here’s a story with a twist
i’ll draw a picture on my wrist
a picture of my mortal life
ill carve so sweetly with my knife
soon enough a fountain will apear
and make all my troubles disapear
-chrissy

well i havnt wrote in this for soo long. just to update things....

- i got a haircut

- im not a tweaker

- i still smoke pot

- chrissy is still grounded.

- gabby needs to get better and get out of that shit place shes in.

- i miss my friends

- im not happy.

- people piss me off

- im lonely

- i got a new cut

ehhh enough. finished.

......one last time......

wow i havnt been on melo in a while. I’ve been grounded for like a month now. My mom somehow had the hint i was smoking weed and gave me a drug test. of corse i failed and got the lecture of my life, the phone, my screen name took’n away, and i cant go out till the end of summer, fun shit. So hi to everyone and ill be seing some of u guys next year at dimand ranch. -chrissy

...."And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened."

. jamie and i . * jamie i love you so much!!! *


.... i will be here for you always and forever .....

last night i guess you could say i hit rock bottom. First things first im really sorry to anyone i hurt or yelled at and justin im so sorry for destroying your house. I had no isea that i was going to trip out that hard. so lets see my very exciting night
-aaron picks me up in norco
-we stop buy jack in the box so he can pee
-we stop at circle k to get some FOOD
-chrissy smokes 2 bowls all buy her self in aarons car
-feeling pretty fucking good
-go to zacks house and shroom with anthony
-meet up with nic, greg, adam, justin and some others at justins
-take one big rip of zacks bong and cough alot
-go outside to get air
-start tripping out REAL bad
-throw up
-notice that i dont know where the fuck i am
-see greg come out and feel relifed IM FOUND!!!
-lay down in justins bed
-then i turn into a psyco bitch and trip out
-yell at everyone and try to get the phone
- no one would give me the phone so i talked to my hand
-fall of bed
-spill water ALL over my self
-look like SHIT
-keep hearing nics voice echoing in my head "chrissy’s tripping out"
-get mad and tell nic to shutup ( sorry nic)
-black out and go in the livin room and start falling
-i hit my head
-break everything
-start screaming at the top of my lungs and scare the shit outa everyone
-i took 3 guys to pin me down on the couch so i would calm down
-someone seriously should have hit me with someting and knocked my anoying ass out
-fall asleep
-eyes roll in back of head and start twitching
-getting cold
-fall aslep
-get droped off at jackin the box to meet courtney
-go to coutneys house and pass out
that was the ultimate trip out, im bruised and my head has a nice lump. Im so not doing shooms or a long time

*Chrissy*

well well well...today i turned nic into a model. and my dog got a haircut!!! FINALLY hahah BUDDYYY!!! .....greg cut my doggy....he was bleeding...awww. - Rochelle -

Demolition Lovers

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I’d say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I’d end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I’m trying, I’m trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there’s nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we’ll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I’ll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I’m trying, I’m trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...

I’m trying, I’m trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we’ll show them
We’ll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...

All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this

As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms

Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we’re burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you’re the only one
Like a bed of roses there’s a dozen reasons in this gun

And as we’re falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we’re touching hands, and as we’re falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we’re falling down
I’ll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I’ll meet your eyes, I mean this forever

. and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide .

- aaron picked me up.
- we go to pick up nic.
- nic takes FOREVER to get ready.
- then we were off to NORCO.
- the adventure begins...
- we pick up chrissy.
- we drive around.
- we go to a park and blaze.
- then we were in the search of foood.
- we found a pasta place!! =)
- me and nic eat spagetti.
- spagetti gets stuck in my lip ring!! eww nasty!
- we then head to STARBUCKS.
- nic loves chocolate brownie frappacinnos.
- thank you aaron for getting the starbucks!! =)
- we take chrissy home.
- we drive all the way home.
- drop nic off.
- get stuck in mud...haha
- i had to back the truck out of the mud and got aaron all muddy! sorry man!!!
- get a call from chrissy.
- she tells us to go to danes house..cause uhhh yeah....
- we go to danes house.
- dane=sad
- we cheer him up and take him out of the house.
- yet again...get stuck attemting to do some off-roading. hahah
- and again...im the hero for backing out hah. actually it was the boys. they are pretty strong.
- me.dane.aaron. blaze.
- park the car.
- end up falling asleep.
- wake up. take dane home. then i go home.
- end of adventure...

. dang what a night .

.sometimes you just have to smile and walk away hide your tears and pretend everythings ok.

last week i had the strangest dream where everything ws exactly how it seemed where there was never any mystery of who shot John F. Kenedy it was just a man with something to prove slightly bored and severly confused he stedied his rifle with the target in the ceneter and became famouse on that day in november **dont wake me i plan on sleping in** Dane i fucking love that pink bong. That was some GOOD ganja i was trippin out. How come most of the time i blaze i end up having to run back down a hill? Except this time i missed the path and went threw the bushes.....it hurt......but it was fucking funny. Oh yeah and i love Carl’s Jr. laterz nuggah’s - love Chrissy -

Meet me in the place
Where we first met eyes
I will show you how
How I feel inside
You give me butterflies
When I look into your eyes
I know there’s no end
So I wrote you this song tonight

Meet me in the place
Where you showed me stars
Now I search the sky
Can’t find where they are
All the colors changed
Like my life that day
Now I look above
All I see, all I can say

All I know is that I care
(Care about you now)
All I have is yours to keep
(Hearts on the floor)
But what I really want to know is
Do you feel the way I do

Wrote down all my thoughts
Put them down on little cards

crazy mutha fucking monsters!!