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9 months later and I'm STILL A QUEEN!
I KNOW 9 months is not THAT long of a time to be with someone ... I've been in a few long term relationship. But this to me doesn't seem to be that normal, in a great way
Every single morning, even almost 300 days later together I'm waking up to 'Good morning Gorgous' Everytime I walk by him he whistles at me
I get a foot rub each and every night. He still likes to hop in the bathtub with me... He still kisses me all over my neck every time before we have sex.
He still wakes up mid though the night to give me a kiss on my cheek.
Just reflecting on my past two relationship, these things died down very very fast... like 2 or 3 months, and almost a year later, it's still going strong. Nicky really really knows how to treat a woman like a queen, Each and every single day.
I hope he's mine forever!
/ Gayness
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4 years of melo
you have seen me through a marraige
you have seen me through a divorce
you have seen me through a pantie wearing manly man
you have seen me through that break up
you've lifted me up
you've brought me down
but you've been there
many entries a deleted
many entries move to private
but when i needed to get it all out
i was met with the most loved honesty
with the lessons learned by others
the advice those lessons brought
not saying the same mistake won't be made twice
but this site has allowed me and let me know others make them too
and we have all bounced back, many times
maybe not all of you have loved and lost
and have written about it,
poured your hearts out on these fancy fonts and skins
and have had people comfort you, knock sence into you, feel for you, empathise with you
i have, i'm lucky
resiliance, xbizzywitch, satindoll, chrissy
over 4 years the few have been there, reading, responding when necessary
love you all thank you for being here the past 4 years, i can hardly believe it
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2010 Vancouver Olympics - starts tonight!
I can't WAIT to watch the opening ceremonies! Having my best friend Trish, her man Gordo, and my friend Onur to watch it with me and nicky ... On the menu
Chilli Cheese Dip with Nachos
2 Delisio Pizzas
Spinach Dip with Bread
Mini Corn fritters with Sweet Chili Sauce
For 5 of us! haha that aint bad :)
Hope you'll all tune in to watch it! 6 pm Pacific Time, 9 Pm Eastern Time
Vancouver is my home town, fourth generation Vancouver girl... I now live in Squamish, which is half way between Vancouver and Whistler
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Let me tell you a few things about a good guy!
I'm still baffled 8 months later, how on earth I have been with so many douche bags when there are so many decent guys kicking around!!!! Some say we are drawn to the drama ... we want what we can't have ... we like the chase... we like the fight ... I don't know what it is! But if you get a man that adores you, and treats you like a queen, and doesn't do anything to bring you down. Hang on tight ladies!
last night was pretty amazing, as most nights are ... I made dinner, while he surfed the web, making each other laugh whilst at it .. I asked him
"What's your favorite sex word Mine is penetration" he laughed pretty hard and said "Moist" lol I turned it into a really annoying banter ... like OooOO isnt this muffin moist ... lol now he's going to laugh everytime he hears it. our Tuesday am meeting, I'll be sure to bring it up while I'm eating my morning donut! lol
ANYWAYS, had to be there! he went in for a bath (which he never does) and asked me to come in with him, and I sat infront of him, while our kitten is trying to come in and joint he party ... Nicky is giving me a backrub and just holding me and kissing my head ... and it turned into some serious sexy time... that didn't really go all the way to sex or antyhing but a lot of fun!
So that was the night ... but What really made me want to write this entry about having a really amazing lover ... is ...
I can't tell you how many times thorughout a nights sleep, I wake up to nicky kissing me ... Just a peck, on my lips, or cheek or head ... and it makes me melt ... I'll open my eyes each time. and his are also closed. I wonder if he wakes up and does it, or instinctively does it in his sleep ... but it's a true sign of his love for me ... And I am eating it up!
Yup ... he's the real deal ... and I concider myself the luckiest girl alive very often!
*hearts*
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Need to come here more often!
I miss venting! But sometimes I didn't like the responses [resilience]! haha not to say you're not right! or wrong, just sometimes is painful to hear someone elses' truth but I appreciate it all the same :)
Work stinks, badly! I love my job! But not that who I work for! ugh ... it's a shitty catch 22 ... today though he has been somewhat civil, only got additude a few times, but he left early! so yay! i'm left to blog!
Monday nick and I talked about moving to New Zealand next year
"Bay of Plenty" like how fuckin' awesome does a place like that sound!
1)NO Predators, no bears or mountain lions, or cougars for when I run and hike
2) it NEVER gets below 18 degrees there! (don't know how many 'american' degrees that is!) but it's gotta be warmer than Florida!
My mom has already expressed her extreme displeasure about it, so don't know if I can go knowing it will break her heart ... who knows! We only just started discussing it. He wouldn't have a job in Canada again if he left ... so lotsa things to concider!
Idol Rocked last night with Ellen! as a new judge! woohoo the guy who did the acoustic version of 'straight' up rocked too! I think he has a chance to win it!
