taintedcunt
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I noticed that ever since I admitted to Chip that I like him, and admitted to Kenny that I'm not in love with him anymore[and we'll never get back together] I have been absolut happy. I can't think of anything in my life that I'm not happy with, other than my preformance at school and my fat ass. I can't remember the last time I was this pleased with life.
11 Things I Look For in a Guy:
01. Sense of Humour
Seriously, I fucking hate people that can't take a goddamn joke[Kenny]. If I was seriously insulting you, that means I don't like you. I'm not too sure about you, but I'm not one to hang out with people I don't like avidly.
02. Maturity
I'm sorry Kenny & Kenny fans, but I can't stand that whole fucking sailor bullshit. After like once, it got really old. I don't want someone to sit around and make little baby faces and spit bubbles at me, I want someone I can have a normal conversation with for fucks sakes.
03. Responsibility
If you say you're going to be somewhere, and you don't show up, then don't say you're going to be there. I always expect people to follow through with plans, and if you can't make it then give me a courtesy call. Responsibility also includes acting your goddamn age. I like boys that can hold a job. I'm sick of supporting a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend, not a parasite. A car is only important to me because all the boys I like don't end up living on Bainbridge.
04. Brains
I don't want another high school dropout. I'd like a guy who knows what he's saying. Kenny used to say shit like, "Did you know that they put dog shit in Shampoo because it makes your hair feel nice?" all matter-o-factly. To which I can only respond with, "...No they don't." I LIKE A GUY WHO KNOWS HOW TO SPELL!
05. Looks
Now, don't get the wrong idea. I'm no shallow cunt but I can't have a functioning relationship with somebody if I'm not physically attracted to them. I'm not asking for a Johnny Depp[although that would be fantastic] but I'd like a guy who fits my standards physically.
06. Hygiene
I will never date a guy who doesn't bathe everyday again. I like boys that smell good and have nice non-greasy hair to play with. I REALLY like boys that don't wear the same clothes every single fucking day. You'd think Kenny was a like a cartoon character, they wear the same thing everyday. Except they have multiples of everything. Like Dexter.
07. Good at Prioritizing
I don't want to be at the top of his list, but I'd like to be pretty damn close. I don't want to feel like I don't matter in a relationship, or feel like I'm not special. I've already been through that and it's really shitty. I never want to be made to feel like that by a loved one ever again.
08. Shyness
I don't like a guy that won't talk to me & turns red when I'm three feet away from him, but I like a guy that's quiet, they're mysterious. I hate when I can predict what people are going to say. People who don't talk ALL the time though, are harder to predict. Which is nice.
09. Protective
Every girl wants a guy who's willing to punch a pervert in the face for her. I'd do it myself, but I don't want to chip my nailpolish. I don't want an overly violent guy, but someone who's willing to stick up for me because he knows I'm worth something.
10. Trustworthy
I want to be able to trust and depend on my boyfriend. I don't want to have to keep an extra eye open whenever there's a girl around or something like that. I don't like being lied to, and I can usually tell when people are lying so it isn't a good idea. If there's no trust, your relationship will deteriorate.
11. Respect
My boyfriend needs to respect me, my personal belongings, my person bubble and everything else of mine or my family's. Don't throw my shit around, don't be destructive. I don't want a boy who's going to rush into anything either. I'll kiss you when I'm ready, I'll have sex with you if & when I'm ready, don't ask. It's always pretty much up to the girl. You don't have to ask to kiss or touch me, but if I pull away, take it as a hint please.
& all I have to say is:
Chip has all those things.
Yours Truly
11 Things I Look For in a Guy:
01. Sense of Humour
Seriously, I fucking hate people that can't take a goddamn joke[Kenny]. If I was seriously insulting you, that means I don't like you. I'm not too sure about you, but I'm not one to hang out with people I don't like avidly.
02. Maturity
I'm sorry Kenny & Kenny fans, but I can't stand that whole fucking sailor bullshit. After like once, it got really old. I don't want someone to sit around and make little baby faces and spit bubbles at me, I want someone I can have a normal conversation with for fucks sakes.
03. Responsibility
If you say you're going to be somewhere, and you don't show up, then don't say you're going to be there. I always expect people to follow through with plans, and if you can't make it then give me a courtesy call. Responsibility also includes acting your goddamn age. I like boys that can hold a job. I'm sick of supporting a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend, not a parasite. A car is only important to me because all the boys I like don't end up living on Bainbridge.
04. Brains
I don't want another high school dropout. I'd like a guy who knows what he's saying. Kenny used to say shit like, "Did you know that they put dog shit in Shampoo because it makes your hair feel nice?" all matter-o-factly. To which I can only respond with, "...No they don't." I LIKE A GUY WHO KNOWS HOW TO SPELL!
05. Looks
Now, don't get the wrong idea. I'm no shallow cunt but I can't have a functioning relationship with somebody if I'm not physically attracted to them. I'm not asking for a Johnny Depp[although that would be fantastic] but I'd like a guy who fits my standards physically.
06. Hygiene
I will never date a guy who doesn't bathe everyday again. I like boys that smell good and have nice non-greasy hair to play with. I REALLY like boys that don't wear the same clothes every single fucking day. You'd think Kenny was a like a cartoon character, they wear the same thing everyday. Except they have multiples of everything. Like Dexter.
07. Good at Prioritizing
I don't want to be at the top of his list, but I'd like to be pretty damn close. I don't want to feel like I don't matter in a relationship, or feel like I'm not special. I've already been through that and it's really shitty. I never want to be made to feel like that by a loved one ever again.
08. Shyness
I don't like a guy that won't talk to me & turns red when I'm three feet away from him, but I like a guy that's quiet, they're mysterious. I hate when I can predict what people are going to say. People who don't talk ALL the time though, are harder to predict. Which is nice.
09. Protective
Every girl wants a guy who's willing to punch a pervert in the face for her. I'd do it myself, but I don't want to chip my nailpolish. I don't want an overly violent guy, but someone who's willing to stick up for me because he knows I'm worth something.
10. Trustworthy
I want to be able to trust and depend on my boyfriend. I don't want to have to keep an extra eye open whenever there's a girl around or something like that. I don't like being lied to, and I can usually tell when people are lying so it isn't a good idea. If there's no trust, your relationship will deteriorate.
11. Respect
My boyfriend needs to respect me, my personal belongings, my person bubble and everything else of mine or my family's. Don't throw my shit around, don't be destructive. I don't want a boy who's going to rush into anything either. I'll kiss you when I'm ready, I'll have sex with you if & when I'm ready, don't ask. It's always pretty much up to the girl. You don't have to ask to kiss or touch me, but if I pull away, take it as a hint please.
& all I have to say is:
Chip has all those things.
Yours Truly
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Red Gloves
I had the most amazing weekend.
Friday
Lauren & Casey and Myself planned to make an appearence at a show in Bremerton but decided against it and instead sat around at some guy's house watching The Devil's Rejects. Then we went home.
Saturday
I had Saturday School so I got to sit in the library at my school for 4 hours, after that Casey & myself went and had an adventure in Seattle while waiting for Chip to call me. Finally around 3 or 4 he called, at around 7 PM they got into Seattle and we walked around a bit, then we all went back to Leela's house and partied. I hooked Kevin up with Casey and they hit it off really well. They all woke me up at 6 in the fucking morning but I woke up next to Chip so it was all good.
I love spending time with Chip, I feel good when I'm with him.
Sunday
We all hung around and watched weird ass movies, I spent the majority of the morning with Chip in the guest bedroom with Lauren and David by our sides, all making stupid jokes.
Then David and Chip and Kevin and Casey and everyone went home... and now I'm sitting here, 10 minutes after Chip left and I already miss him. I hope he comes out again this weekend.
Yours Truly
Friday
Lauren & Casey and Myself planned to make an appearence at a show in Bremerton but decided against it and instead sat around at some guy's house watching The Devil's Rejects. Then we went home.
Saturday
I had Saturday School so I got to sit in the library at my school for 4 hours, after that Casey & myself went and had an adventure in Seattle while waiting for Chip to call me. Finally around 3 or 4 he called, at around 7 PM they got into Seattle and we walked around a bit, then we all went back to Leela's house and partied. I hooked Kevin up with Casey and they hit it off really well. They all woke me up at 6 in the fucking morning but I woke up next to Chip so it was all good.
I love spending time with Chip, I feel good when I'm with him.
Sunday
We all hung around and watched weird ass movies, I spent the majority of the morning with Chip in the guest bedroom with Lauren and David by our sides, all making stupid jokes.
Then David and Chip and Kevin and Casey and everyone went home... and now I'm sitting here, 10 minutes after Chip left and I already miss him. I hope he comes out again this weekend.
Yours Truly
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Chocolate Chip Cookie
My weekend was very well spent.
My birthday party was on Saturday. Chip, Kevin & Kyle attended as planned and I spent the night & this afternoon with Chip.
The events that occured at my party have lead me to believe that I am in fact, not a piece of ass.
Which is fantastic.
Yours Truly
My birthday party was on Saturday. Chip, Kevin & Kyle attended as planned and I spent the night & this afternoon with Chip.
The events that occured at my party have lead me to believe that I am in fact, not a piece of ass.
Which is fantastic.
Yours Truly
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Anthrax Disco
It's late and I can't seem to sleep for a variety of reasons;
anthraxtheboyilikeinsomnialazynessmybirthdaythiscomingupsaturday...
I love how difficult things are when you're young. I like the challenge of getting through life. I like that I haven't committed suicide like every other person my age. Who knows, maybe I'm next ?
My mind has been in the same place since Friday and it's nice to have something to think about other than what I'm going to do with my life and what direction it's going.
Hey, maybe I'm not a failure after all.
Yours Truly
anthraxtheboyilikeinsomnialazynessmybirthdaythiscomingupsaturday...
I love how difficult things are when you're young. I like the challenge of getting through life. I like that I haven't committed suicide like every other person my age. Who knows, maybe I'm next ?
My mind has been in the same place since Friday and it's nice to have something to think about other than what I'm going to do with my life and what direction it's going.
Hey, maybe I'm not a failure after all.
Yours Truly
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Show Me Yo Grill
My body is exhausted from this weekend, and yet I find myself still being a social whore.
I'm about to catch the bus to town to go to a movie with my ex girlfriend.
I have to get cigarettes while I'm there, as well.
On another note, according to my exboyfriend, I'm a psychopath. I found good humour in this.
I can't wait for Saturday.
It should be fun...
Yours Truly
I'm about to catch the bus to town to go to a movie with my ex girlfriend.
I have to get cigarettes while I'm there, as well.
On another note, according to my exboyfriend, I'm a psychopath. I found good humour in this.
I can't wait for Saturday.
It should be fun...
Yours Truly
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I'm taking a ride with my best friend.
I love my best friend
For the last 6 years we have been inseperable.
Here's to us, Leela
I couldn't ask for more in a friend.
Yours Truly
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A Pain That I'm Used To
This is something I feel strongly about.
You know I often find myself asking, “What’s the point?”
Up until now, I wasn’t sure. Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness, whatever that may be. It could be a car, a first born, a spouse, a house or even a stick of butter at a crazy party.
Desire. This is a symptom of our journey. If you desire nothing, you are in no pursuit of anything. Which could possess multiple meanings. Maybe you’ve already achieved happiness. Or maybe you just don’t care. If that’s the case you’re wasting your time.
People are constantly inventing new things for people to pursue and it often misleads you & makes you believe that there’s something else. If you’re smart, you realize at an earlier age in life that the pursuit of happiness, the journey, is inscribed in your DNA. It’s the epitome of instinct.
Anything that has every made you smile has been a part of your voyage.
Unfortunately, it isn’t easy and as a result the majority of this world’s population will surrender and abandon their quest. Some people know what they want, and they’re quite the fortunate people. Some people, on the other hand have got no idea and they spend their lives looking in the wrong places for what they need to be emotionally stable.
It has taken me years to realize what makes me happy and what I need to do to successfully finish the beginning of my expedition. And now that I have a clue as to what I really do want and need, I feel like there may be hope for me. Even though I haven’t got what I need, or done what I need to do, I know that I will and I know that soon, very soon, things will be better and I’ll be able to live out the rest of my teenage years angst-free which is a lot more that most people can say.
The unfortunate things that happen to you in life are supposed to happen. It’s a type of sign telling you that you’re not searching in the right spot. Some people don’t really notice that, though. They just think they’re a collection of failures. These ill-fated events happen to set you back on the right track. To remind you of what you’re actually here for, which is not where you currently are.
