merry christmas everybawdy.

♥ jessjess

I just really got the Ten Best of Blondie CD at Target for $5.99.
I also got some peach rings and I ate too many.

♥ jessjess

Ps///There just really are lots of people at Disneyland today.

me& the boyfriend. [kisskiss]

♥jessjess

kelly: Do you think Chain Reaction has really been around since 1652? Hmm..probably, huh.
me: Kelly, that’s the address.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Kelly, yur so cute♥

So lastnight was the Saosin show. I didn’t get to go in, so I just stayed outside the whole time, but it was cool. I hung out with Angel, Jimmy, Hector, Jordan, Daniel, Lucas, and Andy and yeah. Then me& Kelly went to Denny’s to get some fries& stuff. I got this coffee thing and burned my whole mouth off. LIKE FUCKING OUCH. Ahh and since I couldn’t go inside, I talked to Nick, and that was good. :):) Then we came home, I called Nick again, said goodnight, and then went in my room to watch Cinderella. I kind of fell asleep, but whatev.

Today I was supposed to go shopping, but apparently I’m not because my mom just doesn’t want to or something. I was just like...okay mom, whatever.



sunday bloody sunday

♥jessjess

I FOUND NICK!










& this could be the beginning of something wonderful.







I♥destiny right now.



♥jessjess

ohhh SHit. I got my cellphone back bitchfaces. Be the first to call it. 714-420-1105. call now!

♥ jessjess

so i’ve decided that most things just arent worth trying for.

heres a few pictures from lastnight& today:


me& kelly

again

me& hector...awwww ♥♥♥

opie& kelly, awww

me& opie, awww

kelly& mark

kelly& mark, again, the picture with me and mark got deleted. sadface.

me& kelly in the car

yeah, thats me eating a french fry out of kelly’s nose.

’look kelly, i’m jon!’

glam

first kiss

second kiss

oh so emo

silly us

bitch.

uh...

...oh

gangsta whaaat

i kind of kissed kelly’s neck

sadface.

i miss you.

kelly’s so pretty.

thats all guys. have a good day.

♥♥♥ jessjess

Omgawwwwsh! Lastnight was sooooo funn! Met new people (Gabe, Ricky, Nick) and I danced my ass off. It really didn’t get fun until DDM played...Gabe danced with me and he’s sooo wayyyy hawwttttt. Mmmmm. Dancing with him was wayy fun too. WOo..then the ex models went on and me& kelly danced with Drew. He’s so funnn! Then me& Kelly walked home at like 11 oclock at night, IN ANAHEIM! how scary is that?!

School was alright today, nothing too exciting happened...Just thinking alot lately. Yeah...

Dear siamesegunbang/xclickclickbang/thegirlsgobam/whateveryourecallingyourwonderfulselfthesedays,
I miss you tons. But that just really doesn’t matter, now, does it?


♥♥♥jessjess

I’m just really not okay anymore.
I’m starting to scare myself.

Lastnight I went out with Jose and we had a guhhhreat time! I haven’t seen him in like 4 months since school got out& I finally go to! So we went to Downtown Disney so he could buy him& his friend tickets for a show there later in the month or something and then we looked at the movies& times. The movies weren’t playing until kinda late, so we went to the block and looked at the movies there. We were gonna see Texas Chainsaw, but it was sold out& then we were gonna see Scary Movie 3 but it was sold out, so we just walked around. We went to Tilly’s to visit Matt& Christian was there too. Then we went to Virgin& I showed Jose all the good music& he showed me his music too. Then we looked at the books and that was fun. Then we walked around some more and then left. He took me to Starbucks and they took forever there, but it was worth it. He took me home& we said our goodbyes until the next time we see eachother. It was fun& nice to be with someone so important to me.

I got home& watched Mad TV and then fell asleep. I woke up early and I feel really fresh. Now my mom’s making breakfast even though I already ate strawberry poptarts, I’ll end up eating more anyway.

My neck still hurts, but I’m sure it will be better by tomorrow.

Ex-Models& DDM Tuesday wooo, how exciting.

♥♥♥jessjess

iloveyouandrew

So yesterday was pretty lame. It was a half day and I didn’t even watch Passions. How horrible. ANNNND then, I was supposed to go to Hogues with TonyPony, but I didn’t because he didn’t call me back and blah blah...

Then today, I woke up with a stiff neck and I just COULD NOT fucking move at all. And trying to walk was a pain in the ass. I like couldn’t move my neck, so I looked like a fucking robot. Jeeeez louise. And I was supposed to go with Jose to the free show thing and I haven’t seen him since school ended, and now I think I’m stuck at home and just great. So I guess I might go to the movies with TonyPony or something or I dunno.

And then I guess Andrews date went super perfect and blah blah blah. And I guess it’s just never going to happen. And I just really need to except that before I completely breakdown and have a heartattack.

Aww and yesterday Jon made me this thing and yeah I loved it and it was great. JON I LOVE YOU!! THANKS fer always being my bestest friend.

<3jessjess

Me& Kelly had walking home fun today and then we went to Carls Jr. Charles was there with Blake and then Travis came. Wooo we had like a partay...it was fun. Me& kelly were supposed to have jacuzzi fun but we didn’t because my mom wouldnt let me go. *sadface.

Anyway, school was alright, after school was fun. I’m getting sick.

I have like a heart palpatation. Scary huh. I should really go to the doctor.

<3jessjess

this is the last time i’ll try to reach you
and my guess is, you’ll just ignore me.
without a passing glance
without the slightest sigh
without moving your hands
without the softest cry

if i’d say
go your own way, i’ll be with you
make mistakes and i’ll forgive you
home is waiting here for you when you return.

rain reveals the foundation
and this one’s wearing thin
and shifting in the sand.

and the water does its damage
with its endless beating pulse
heralding the end

without a passing glance
without the slightest sigh
wihtout moving your hands
without the softest cry

if id say
go your own way, i’ll be with you
make mistakes and i’ll forgive you
home is waiting here for you when you return

this is the last time i will try to reach you
and my guess is that you’ll just ignore it
just ignore me.

go your own way, i’ll be with you
make mistakes and i’ll forgive you
home is waiting here for you when you return

So I guess that’s it.

Ahh I hope Tony can come over today, I could use some cheering up.

I need new hair! How should I cut it?

<3Jess

Mark My Words by Jon [slightly altered]

Is it true what I have heard?
Is it true about you and her?

And would you care if I told you that I loved you?
Don’t you see that I have feelings to?

I have fallen deep inside a hole
A hole dug deep inside my soul

You branded my heart with your deceiving mark
As I was struck by the blow of reality,
You shot me down until I was dead, DEAD IN YOUR EYES

Degraded in my priceless dream
My wothless dream that seems so real
And why is it that every time I have something going for me
It always tends to break apart [to fall apart]

You all live your lives in vein, [in great fame]
Why must mine be the consequences of thinking the unthinkable
So mark my words. The next time I fall it will be the last...

^that’s all so true. I still love you...

Friday night me, Kelly, Ashli, and Brittany were monsters at the maze at Edison field. It was way fun...

Saturday, I went shopping and then to the Beautiful Mistake show with Mike. I had fun with him, and the show was okay too, I saw Katie& Erin for the first time in a looooooong time. That was fun, I had a really good time with Mike, he made it speshul.

I just got done cleaning all the windows in the house. Shiiit. That was work.

My brother and his girlfriend are going to the movies and I’m stuck at home. Maybe I’ll go to the movies toooo. Probably not. *sadface. Oh well.

we come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly