redspyder526
My heart.....
The reasons I do the things I do is because I cannot stand by and watch the heart I adore push its life into a ring of sorrow and frustration. I watch it drink in spirits to calm his troubles- I watch it breathe in death to experience life...yet the whole portion of my heart desires to see the heart I adore spring fourth and beat with a exuberance of one that has been delivered and set free from the bondage of the past...a heart that knows who he is in the eye of his Creator, a heart that loves directly selflessly instead of indirectly hiding the selfishness in a cloak of selfless servant hood and works. Oh dear heart will you please allow yourself to be free... confess life over yourself, breathe in the fresh air from the lungs of your Creator, take in the blood that was shed for you that it would run through your veins and liberate you--give you life, zoe...love, agape--and establish that hope that was promised to you and those alike. Oh dear heart will you no longer hide your troubles away from those who were sent to help, but look past their imperfections to see the perfect God within them..the one who isn't a man that he would lie or forsake you...Oh dear heart would you lift your hands and fall to your knees and allow honesty to flow freely from your lips, the truth will return just as freely with salt to preserve your life... Oh dear heart would you look around and see that you are no longer bound but you bind yourself but refusing to open your eyes and see and to quiet your mouth to hear... Oh dear heart you do not have to worry for you and I alike were bought with a price- our lives are no longer our own..we are to be a living testimonies of his goodness and mercy that is without measure.. Oh dear heart let Him love you unconditionally...accept that you are alive, accept that you are free, and look to Him first and he will provide all that you need as you give Him what he needs...to be needed He needs. Oh dearest of hearts...you are loved and accepted...Not a jerk, not a liar, not a cheat, not an assassin of character, not be-littler of hope, not a self-centered person, not a murder, or thief, not a discontent, not a fearful soul, not a useless individual, not a rejected life, nor any other lie the enemy has thrown toward you. Know you are more valuable than you realize, more valuable than you can fathom...start to live according to your worth in Christ Jesus...That is my prayer for you today.
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It's.......
Snowing and just in time. I was feeling a little home sick today and than it started to snow. It makes it all better lol. It's a little strange, that a little snow would make me feel a little better.
I don't know if it's because I got to have a snow ball fight with my roommate and creamed his @zz!!!! haha southern boys don't know how to pack snow.
Well up date quick before I run out for a short. I moved into my own apartment (while I have a roommate, but he's cool). I'm planning on flying back home in April for my mom's birthday (she doesn't know yet tho). The job is going good, still only working part time, but it gives me time to do other things, which is good.
Still need a full time job tho. But things are going good for the most part. I don't get much time to be online any more. I still have to get internet and cable at my place yet.
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Good News!!!
So I sign papers for my apartment next Friday. WHOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!
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To all my peps
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Hay YOU!
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The Best!
ME!!!!
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SO....
Wish me luck, I hope to get $2500 - $3000.
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When you give up
I started there today and there stock room needs a lot of work. But I at least had a good time talking with one of the other guys who will be working under me. He kept asking me questions that drove me nuts. But I get to work again tomorrow morning and than I have a date with my boo. It's our one year and we are going out to dinner and a movie.
So yeah!!!! I <3 my girl.
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So fucked up...
Might I remind you we are both adults and are more than capable of making our own decisions. So after our long heated discussion I feel not welcome. Yes, I have no job, almost no money and now no place to go.
I do however thank God that I still have my girl, who informed me tonight that if we do things right we can take classes in January at our church to get married in June this comming year.
This is going to be a few weeks of hell and than a few months of it as well. Please pray for something good to happen.
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A though.....
When it stops no body knows
I lay awake in bed wondering
wondering where my life had taken this turn
Some days it seems like yesterday
Other days seem so far away
I know only one thing about my life
That it has to get better
I am a child of GOD!
And he doesn't disappoint!
Yes we go through storms
Which seem like hell at times
But in the end
It's all just a test of our faith!
For my God has already beaten my foe.
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Will it ever end?
My checking account is -$376, I still have a ticket to pay for which is $210, I have a bill that is due once a year which is around $500 and ya know what I have in my other checking account $370 and I have rent that is due tomorrow that's $300 and on top of that I need to put gas in my truck which will after paying rent and filling up my truck leaves me with $20 bucks.
I have one more check coming next week and that should be around $125 ish so I pray that this interview I went on today leads to something at will exceed my expectations. I really need something to happen or I might just say FUCK IT and head back home!
So God if you are really out there and listening, I need something to MOVE! I don't want to move because I believe that I didn't move down to Atlanta to fail and head back to Minnesota. It's not what you have deemed for me.
God MAKE something happen as in Psalms 44:23-26----
23 Awake, O Lord! Why do you sleep?
Rouse yourself! Do not reject us forever.
24 Why do you hide your face
and forget our misery and oppression?
25 We are brought down to the dust;
our bodies cling to the ground.
26 Rise up and help us;
redeem us because of your unfailing love.
Amen!
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Once again.
I'm here all alone, not matter what anyone says. I am on my own and guess what. I prefer it this way. I'm tired of being let down by the people that I thought were there for me.
You all say you are there if I need anything, but where the hell are ya? I moved down to Atlanta to try something new. To trust people and let them in to see if that's what was missing in my life. But one heartache after another you slowly have shown me that I am better off alone!
So alone I will be and I'm better off that way!!!
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Count down
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Ya, text me later, I have to run out with my roommate to take my dog to a park.
It's good, but they sent me home sense they are trying to clean up the mess they made yesterday. SO I get to spend the nice sunny day to myself and have to work a double shift tomorrow.
ya, but they were going to spend some time with each other and I had to work :(
things are good for me just work work and more work ever since i got back. besides the move, how are things for you?
I hope you had a great new year too, lovey! Did you party? :P
I've been calling everyone chicky lately.. its like saying dude but its cute instead of surferish
Yay I can't wait for text time! :D I miss you too, I hope things are going well. Fill me in on any news.
I was.... haha.
I just did a turn around.
Life's peachy.
I have two school days left and work is pretty good.
And what about you...where have you been all my life?
yea not many people have been on lately, thats for sure. i seem to only write entries nowadays because everyone keeps to themselves.... :
hows the new life treating you????
You worked all day Black Friday?!?!? I'm glad you had fun at least ;) Was it crazy at your store? Retail is madness.
Aww Joel I loves you! :) I am very thankful for such a sweet and caring friend like you :)
thanks red! hope you had a great one as well!!! how have things been for you??? ...havent heard from you in a long time!
***MELO AWARD FOR MOST DESCRIPTIVE POST EVER!!***
$2500-$3000 and better MPG? so like a honda?
Aw babe I loves you! I'll keep you posted. Thanks for worrying <3
Yay! A good job and love. Two great things to have <3
Yay thank you loves :) I have tons of hugs for you too. I keep sending good vibes your way.
sometimes its just people that i dont want to talk to which is why they block their number before they call.
and yes sir. you have to hurry =P
okay.....favor time. =) I'm starting a wedding recipe cook book with recipes from my friends and family. Can you give me some of your favorite recipes? purrrdy please?
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