I know what I need to do to achieve euphoria, and I’m well on my way.
Yours Truly
You know I often find myself asking, “What’s the point?”
Up until now, I wasn’t sure. Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness, whatever that may be. It could be a car, a first born, a spouse, a house or even a stick of butter at a crazy party.
Desire. This is a symptom of our journey. If you desire nothing, you are in no pursuit of anything. Which could possess multiple meanings. Maybe you’ve already achieved happiness. Or maybe you just don’t care. If that’s the case you’re wasting your time.
People are constantly inventing new things for people to pursue and it often misleads you & makes you believe that there’s something else. If you’re smart, you realize at an earlier age in life that the pursuit of happiness, the journey, is inscribed in your DNA. It’s the epitome of instinct.
Anything that has every made you smile has been a part of your voyage.
Unfortunately, it isn’t easy and as a result the majority of this world’s population will surrender and abandon their quest. Some people know what they want, and they’re quite the fortunate people. Some people, on the other hand have got no idea and they spend their lives looking in the wrong places for what they need to be emotionally stable.
It has taken me years to realize what makes me happy and what I need to do to successfully finish the beginning of my expedition. And now that I have a clue as to what I really do want and need, I feel like there may be hope for me. Even though I haven’t got what I need, or done what I need to do, I know that I will and I know that soon, very soon, things will be better and I’ll be able to live out the rest of my teenage years angst-free which is a lot more that most people can say.
The unfortunate things that happen to you in life are supposed to happen. It’s a type of sign telling you that you’re not searching in the right spot. Some people don’t really notice that, though. They just think they’re a collection of failures. These ill-fated events happen to set you back on the right track. To remind you of what you’re actually here for, which is not where you currently are.
I know what I need to do to achieve euphoria, and I’m well on my way.
Yours Truly
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World War IV
On Friday afternoon we(Lauren, Myself and Kenny) headed out to Shannon's house in Hoodsport*. I brought the power and Shannon invited a horde of people over to party it up. I can't remember whether or not I passed out before 11 PM but if I did, good fucking job Madi.
On Saturday we went to Olympia and recruited people for Saturday's party. That one kind of sucked, but it was good in a couple of ways and I'll explain that soon.
Sunday was fantastic and this is why:
Around Halloween of 2005, Shannon threw a Halloween party. At that party, I met some people by the names of Kevin, Chip, Kyle and one more that probably doesn't matter. I didn't think much of Chip then, but I do now.
I spent the entire weekend oggling him.
Finally on Sunday night I admitted that I liked him, and he said it wasn't one sided. We spent the rest of the night attached at the hip.
Yours Truly
*Hoodsport; middle of fucking nowhere.
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SS Deathstar
Up until now I always thought the internet would never let me down when it came to entertainment. I always find myself having something to do here or there. But not today, my friends.
Today, I am bored as shit.
And today I'd sort of like to be alone. I don't want to see anybody which is a problem right now because earlier after my cigarette, I heard meowing. My cat had been on the roof all night, so I got him down and apparently that means I saved his life so he won't stop following me everywhere.
I'd like to throw him at a wall
Tomorrow I return to the shittiest place on the planet where I will be forced to pay attention to the bullshit that flows from their assholes. I can't wait.
Yours Truly
Today, I am bored as shit.
And today I'd sort of like to be alone. I don't want to see anybody which is a problem right now because earlier after my cigarette, I heard meowing. My cat had been on the roof all night, so I got him down and apparently that means I saved his life so he won't stop following me everywhere.
Tomorrow I return to the shittiest place on the planet where I will be forced to pay attention to the bullshit that flows from their assholes. I can't wait.
Yours Truly
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Culte de Mode
Well since I've now got the introduction out of the way, I can begin writing in this melo.
I had a melo account before this one, but managed to forget the name of it. It was probably filled with emo bullshit anyway.
Here's the deal, I'm Madison and that's how it's going to be.
I lie to people a lot and I'm worthless. I contribute nothing wherever I go, and I'm okay with that.
Yours Truly
I had a melo account before this one, but managed to forget the name of it. It was probably filled with emo bullshit anyway.
Here's the deal, I'm Madison and that's how it's going to be.
I lie to people a lot and I'm worthless. I contribute nothing wherever I go, and I'm okay with that.
Yours Truly
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Section Eight
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