Dreaded group-night tonight! I hate those, they lose some good people cuz of shitty ass groups!
Anyways, starting to bore myself ... nothing interesting! At All to report! Zero Drama ... which as you all know is kinda new for me!
A shoutout to my closest galpal trishthedish73! check her blog for her first ever Brazilian was experience!
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Two more sleeps of lonely!
for Xmas I got him a Xbox 360 steering wheel and a gym membership :)
Been a rough month financially, so I had to go cheap on everyone :( I'm sure they'll understand
Work is letting us off at noon on the 24th until January 4th! that is so exciting! 12 days of bliss with my nick! God ...
I cannot wait to lay next to him again, see him walk around our apartment in nothing but a towel, watching him shave ... little things like that I miss dearly
I decided where I want to get married too, and it's just down the highway about 20 minutes. Peurto Cove ... here's a pic :) I think it will make for great photos ...
Just us and our parents ... it will be bliss ... the only thing I'll splurge on is the photographer ... But lets just wait for him to ask me first shall we!
But I know it's coming ...
Anyways ... fucking excited to go snowboarding!!!! I plan on going at least 5 times during my time off! I put on 10 lbs since summer, and i lost most of it again since nicks been gone, but in the past half week, ugh ... just eaten like crap! Starvation mode here I come
Question for americans: I keep hearing support for obama is the biggest decline of any past presidency ... why is that ? I thought he was the USA Saviour?
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only 7 days left
i don't know how long distance relationships do it, or worse women and men with significant others in the military ...
it's only been 19 days so far, and honestly it feels like 19 months!
he's been good at keeping in touch, texting a few times a day and we've only not talked on the phone maybe a handful of days...
still i find myself sad when alone
tomorrow night i'm having 4 guys over from work for hockey game, need to think of what i'm going to cook to feed four young guys! beef dips maybe? easy and cheap, 20$ can feex 5 ...
hmmmm
i adore my nicky though ... miss him dearly. i forget what it feels like to be kissed by him now ... the only vivid memory i have it him in his toque *in pic two posts down* at the airport, he actually cried when we parted
text from this morning *2 am my time on tuesday* 11 pm his time a day ahead
"When you wake up and get this message i hope you will smile and think of me.I love you so much and cannot wait to kiss you and hold u in my arms once again. two hearts as 1
In love
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deep thoughts way too early in the morning
meaning a type of person who could be alone with thier own thoughts
a type of being content with their own being.
not afraid to conetemplate thier lives and thier contributions to humanity without shame
or regret
He is a wise man my father. it's not something i have concidered thinking before.
the few times i have been left alone, forced with solitude, no matter how short or lengthy of a time I have crubled.
27 years this time around so far, and i have never bared being alone with my conscienceness
sadness i cannot pinpoint. Regrets i can't even replay in my own thoughts
i have many of excuses. for not wanting to replay my own imprints
i could succum to my own shame i manage to hide behind a smile, and glittery personality i share with the world
vacous as it may be. it serves me well. and i surround myself with other beings that allow me to parade these attributes
alone with my thoughts, is when i fear i start to deterierate my quality of life
the quality of life i have been building for 27 years. not quiet a facade, not quiet showing the damage that has been done. but the me i have build, is the me i'd like to be. is there shame in that?
Is there shame in showing people what i want them to see? a bubbly, happy, smiley me?
The shaman told me, to be like bear. to sit with my pain and thoughts, embrace them without the assistance of booze and alcohol, and then, i can be like bear and visit the dream lodge and get help from those who have passed.
I am finding it hard to be like bear. I find it hard to be alone with my thoughts. my inner ego is harming my spirit. it's the ego that allows me to manipulate one happy thought into a sad thought, over working my imagination to manifest negativity that is not even there.
why do i cry when all i have in my life brings me happiness. is it being lonely? am i really lonely? i've only been on my own for two weeks. why do i crumble in the darkness of my living room. why do i cry, i just don't get it ...
i admire those that are not afraid to be with thier thoughts, find comfort in the lives they'd led, the choices they've made. i admire the kind of person that can reflect on their path and smile, and say 'you did alright kid'. you did alright
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Yay for me
*hearts*
My letter to nicky when he left. He said it was the cutest thing he's ever read! [ommited a few sexual parts to spare the youngins]
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You brought me back to life. In more ways than I've ever expressed to you. When spring came to an end, I was lost. I was in pain, confused, and not sure what I was going to do next. It's a place I had been before, I knew I would be OK. But you came into my life, at a time when I really needed a friend. And you were there for me when i felt so so so alone. Even as 'just friends' at the beginning, it felt like you were giving me new breath. When we'd hike, or swim, or sit in my crappy living room, just talking. I got to know you. And it felt good to make you smile.
That first night when I kissed you. Still goes down as the most passionate, heart warming, goosebump giving night of my life. I had never felt that type of thrill, or intense passion in my life.[omitted] I feel truely loved and cared for when in your arms. I feel lucky. All the time.
