A-Z

A - Age: 19 for 23 more days... :o(
B - Butter or Margarine: butter although both sound pretty nasty at the moment
C - Crush: ryan... (*coughjohhnydeppcough*)
D - Dad's name:henry
E: easiest person to talk to: ummm Ryan or Sonya or Kevin when we actually talk.
F - favorite band at the moment:The Killers
G - gummy bears or gummy worms: gummy bears
H- hometown: Duarte, City of Health
I - instruments: piano, Clarinet.... bleh
J - Jobby Job: studying to be a scientist person
K - kids: 2 actually......no........later
L - longest car ride ever: driving to New York and BACK
M - Mom's name: Mirella
N - number of siblings: 1 brother jon
O - one wish: have everyone be happy together and get along..
P - phobia[s]: dark streets, is that a phobia? Alone-ness...
Q - favorite quote: "Thank you, for every kiss.. every smile"
R - reason to smile: my wonderful boyfriend...
S - song you sang last: the Friends Theme
T - time you wake up: normally 830
U - Underwear Type: depends on what i feel like wearing that day
V - vegetable you hate: carrots
W - worst habit(s): procrastination
X - x-rays you've had: teeth...
Y - yummy food: japanese
Z - zodiac sign: Capricorn

So i havent posted in a while, but i dont wanna start studying for chem, so here i am. I figure if i start at 11, its a good round time to start. Plus, i have until 5 to learn 3 chapters and their concepts.... i've done more in less time. I'm listening to the Nsync Christmas cd.. sadly the radio stations here havent given in to the christmas music thats already playing back home. I know.. i could listen through the internet, but its not the same, and i hate the stupid online commercials. I just need a little christmas lift, or tease rather to get me through the rest of my week.
I'm kind of reluctant to talk about whats been happening in my life lately, seeing the wide variety of people who read this. Outside of those who i know read my melos and blogs, there are those who do, but i have no knowledge of. Ummm.... screw it. So yeah i guess we're rearranging some things where they're needed. Needless to say i think it will be good for the long run, but be "eh" for a while. I think that it'll be ok because its not like anything major or bad is happening, and i feel pretty confident about it. And yeah.. i need a job, and a hobby. 10 minutes.................... boo chemistry!

it was really scary actually, but fear not because we didnt answer our door, so we are safe.
I took my calculus exam and i think i either did remarkably well or decievingly bad. Decievingly..... yes that is my word choice. On a happier note, it it now tuesday.. which is much closer to thursday than monday was. I'm considering going home wednesday, but feel that it would be going against my own rules, so i probably wont.
I got a letter from someone interesting. I havent fully decided what i wanna do with it yet, putting aside my initial urge to rip it into a billion pieces then set it on fire. Iono..... we'll see what happens.

wierd..

I did it in 17 seconds.
I deserved an A-!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!

I found out that i did alright on my physics exam that i was sad about on monday. I didnt get an A, but i didnt fail either, which makes me happy. My lowest score is dropped anyway, and a C isnt bad for being my lowest score. My stupid cold wont go away, an i'm convinced that it will prolly stay through the week. In other news, my puppy had puppies! I'm so sad that i missed it. She had four, and they all look like Jake. Hopefully my mom will figure out how to work the digital camera, so we can get some pictures goin. Nonetheless, i look forward to having puppies through the holiday season.

I havent decided what i wanna title this post yet. I'm glad that melo is back up, although it has forced me to branch out to the world of MySpace and Xanga. I have a cold right now. My body is all achy, i'm dehydrated, and i cant sleep even though i want to. My turtle is noisy. He splashes water constantly and it bothers my ears. HMMMMMMMMM

I still havent seen Princess Diaries 2... I love this song though.

"Breakaway"- Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I’d try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes til’ I touch the sky
I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I loved
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I’ll spread my wings
And I’ll learn how to fly
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

i wonder how long i’m gonna be able to keep up with all this awake time and lack of sleep. I know, i know, it is the college way to live without sleep, but i am a very very sleepy person who needs her beauty rest. Last nite i think that i finally slept the most that i have slept since i got here which was maybe 7 hours ( minus the day where i forced myself to sleep) but i actually slept them like straight and without interruption. It was semi-nice and i woke up not as dead as i have been for the past two days.
I went to physics today, where my reading actually did me some good. I also found out that i did the homework completely wrong, but i’m glad that i started it yesterday since i’ll still have til friday to fix and finish it. I have an hour break until chem, which will be followed by another hour long break and then by my dance class. After dance i will sadly go to my chem lab followed by my physics lab. As it turns out, this will be the longest day of every week because i’ll come in at 9 and leave at 7. That, my friends, is too much school. Luckily it makes up for itself because tomorrow i have a calc lecture which is hardly worth going to, but yeah. Plus, their are actually two lectures for chem, one at 9 and the other at 11. So if i decide to get lazy, i can always come to the 11 one and use the extra hours for sleeping in on thursdays.
More exciting is the fact that i will be going home on friday after my chem class at 11. It feels like i’ve been here for forever, even though its only really been a little over a week. Nonetheless, i plan on seeing some ppl and maybe going to dfc on sunday if all goes well. PLUS i have monday too! more days to sleep in and have fun. I’m Excited.

