaping hole in my chin.. Luckily my Mom was pulling up in the drive way when I called her 'cause she rushed me straight to the hospital.. it took so long to go in but I got 4 stitches in my jaw & x-rays done. They don't know if I broke anything yet or not though.. but I can barely talk.. and can't move teeth or tongue or anything. The bruise on my leg is swallen about an inch high.. and I have to keep it elevated and stuff. It's bigger than my fist.. it hurts so badly.. I can't do anything this weekend or shower for 48 hours.

The thing that freaked me out the most was.. if I slipped any differently.. or just a little more.. or hit the seat any harder.. I would have snapped my neck.. that's all I could think about in the waiting room.. that I almost died. From a really stupid reason too. : It really woke me up..