or working my website

not waiting for you to message me or sign onto facebook.
haha.

i think last night tom tried to friend break up with me. it was bizarre. i can't help but be confused and laugh about it a little bit but not really care. woops.

i think i want to write something to byron-

i can't help but want to be intimate with you. i tried to deny my thoughts for a while, making little challenges for the universe like "if byron reads reddit i will try to get with him", when that didn't work out i decided to go with DTF after your dissertation. i am also embarrassed to come out and say all of the things i want to say because we do have to interact with each other in a work environment and i am so scared that you will reject/laugh at my sexual advances.

i think you know a bit of what i'm getting at because, for curiosity's sake, you asked what i would say if you were like i want to fuck you right here right now in the fluorimeter room while you were doing a kinetic titration with the timer going off every 10 minutes.
i asked if you had a condom. were you as disappointed as i was that you didn't?

but at the same time, your dreamy blue eyes ARE dreamy, and i LIKE it when you hug me, and i want to hold hands with you and have you wrap your toe thumbs around my palms.

i think you are worried about making a "respectable woman out of me" which is even MORE appealing because it adds so much to your sincerity. i think we could pull off whirlwind romance very well, then go our separate ways. i told you that it's kind of an ideal situation. our two lonely souls can come together and find temporary fulfilment in fucking and spooning afterwards, telling each other funny stories, and sharing our dark secrets.

please don't let this be an opportunity that we miss.
even if you are busy. you have to have some downtime from writing...

i know this is not what you expected. it's easy to say "i just wanted to let you know that SOMEONE thinks you are pretty and worthwhile and would in some fantasy/alternate reality enjoy your company. but when you are faced with the situation, when it's right in your face, something you can grab, it is no longer appealing?

i think that's probably just true of me in general, though. maybe that's why i feel more comfortable typing into boxes than talking to faces.