Raging Waters: Season 2!!
............. Yeah i went back. I liked it there last year, and i see no reason why this summer should be any different. Its been pretty fun lately, since i kinda already know my way around and am a step ahead of all the new-hires. Also, cass got a job with me so that’ll be cool to work together.
I’ve made some new friends in convenient places this year, so thats always fun. Unfortunately my favorite security guard didnt come back this season, so i’ll have to do without his mysteriousness..lol.
It was wierd today. I had one of those movie experiences that just makes you feel really wierd inside. Its kinda hard to describe the feeling using another word than wierd, but it was definately abnormal for me. So here’s what had happened..lol: I was in the surf shop cleaning ( as always) and then i started cleaning the stand for the rings, which has like mood rings and stuff. ( You have to see it to understand) and stupid me.. drops the little papers that say what all the colors mean. So as i kneel to get them, this other person kneels next to me and starts helping me. I was trying to get them all so i didnt look up, but as i reached for the last one.... well it was like we both reached for it at the same time... and then i looked up and it was this guy! and i was like.. umm.. thanks! lol. It was kinda funny to me. He ended up buying some board shorts and yeah. I dunno, i dont think it counts as one of those magical moments in life, seeing as i have a boyfriend and didnt really carry the interaction much farther than the accidental touching of the hands, but as i thought of it, it made me remember those movie moments. You know, girl drops paper, falls to her knees... and as she reaches for the last piece, beautiful guy hands it to her as she utters "ttthhanks". Lol. Cuteness. I love movies.
I get paid on friday! WOO HOO!! I’ll have a lil money.. thats good.

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You Have	2 children
You Live	germany
In	an attic
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Maybe its crazy to think that things just fall into place the way you want them to. I mean, i think that for the most part, everyone has their own idea of how they’ve always wanted things to happen or how they wanted things to turn out. It could only be so true for me. I like to belive that if i think about something long enough and make sure that my feelings about it and how it should work are secure then i have nothing to worry about. But then things happen, friendships die, relationships fail, people say things they werent supposed to say or maybe they dont just say enough, people screw up, I screw up,... it just happens.
I’m confused as to how my outlook on things should be. I’ve tried so hard to make it a certain way, yet i dont think that it suits me well enough.
I was listening to the radio today. As drea would call it, my old people’s station (KOST). This girl was talking something about her first love, and what she said about it really moved me. She said it was "the right love at the wrong time". I thought that was really interesting, how at a certain moment we can say that something is so wrong for us just because its at that very time when we’re examining it. It’s like, well.. maybe at that certain time, you werent ready to handle something like that, or maybe you needed that to realize something for later. Maybe just maybe the things that happen to us that are so wrong ( like screwing up, losing friends, losing relationships) for us at that very moment, are just what we needed for another perfect moment in the future. I think that i like putting things into time slots throughout my life, making it so that i feel that i have some control over it. I think i need to stop worrying about planning out things that work so that they’ll work in the future.Its too hard.

but right now i have to study for my stupid poopy exams that i hate but am really trying to downplay that way i dont just flip. WISH ME LUCK!!! hopefully i’ll be alive after tuesday.

I went to bed last nite at around 2:30am. So by went to bed i mean that i was physically lying in my bed.. just there. I’m not sure what time i actually fell asleep but i can be sure that it wasnt before 3. I woke up at 7 this morning.. commenced my normal thursday routine.. it was ok. Not too much fun. I went to calc which i talked about already. I always dread asking for help in my calc lab. If u dont do it at just the right moment, you’ll get the professor instead of the T.A. My professor has this loud.. whiny annoying voice, and he smokes so he smells like an ashtray whenever he comes and talks to me. If not bad enough, i think he has an issue with personal space.. because he’ll come right up to you without hesitation. I think maybe if he eased his way i wouldnt be so blah about it, but i kinda like my space. My lab partners actually did some work today. I kinda made them by saying that i had to do something else. I started on the new lab while they tried to finish the old one. It wasnt too hard for them though, a lot of cutting and pasting because i practically did it all for them. RIdiculous if u ask me. I then went to bowling at 9, where i had to make up a class. Luckily i had the lane all to myself, so i was rather happy, played some pretty decent games, and was out of there in less than 45 minutes.
I’m so glad that i took the time last nite to write my anthropology extra credit. I dont think i couldve written a good paper if i did it today. So i need to turn that in too.And now its off to finish the lab. Then... lunch break... art.. and HOME!! yay home.

so i didnt get to write very much this week because i was at home.. and my parents have dial-up. So... saturday was very interesting, and i feel like i should write about it. Well.. the part that made me thinkfeel funny part. So we went to night of champions, which is this cool thing put on by APU (Apoooooo!!) every year. So i’m there... and the youth group is there, minus ryan because he had work. And it was just.. i dunno. Maybe i was just having a bad attitude about it because carlos got mad at me, but i just wasnt doin that great. The pictures are goin up by wednesday thoough.. so yeah. All of a sudden i looked at something..... something that made me remember everything. I sat and thought, NATALIE.. what happened this time last year? And then it hit me.. i understood why being there was so wierd for me. Why not having certain ppl around wasnt helping.. yeah. it was wierd. I was kinda sad, but then i went picture crazy and that helped. Why am i so sad today!!!!????!!!! I dont get it.