[ommited] lol
I had told my family after two weeks with you, that I had found the one. They laughed and actually said they had never heard me say that about anyone before. And I must have met someone pretty special.
I know our situation has not brought happiness at all times. The choices you've had to make. The hearts you had to break, I couldn't imagine the shoes you had to walk in over this past summer and fall, the thoughts that must have raced through your mind.
You treat me so well, better than I've ever been treated before. I've never fellt so beautiful or desired in my life. You will be missed so much when you are home. I'll miss seeing you topless around my flat (more than you know!). With nothing but a towel on. Your eyes light up when I smile. I'll miss talking to you and making you watch my stupid ghost shows and glee. Bender will miss you too. I love our little family. I love you and adore you nicky. You're my friend. Compadré. And my love.
I promise to never change, to always put our happiness first. I promise to always treat you right, be faithful and truthful. I'll never make you sad, and I'll never cause you worry or doubt. You are the man I hope to spend my life with, and I will never jeapordise you or our future.
Me will miss you my nicky nicky.
love,
Danielle
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Ok Updates
We are still together. Got a new apartment October 1st - nicky moved in with me. He ended things with his ex in August. closed accounts, and is back in New Zealand right now (been there for 10 days so far, 13 more to go) getting all his stuff shipped over here. He is getting a canadian perm. residency which means he'll be here for 5 years
He's called me everyday, mostly twice a day ... and yeah things are really swell between us ... I went to my parents hosue after dropping him off @ the airport, we both cried, and I told my parents he was the man I would marry one day. And my dad teared up and said nick had asked his permission the week before if he could marry me *sniff*
and I dont' know when he'll ask, but he said the night before he left "I'll get you something really nice to wear when I get back" and me being a ditz said "Clothes?" and he laughed and said "No something much more nicer"
Work is still coming to terms with it! haha, cuz they've worked with him for 6 years, and he's the oldest guy that works here! (10 years older than me) lol but yeah they're all happy for us ...
Nick is going to buy us a house when he gets back into town, he sold his house in NZ. And it's all very surreal, on the way to the airport he told me what he sees for our entire future ... and yeah ... I'm pretty incredibly happy ...
I've never been treated so well in my life, He absolutely adores me and shows me in every way ... an amazing man ...
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Love you girl. Happy belated meloversary.
And I'll continue being here for you always. <333
Good Morning Serenifly! Looking forward to tonight! I'm watching the torch relay and already [sniffle, choke], feeling emotions. (talk amongst yourselves)
Oh no, I definitely don't have to force myself to like him. He is wonderful. I want us to have a future.
It's iowa that I can't stand. All the damn snow. I feel like it's been winter since I got here 6 months ago.
The people are nice, but I miss my family and my friends. I feel like we were all a little off beat and got each other but everyone seems to...normal here lol. And I miss the beach and seeing the mountains. I miss city life. Hollywood. Shows. So many things that Iowa doesn't have. But I'm trying to get over that. I'm with the man I love.
oh oh ... what do you mean force yourself to like him? is he not wonderful ... is it a mix of being in iowa and with him? would you stay there if you broke up?
i felt lke that when i moved to this smaller town, even though it is closer to my last city .... i didn't know if i could stay here after my break up, but i did and i'm glad i did! making any great friends there? gotta be a huge adjustment vs cali!
I know what you mean hun. I hate reading those things too. I just love you is all. <3
Well, I'm glad that things are working out and I'm glad you're both happy. :)
Things with the boyfriend are good, but I'm still adjusting to Iowa.
I'm trying to force myself to like it for him. It's not easy lol.
I know :) I was half joking when I called you out! haha it does hurt, it's not the nicest thing to read, but we've al 'known' eachother a few years now, and I like to think I could hack some common sense! haha still girls are sensative, and sometimes only want to hear 'see' what we want :0
Things with us are fantastic, he went home to new zealand for December, and came back, and now we are living together and planning a future, I know he's going to be asking me to marry him pretty soon, and we're saving to either a) buy a house in canada next year or b) MOve to new zealand to try at a life there .... I'll be cool with either to be honest with yo
how are things in your new town with your man? I read yesterday I think you were leaving Utah?
For the longest time I didnt come on here cuz I thought the site was broken, but I have the header at the top of the page, and all I had to do was scroll down! (a lot) haha what an idiot! lol
LOL, I'm sorry hun, but it comes out of a place of love and not judgement.
I'm no angel either and I've ignored other peoples hurtful truth's before, but I just try to remember that they're only doing it because they love me.
Vent away hunny. If it's what you need then it doesn't matter what I have to say or what anyone else has to say.
I love you and all I hope is that you're happy. :)
I assume things worked out for you guys then? Because I WANT to be proven wrong.
what the heckamalecka! can't get to MY MELO or anything for new entires N shitt ...
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im totally jealous. you've found the only decent guy left!