...it only took 3 months to complete.....

but guess what?

I GOT ACCEPTED into ISU !!!!!!

now we just have to wait for the summer for my one class and I'll have my aa degree, finally. ....oh and for andy to get accepted (he still needs a few more classes to get accepted.

im getting a car in a few weeks, a new job after school is out (this semester) which pays more... lots more (bonuses/benefits) we got a new puppy in the house. :) her name is sunny.

ummm..... things are fucking amazing right now. and plus, the girl at work that i was kind of getting sick of just got fired.

fuckin a.

:)

yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

....it was really dark on evergreen (the road by my house) and snowing.....
............and i hit a dog.

with no tags.

:\

....a few days ago.

:*************(

and it died. andy picked it up because we were going to bring it to arl but it died before we even go off the road.

:********************************************************************(

how sad!

then last night I'm assuming because god hates me
a girl ran a stop sign from the same area i hit the dog and came about 3 inches from my car. SOOOO HAPPY my brother/dad fixed my breaks correctly.

...otherwise i would be dead just like the dog.

:*****************************************************************************************(

ISU.... really? the middle of march before I'm supposed to hear back from you?

WHAT THE FUCK

I applied there mid january.... you took 4 weeks to get a transcript loaded into your system, and now i still have to wait.

asssssssssssssssss-holes.

i feel different
i look different
i act different
.....................maybe thats why none of you talk to me anymore.

i noticed i dont talk to anybody anymore....not really. andy, pavo, and kelly on a daily/weekly basis
jewel bri and cayla
....other than that no one.
the guys say im too busy working/going to school/spending time with andy
the girls dont call or text* (except the 3 above)
hmm

and to think... i put so much effort into certain friendships and now it honestly means nothing.

anyways:
still a temp.
boss says im a great worker and he'd hire me on if i didnt have school on wed.
fuck that sir,
but i dropped last semester to get a job with you and you never hired me on.
but i'll still work for you til i get fired/"let go"

sent in my app for isu.
my transcript has been with them for 2 weeks now.
havent heard anything.
called them yesterday and they said it takes up to 6 weeks.
so i have another month to go...
damnit.
pavo said he'd let me live at the house if i needed to keep my temp job

birth control pill is kickin in,
makes girls moody as fuck.... but also makes our hair/nails grow...
so here in ooooooooh idk two more months i should have long hair again.

pavo is helping me find a car on craigslist....
lets hope i get one.
then i can sell my pos "BERTHA" to some stupid high school kid who needs a "cheap" car.
i mean she runs and gets me places, but a lot of the features need to be fixed
and im tired of dicking around with them

speaking of dick...
its a wonderful thing.
i am glad i waited before i lost my virginity
....buuuuuut im also glad i can now too.....

pavo is now like my best guy friend.
which is weird because we didnt really like each other much at all when we first met
i talk to him about basically everything, sex-school-work-frustrations-happy things...
anything.
glad i actually have one guy friend that isnt mad at me.

(be careful... im going back on a tangent about shitty friends now... i guess i kind of deserve it for being a shitty friend during/right after central college...whatev.)

it just pisses me off that a certain someone caused all of this drama between me and a boy, then in that persons own life, now because of all the drama i dont talk to any of them...
i pretty much yelled at them in msg on fb but i didnt intend to
its just fucking retarded how everyone says im always busy with andy
yet idk maybe if they asked to hangout and not just when they wanted to spend money i'd hang out with them.
but its even like that with sarah...
i am so mad at her because she bailed on me for probably 5 different things in a row- her excuse, from her own mouth every time: justin doesnt want to so i dont think im going to.... we'll hang out later though ok?
well then she got mad at me because i didnt go hang out with her one time.
so she blew off my party- even though i called and left her a msg... you know because she of course wont answer my calls.

fuck that

and after all of the bullshit with every other girl i used to hang out with...
i dont call them.
i guess im waiting for them to drop all of their ideas of how they are personally attatched to someone elses drama before i talk to them again.

and alllllllllllllllll of my high school friends- i guess they're gone because its been 3 years after high school and im not good enough for them anymore....
maybe they just arent good enough for me.

fuck it.
im done for now.

i am finally legal.

going to class soon... anthro test at 1:30... i have good feelings about it.
...maybe because i've been studying for a freaking month for it.

im bringing andy out for lunch today.... this is my vday present to him.
...and i will get an alcoholic drink
yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum

I worked last friday night until 8:30 pm, went to andy's and did homework/hung out with him for a little while, ate pho... yummmmmm. I came home, went to bed around midnight-ish, got up for work at 6 am, left for work at 6:20, worked until 4 pm, came home and tried to sleep.... but no one would let me.... not even andy.

so then i started getting ready for the party saturday night.... had a beer before my shower, and 3 after. finished getting ready, had another beer.... its about 8:30 now and my ass is tipsy as fuck. drank another 3, went upstairs... talked to cayla as i almost passed out then andy came upstairs and rescued me from the sleep monster that wanted to consume me. 10:30 rolls around and the next thing i know andy is asking me if i want to go upstairs, so we get to my room and lay down....

and guess what? he says he has to go to the bathroom.... then he leaves to go get sick for 30 mins.
...meanwhile i pass out with all of my friends/roommates downstairs drinking away.
i told andy i was mad at him the next morning because i wanted to have wild crazy drunken sex since i just got off of my period the day before.
well we made up, left for his house, studied, made up again, watched the super bowl, and i finally left around midnight after i finished my paper.

so today rolls around and i am tired from typing that paper late into the night, and i realize i have another paper due at 1:30... so i typed it out quick....

fyi it is snowing like crazy in iowa right now.
andy made me lunch, drove me to and from class, thank god my chem class was cancelled tonight.
no more tuesday night classes anymore because i passed my soc exam. just need to study for the class.
wednesday is my actual birthday.
i have a test in my anthro class.... and im pretty sure i'll get an a on it.
fuck yes. i love that class...
i think i want to major in anthropology......
:)
still waiting on my acceptance letter from isu. but im sure i'll get in.
they told andy he needs 8 more transferable credits and then he's in.
:)
andy and i will be sharing a room together when we move in with sam and kevin.
...me....
living with 3 younger asian boys.....
:)
oh and the best part about this- i only have to pay 1/2 the price of rent since im sharing a room.
wooooooooooo.

anyways sorry for the long entry, but its been a while and i havent been able to write anything lately..... or read anything for that matter either.

<3 <3 <3 <3

miss you melo-ers.